I get this feeling that yes, it is OCD, but then I also fear that it will turn into desire. I honestly feel my brain just not working and that scares me. Like I’ve gone stupid. Sometimes I can even feel the transition of my thoughts “turning on” in my head, even when I don’t want them to. I feel nothing towards my girlfriend at times and it just feels like I’m falling apart inside.

Username: MikeWietechaMikeWietecha

Date posted: 5y ago

@jm1998 She just fell out of love with me and wanted more out of life than I could offer. Dealing with this has made me a very minimalist and stoic person. All I want is peace of mind from this torture, so I don't have many desires such as fancy things, expensive vacations, giant house. I just want love and peace, which can be very disappointing for those who want more. It was hard, but I feel this is a good thing. Once I beat this, I will be more selective to find a woman who can appreciate my outlook on life. I truly feel for the first time in a long time that things are going to be alright

Username: MikeWietechaMikeWietecha

Date posted: 5y ago

I'm sorry man. It's rough. I was together with my wife for 8 years, most of the time feeling numb. I didn't feel anything towards anyone, except maybe hate for myself. I was also scared to work with a therapist cause they would just say I'm in denial. I just kept trying to figure things out and don't realize I was basically checking and looking for reassurance constantly. I feel like the nightmare is over and now it's time to heal. I have been doing workbooks alone cause I'm afraid of therapists reactions and I'm also poor. There are a lot of great workbooks out there and awesome videos on YouTube. I'm going to save so I can actually get therapy soon though. I think that will really do wonders

Username: JM1998JM1998

Date posted: 5y ago

@icandothings what made you two split?

Username: daveygdaveyg

Date posted: 5y ago

Guys, you have to slowly face your fears about this, one of the big things with ocd is self doubt, you don’t trust yourself and you fall victim to these thoughts and they convince you that you’re a particular type of person. But guess what, you are you and no thoughts or worries is going to change that

Username: Matty ZMatty Z

Date posted: 5y ago

Quit PMO!

Username: MikeWietechaMikeWietecha

Date posted: 5y ago

@matty z what is PMO?

Username: Matty ZMatty Z

Date posted: 5y ago

Porn

Username: MikeWietechaMikeWietecha

Date posted: 5y ago

@matty why are saying that? Not sure how it's relevant

Username: tasha123

Date posted: 5y ago

Why does my OCD feel so real? One minute I’m so in love with my boyfriend then the next I fear I’m falling out of love and that I’m meant to be with someone else. I feel so numb and empty I just feel emotionless once the anxiety fades away. It actually feels as if my thoughts are true how can I just feel like me again

Relationship OCD

Username: Anonymous

Date posted: 3y ago

i'm scared I don't have OCD, I used to be 50/50 about it but now I just keep doubting I do. The reason i'm scared is because I can't feel anything for my girlfriend anymore, sometimes I do and want to love up on her but other times I just feel unnatracted to her and don't feel anything for her. This is taking a tole on the both of us, she cries alot because she knows what i'm going through but it's also hurting her. I also sometimes (not very often) think about breaking up with her or being with someone else and it scares me because I want to love her and only her and only be with her. I'm afraid I should break up with her but I really don't want to. Whenever she compliments me I get uncomfortable, sometimes whenever she says I love you I hesitate to say it because I feel kind of guilty and I can't really feel anything. She picks up on all of these things which makes it even harder to really hide. i know I shouldn't hide it but she's the crying type and I upset her too much already with all of this. Someone please tell me they can relate or that it's OCD, can someone please help me?

Username: RG123

Date posted: 2y ago

OCD Turns Off?

Does anyone else feel like they’re OCD turns off for a couple days? Like you go through an intense period of having intrusive thoughts and feeling the need to confess and then you only start to get thoughts here and there? And you try to keep yourself from having the thoughts but you’re not sure if it’s avoidance? Like I have felt sooo much better the last couple of days, especially in the morning, I live for those times of quiet in my head. But I still haven’t been able to accept myself for the things I might have done, like I can’t accept myself still because of my OCD. This probably sounds a little jumbled but I would like to think someone can relate lol

Be a part of the largest OCD Community

Share your thoughts so the Community can respond

Related posts

Be a part of the largest OCD Community

Be a part of the largest OCD Community