Is it possible to have a relationship and get your normal attraction back for whoever has hocd? Are these thoughts gonna be always here? I'm so sick I can't even think about what I want without having these images

I am curious too. It’s like my attraction will never come back and I’ll actually be a lesbian in the future at tho point. And that is such a scary thought.

That's what freaks me out the most. What if my mind become so obsessed? I can't even daydream anymore because everything triggers me. I just want to go back and being a normal teenager

I get exactly what you're saying. Now even when I find an attractive guy attractive or my crush my mind goes like "you sure you're not lying to yourself" this sounds crazy but I wish I could just see guys because being with people of the same sex gives me anxiety and it makes me want to "hate" them and I get all these intrusive thoughts idk if this makes sense lol. I have low self esteem so I always wanted to be like models but now it's like my mind tells me I was lying all along

Yea me too. I had a few months of body dismorphia-ocd (kinda, it’s complicated) so I hated how I looked like and was looking at women and only looking if they were pretty or not. A few were pretty back then. But then it’s like I made myself see if they were actually ugly, and I started seeing every girl as pretty. And then, 2 months later, it came back. Like when I acknowledge, “yeaaa I don’t like women” then I start ruminating and being like “is that true??” And it’s scary. I can’t decide on anything. I just constantly feel anxious. I fear I am just never going to like guys again. That I’ll never be straight again.

I am in a relationship and suffering with Hocd and I get brief moments of clarity like “oh my god what have I been thinking!” Then obviously the obsessions begin again. I am so in love with my man. This is the worst thing ever! I hate it I cried to him this morning and he laughed caused he realized how irrational I was being! I just wanna go back to being my normal self!

Me too. It feels so real. I think I have a crush on a guy but I honestly don’t know anymore. I just feel numb. I don’t feel anything and I really don’t know if I am even choosing to have these thoughts. My head honestly hurts

Yes. It’s like what even am I? Ma i Straight? Am I gay? Am I queer? Don’t know! And that kills me! Like it feels too real for me to not be a lesbian sometimes you know? Even though all that I’ve thought before was that girls were pretty. But know i get all this “attraction” feelings, anxiety, would I like to be with them? It’s awful. Like a guy could be sooo hot, and I can acknowledge that. But then I am like, am I attracted enough? Is this actually attraction? But then if the girlfriend/ wife is also pretty, it makes me feel like I should be attracted to her instead. Like I don’t even know what being attracted or having a crush on a girl feels like, so how do I know I’ve never had one? And it’s like I’ve lost knowledge of what liking guys feels like now, because there is this guy I just can’t tell if I have a crush on or not. It’s weird