Username: Taylen

Date posted: 2y ago

Harm OCD

just a couple days ago i experienced this for the first time from watching the new DAHMER series. Im having intrusive images and thoughts of me harming or killing my loved ones and its so scary because i would never do it. It has me questioning if im crazy and im having severe panic attacks over 3 times a day. Im mentally and physically drained, i’ve told my mom about it and we are going to see a therapist tomorrow. Im scared to because idk if they specialize in OCD and if i tell them my thoughts they are gonna put me in the mental hospital or say im crazy and don’t have OCD, can any therapists on here or fellow people with Harm OCD let me know if you think im showing signs of it, i just want it to go away and to be able to sleep at night without severe overthinking.

Username: ClarissaJClarissaJ

Date posted: 2y ago

Hi Taylen, just jumping on here after reading your post. I’m a fellow OCD sufferer and I have done lots of treatment. Which means that I am not supposed to reassure you since that is against OCD treatment, however, I’m here to tell you that everything is going to be okay. You are okay. These are only thoughts. Thoughts do not equal personality and or desires. You’re going to be okay. I know it is very very hard to be living in this state. I’ve done it for years. But I promise you, if you trust the treatment you will recover. It’s possible to recover. Trust the treatment :)

Username: TaylenTaylen

Date posted: 2y ago

@ClarissaJ im so scared im gonna act on it because the thoughts are so scary and vivid im panicking im so terrified i just want to go back to my old self.

Username: AnonymousAnonymous

User type: OCD Conqueror

Date posted: 2y ago

Hi teylon. This happened to me exactly in 2020. It was awful and I was the darkest time in my life. You will get through it. If you can speak to your mom about finding someone who specifically works with ocd and exposure therapy, that would be best.

Username: OWD12OWD12

Date posted: 2y ago

Not going to reassure you. However, no matter the theme OCD is still just OCD. I struggle specifically with harm and it latches on to the things we love the most. My harm OCD started around 2 months ago, which was triggered by work burnout and stress. Not gonna lie I still struggle with the “what if” and feelings of uneasy ness but my images and intrusive thoughts have seemed to decrease as time has went on. I actually went to the hospital and wanted to voluntary commit myself after 6 days of not eating and feeling hopeless. I am here to tell you, you are not alone and keep fighting no matter what OCD tells you!!

Username: TaylenTaylen

Date posted: 2y ago

@OWD12 ive told my mom i want to admit myself because the images and thoughts i have fear im gonna act on them, im terrified idk what to do anymore

Username: OWD12OWD12

Date posted: 2y ago

@TaylenThompson This is a normal concern! I felt like this for weeks. Just remember seeking reassurance, confessing, excessive googling, and rumination are all mental compulsions. I don’t have any outward compulsions like hand washing.

Username: OWD12OWD12

Date posted: 2y ago

@TaylenThompson Also feel free to reach out to me anytime for some peer support. I remember feeling like I was the only person in the world struggling with this and still do sometimes!! You can do this, thoughts are just thoughts. Imagine it as a movie playing out in your head!! You got this!!

Username: TaylenTaylen

Date posted: 2y ago

@OWD12 ive been excessively googling as well i know i wont act on them but i have crazy intrusive thoughts telling me to hit someone or hurt someone so i have to hit like a pillow or something to satisfy the intrusive thought, so ty for replying it made me feel alot better!

Username: OWD12OWD12

Date posted: 2y ago

@TaylenThompson Googling just feeds into the OCD. Work on excepting the uncertainty of it all. With harm OCD I struggle with this. Instead of saying “well it might happen, it might not”. I usually go with thoughts more like “do I need to figure this out right now?” And “okay, and?”

Username: TaylenTaylen

Date posted: 2y ago

i get triggered by anything of a drawing of the anatomy of a body bc it causes me to overthink, technically anything gory and things like that, its rlly scary and i just want it to go away. Im seeing a therapist today hopefully getting on meds!! praying for a fast recovery

Username: OWD12OWD12

Date posted: 2y ago

@TaylenThompson I would just speak with your therapist today! I was also extremely triggered by the Dahmer series and still struggle. I’ve been dealing with this for over two months, hope for a speedy recovery for you!

Username: TaylenTaylen

Date posted: 2y ago

@OWD12 should i tell my therapist everything? what if they think im crazy? im just rlly worried

Username: OWD12OWD12

Date posted: 2y ago

@TaylenThompson If they don’t specialize in OCD, it can be scary. Most therapists are really open though and have your best interest at heart!

Username: TaylenTaylen

Date posted: 2y ago

@OWD12 im here now waiting, very nervous but excited to hopefully get help :))

Username: You got this:)You got this:)

Date posted: 2y ago

@TaylenThompson I have an appointment tomorrow for my therapist for the exact same reason as you the dahmer series messed me up. Did you tell your therapist everything? Did she think you were crazy? How did it go? Do you feel better?

Username: OWD12OWD12

Date posted: 2y ago

@kfarley23 Mine triggered before Dahmer came out but definitely experienced some side effects of seeing it. I went to the hospital first and told the doctor everything and he thought I was crazy just because he didn’t specialize in mental health. So I immediately scheduled an appt with an actual psychiatrist and was diagnosed with OCD and Major Depressive Disorder. I then sought out a therapist that deals with OCD after a referral from my psychiatrist. I felt better and confessing (bc this is a compulsion) but after a short period the anxiety came back, it’s just something you have to learn to cope with, which I believe gets easier in time!

