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This is unbelievably hard, depression is crippling. Don't be afraid to reach out for help. Do you have a good support system? Please know, as someone who has experienced Depression that it can get so much better, you can someday look back at this time in your life and it be so much better. You will not always feel this way forever. It can feel endless but know that things change- things are always changing.

I have been where you been. Through therapy and the right medication I am finding myself again. It’s tough but there is hope! You got This.

Get out. Take a walk. Feel the trees. Get upset because the ants are crawling on you. Create and focus on the roadmap to a goal. A goal that doesn't take your mental health into consideration. If you could do anything ad go anywhere or see anyone, what would you do? Challenge yourself to think on that for a few weeks. Often we are tricked by modern day society into believing that we must immediately answer a question. Even a question posed to ourself requires much thought. Who would you trust more, a person who is quick to answer or a person who took the time to consider and weigh each and every possibility? Be that person for yourself.

I’m so sorry for what you’re going through. I know it’s not easy, but I really encourage you to be gentle with yourself. You deserve joy and peace - stay resilient; I know it feels impossible sometimes. I believe in you! 💕

I’m bad at responding to people individually and I honestly don’t think I have the brain power to but thankyou for the encouragement and love, it’s hard to stay positive and I think it’s unrealistic to expect myself to be happy all the time, I need to allow myself to be unhappy with where I am in life right now and also remember that all the things that I’m stressed about actually have treatment options. I’m just feeling blue because I can only afford to see my therapist once a month so I’m thinking of starting a gofundme. I hate asking for help but honestly my ocd is so severe I need to at this point