The way I was raised and how it affects me HOCD

I grew up in a very loving household that treated everyone that walked in there like family, I always had love for all of my close friends and looked at them as family, and I always loved being the person that would uplift people and spread positivity and love. But now HOCD is making me rethink all of those past events as “what if I was attracted to me friends” I know that’s not the case but I hate that it’s gotten to this point. Anyone else struggle with showing love to friends?

Username: Caas

Date posted: 119d ago

Yeah same. I’ve stopped trying to spread positivity around my friend group because I don’t want them to take it the wrong way. Which makes me feel like a bad friend. It’s exhausting

Username: Justmesadly

Date posted: 119d ago

@Caas Avoidance is a compulsion!

Username: Caas

Date posted: 119d ago

@Justmesadly Oof you’re right I didn’t even realize

Username: Rous

Date posted: 119d ago

For sure. I also find myself very hesitant around friends and worried that I’ll develop feelings for them, so whenever I’m with them my heart is pounding.