Username: You got this:)You got this:)

Date posted: 2y ago

@OWD12 Still waiting to cope😂 my mind is just everywhere all the time I even wanted to check myself into the mental hospital at one point I don’t know because I believe I could never act on my actions but I am still scared of my own thoughts. Now I’m even more worried the therapist is gonna admit me.

Username: OWD12OWD12

Date posted: 2y ago

@kfarley23 Some days are worse than others. I am very thankful my psychiatrist also prescribed me medication and I had family to help me not give up because there for a couple of weeks things were dark. I am only two months in and I still struggle daily but I have learned a lot through online resources. If you click on my page my favorite Instagram/TikTok resources are listed at the bottom. Check them out, they have really helped me. Just make sure your not using them as a compulsion!

Username: You got this:)You got this:)

Date posted: 2y ago

@OWD12 What does compulsion mean?

Username: TaylenTaylen

Date posted: 2y ago

@kfarley23 i told her about it all and she just prescribed me sleep meds and she said shes thinkinh abt prozac and zoloft im still very messed up and having panic attacks im just praying it goes away with time!! good luck we are in this together

Username: TaylenTaylen

Date posted: 2y ago

@kfarley23 exactly how i feel

Username: TaylenTaylen

Date posted: 2y ago

@kfarley23 im actually not sure, this is very new to me

Username: OWD12OWD12

Date posted: 2y ago

@TaylenThompson A compulsion is anything you do to lessen your anxiety for a short period of time, but it makes the obsession worse in the end. My compulsions are excessive googling, ruminating, mental mantras, and at one point I was even trying counting.

Username: You got this:)You got this:)

Date posted: 2y ago

@OWD12 I bounce my leg I also google excessively it helps me a little knowing these thoughts aren’t just mine but I get googling is bad I’m going to therapy tomorrow and I am on anxiety meds already which I’m sure isn’t helping my situation at all but either way I hope therapy works

Username: TaylenTaylen

Date posted: 2y ago

@kfarley23 my first counseling/ therapy session is in a month, they just did my assessment yesterday and hopefully they will put me on anxiety meds im overly googling as well and have a constant fear of actually doing my intrusive thoughts and images although i know im in control.

Username: You got this:)You got this:)

Date posted: 2y ago

@TaylenThompson Exactly I’m already on anxiety meds they are thinking about putting me on ocd meds as well as sleeping meds

Username: TaylenTaylen

Date posted: 2y ago

@kfarley23 they put me on something to help me sleep but they didnt do the anxiety meds bc they wanted to get a clear diagnosis first before they put me on meds.

Username: TaylenTaylen

Date posted: 2y ago

@kfarley23 get a stress ball!! im abt to get one im thinking itll help :)

Username: You got this:)You got this:)

Date posted: 2y ago

@TaylenThompson Oh I was on anxiety meds before I even came to therapy

Username: TaylenTaylen

Date posted: 2y ago

@kfarley23 ive had anxiety my whole life but it was never medicated, it just recently got this bad from being triggered i assume! be sure to tell the therapist everything also, let them know that these images and thoughts are unwanted and stressing you out also let them know its making you struggle to sleep.

Username: You got this:)You got this:)

Date posted: 2y ago

@TaylenThompson I did and I was diagnosed and I’m getting put on medicine she said hopefully the thought will be gone tomorrow

Username: mormortg2001mormortg2001

Date posted: 6d ago

One thing that helps me is the statement; “it’s not me, It’s my OCD”

Username: ClydeWinter

Date posted: 1y ago

Harm OCD

Ive had intrusive thoughts for 2 months now..And I just remember about serial killers and now I imagine myself doing those things to my family and I feel uncomfortable looking at them. And now im questioning if I like my thoughts or not and it’s just causing me more worry I’m even googling my symptoms but nothing is show up. I also get sexual intrusive thoughts about the serial killers and it’s horrible and scary someone please help me.

Username: vmc76

Date posted: 34w ago

Harm OCD thoughts

Everyday i have unwanted thoughts and images in my head of me harming my loved ones in horrible ways, also urges too. i’m not like that at all, i don’t want to be like that at all and i also have an extreme fear of becoming a bad person and harming the people i love, or snapping out of anger and harming people. These thoughts scare me a lot and im really sad that i have these thoughts at all and its taking a toll on my mental health. whenever i see something like a gun or a knife or something like that i get anxious and scared at the thought that i could hurt someone with those things and i get thought about me in a position where i hurt someone. the last thing i want is to hurt anyone. i just wanna make people happy and i wanna treat others with kindness. i don’t want to do any of that i don’t wanna be a bad person. i hate these thoughts in my head and im so anxious at the thought that im gonna commit them. can someone help me and give me some advice on what to do?

Username: Rydder

Date posted: 31w ago

Harm OCD

Hello, my name is Rydder, I’ve been having OCD my whole life and I’ve been able to handle my thoughts, but lately the past 3 months have been a wild ride! I went from court to court after 2 years of issues with the system, now that it is over I am scared about my well being, I’ve been having very bad intrusive thoughts lately about hurting myself or others, and it’s even making me hunch over in bed shaking and crying everyday because I’m not that type of person…. The mornings are so tuff I don’t even want to make it to work anymore, I’ve even called crisis lines because of my thoughts of hurting myself or other people with sharp objects, I just want to feel okay again! If anyone else has these thoughts please let me know and how to manage because I’m at the point where I call out to much and may become fired if I do!

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