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I can relate. When im living a 'cleaner' lifestyle im more anxious and ocd then when im getting wasted all the time. Although there are exceptions to that trend..
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yes I understand completely!
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Unfortunately this is how you develop substance abuse issues which can compound upon other mental health issues. Anyway glad im not only one.
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I'm actually high right now.. It always feels like I need some form of substance just to get through the day. It's exhausting
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I dont judge. There have been times in my life when I was high oretry much 24/7. Othertimes less per day but still 7 days a week. Tried cutting back on everything this year to deal with ocd relapse. A lot of questionijg myself and values and goals these days because of it. Only managed to cut back for few months. Will probabky try again. I guess Ive been wondering "is it possible to live a "normal" life without substances". I dont know I dont want to be totally sober but I also dont want to feel dependant.
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I feel the exact same way. I just keep switching between alcohol, drugs, and cigarettes... I've tried so hard to distract myself and get obsessed with things I enjoy (writing, reading, tv shows) which works for a few days at a time, but ultimately I always end up needing something
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But obviously the cure for OCD is not to get away from the thoughts but instead go through them so if you're distracting yourself then it's not gonna do much rather than instigate your OCD
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I have a fear Ill get over ocd (i have before) then ill just be depressed. So i might as well use substances. Its a triangle of issues that all feed into each other. If I stoo or succeed at one thing the other dominates. To be honest I have no idea what if feels like to not take a substance for more then a few days. For the last 20 years (more then half my life). Everytime I try to find out I wind up hating it.
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- 22w ago
I haven't been officially diagnosed with OCD but when I learned more about it, I never related to anything more. A little back story: when I was younger, there were a couple of youth suicides in my area and the schools felt the need to have someone come in and talk about suicide. Well the person they had come in did a horrible job teaching it and basically made it seem like the smallest negative emotion or feeling or change in behavior made you suicidal. This ended up scaring me so much that I got horrid anxiety. Fast forward to now, Everytime I feel anxiety and panic, I fear I'm going to kill myself. Everytime I feel down and depressed, I fear I'll end it all. I'm scared to be around anything sharp because the "What if" I hurt myself comes into my mind. There are always intrusive thoughts at almost every point of the day. And it's not only for me. Everytime I hear someone being negative, I fear they will be suicidal. I know in my heart that none of this is true but it's terrifying me that it's stuck around so much that it makes me scared that maybe it is true. I've had a lot of death in my family in the past year and a half and a lot of other family drama that I'd never had before that is now also bringing up existential intrusive thoughts. And I'd never questioned anything about life before but now I get the "why is life like this?" and "does anything we do matter?" and I hate it. I don't want to think like that. I just want to go through life being able to handle things normally again. It terrifies me even right now going "what if you give up?"
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That’s kinda my question. All my thoughts feel so realistic and so now I doubt if they are ocd and if I just can’t make my mind up about something and I’m using ocd as an excuse or something idc I feel like this post is word vomit.
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I started dealing with OCD when I became fixated on health issues, particularly the fear of contracting a life-threatening disease. If I experienced any kind of medical symptom, no matter how small, that even remotely hinted at something potentially fatal, it would drive me crazy, and I couldn’t stop obsessing over it. Then one day, I started having intrusive thoughts about accidentally hitting someone with my car, and I would end up driving in circles to check if I had. Eventually, I found myself overwhelmed by a flood of new obsessive thoughts and compulsions. One day, while I was at the park, a squirrel came near me, and for some reason, I felt like it attacked me. I Googled it and learned that squirrels could carry rabies, which spiraled me into a deep fear of rabies. I became consumed with the thought I received a bite from a squirrel, raccoon, or bat any time I’m in areas that trigger me. It started off only being inside then transferred to even being in my own home. This made me obsess over every physical sensation in my body, compulsively checking to make sure nothing was wrong. One compulsion that I hated the most would to be putting rubbing alcohol on me to make sure that I had no open wounds. Every day feels like I’m walking around in a fog of anxiety, constantly worrying that I won’t even make it to old age. Sometimes, it gets so overwhelming that I just want it all to end. It stresses me so bad at times to where my brain feels like I’ve been studying all day.
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