I've gotten incredibly far with dealing with my OCD which is a good thing. Especially with my ROCD. But sometimes I still fear my ROCD and feelings. I sometimes get confused about whether I'm still in love like I once was with my bf and if I'm just faking it. But I still get my moments of clarity where I knew it's still my OCD and not actually me. I wish I could completely get out of this little hold it has on me. It's fear.

I’m glad you shared that you have moments of clarity. I have that too. It’s actually kind of frustrating because I feel like I’m waiting out the storm until I get a moment of clarity. I listened to a podcast about ROCD recently and the speaker referred to those moments of clarity as the “baseline” and that helped me. The high moments of anxiety are not the measuring stick for how good or bad my relationship is. The moments of clarity are.

Been struggling with ROCD as a new theme. Been anxious all day. I got the urge to break up with him this morning but I don’t want to. OCD is such a bully. We got this 🙏🏼

I understand you. I felt that way many times but honestly no one can really know for sure - not even you. Feelings come and go and change all the time. So I am wondering if you’re seeking reassurance with this post or/and doing some checking behavior :) i think feelings can never be certain and it really sux so much. Even those who say they are so in love with their partner - they can’t know it 100 percent.