Do you also get meta OCD where if your OCD gets better, you feel like you're faking it or if you are doing better than other people, even though you hate your episodes to the core and they literally suck the life out of you, you kinda wish you got one because you feel like you're an imposter? I get a major episode once or twice a year so I often feel like Im faking having this illness...
I understand how you feel. I've been much much better for months thanks to therapy, and now imposter syndrome is about to take over. I don't let it though, because ocd is sneaky and it could turn this into one of its lackeys. Accept the possibility that you may be an imposter and nip it in the bud before it grows into something worse.
Honestly I just feel like I don’t genuinely have it regardless if I’m feeling crap or not, it’s like nothing can make me actually believe it