Need someone to connect with on ROCD

Hi there! How are you? ROCD is very painful so I’m sorry you’re going through that! What’s going on?

@hellopeople Hi, thanks for your response. I really appreciate it. I’ve been having a lot of ROCD lately and my mind will tell me to look at a person. It usually tells me to do it 2-4 times (a number that’s always even). Anyways, today I did that and my brain kept telling me that I was staring because I thought the person was attractive or something. But I really was staring because my mind was telling me to, ugh! Then as I was staring, the person realized I was and made eye contact with me. It made me feel like such a bad person and that I wasn’t loyal to my partner for looking. I don’t know if this sounds crazy but I think it’s OCD.

@gray1 Oh that’s not a fun situation, I’m sorry. Checking to see if attracted to others can be an ocd compulsion. Often when there is an intrusive thought like our brain telling us to look at someone, there may be a fear behind it, try to challenge that fear, maybe the fear is of cheating on your partner, what will happen in that happens? Who says you’ll do that? Maybe you will, but maybe not! What do YOU want to do?

@hellopeople I think you’re right. Is cheating OCD a thing? This type of OCD that I have where it tells me to look at people tends to happen at least once every day & it’s almost always a new person. I definitely DONT want to cheat on my partner, I would never do that. It’s a huge fear for me.

@gray1 The fear of cheating can be part of ROCD! I think it’s wonderful you know what you want! All we have to do is act in line with what we want, if you don’t want to cheat, you don’t have to check by looking at people! And looking at people can be just that! Just looking, and it doesn’t mean anything at all 😊

Hi Gray, I’m having an hard time with ROCD too. What’s going? How are you?

@il4ria Hi Ils, thank you for your response. I posted what’s going on in response to hellopeople on the thread. I’m okay for now, trying to tell myself it’s just OCD. How are you? What has been happening for you with ROCD?

@gray1 Just read what you wrote, I’m really sorry :( always remember you’re not a bad person for giving in to compulsions. As for me, in the last couple of days I’ve been obsessing over the thought of not really loving my boyfriend and the one of my relationship ending, it gets though

@il4ria I’m so sorry to hear that. Have you expressed that you have OCD to your partner? I never know what to share and what not to because sometimes I think telling can be a compulsion. Idk tho im still learning.