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Need someone to connect with on ROCD
If anyone is willing to connect with me on ROCD, I’d greatly appreciate it! Having a tough time.
If anyone is willing to connect with me on ROCD, I’d greatly appreciate it! Having a tough time.
Hi there! How are you? ROCD is very painful so I’m sorry you’re going through that! What’s going on?
@hellopeople Hi, thanks for your response. I really appreciate it. I’ve been having a lot of ROCD lately and my mind will tell me to look at a person. It usually tells me to do it 2-4 times (a number that’s always even). Anyways, today I did that and my brain kept telling me that I was staring because I thought the person was attractive or something. But I really was staring because my mind was telling me to, ugh! Then as I was staring, the person realized I was and made eye contact with me. It made me feel like such a bad person and that I wasn’t loyal to my partner for looking. I don’t know if this sounds crazy but I think it’s OCD.
@gray1 Oh that’s not a fun situation, I’m sorry. Checking to see if attracted to others can be an ocd compulsion. Often when there is an intrusive thought like our brain telling us to look at someone, there may be a fear behind it, try to challenge that fear, maybe the fear is of cheating on your partner, what will happen in that happens? Who says you’ll do that? Maybe you will, but maybe not! What do YOU want to do?
@hellopeople I think you’re right. Is cheating OCD a thing? This type of OCD that I have where it tells me to look at people tends to happen at least once every day & it’s almost always a new person. I definitely DONT want to cheat on my partner, I would never do that. It’s a huge fear for me.
@gray1 The fear of cheating can be part of ROCD! I think it’s wonderful you know what you want! All we have to do is act in line with what we want, if you don’t want to cheat, you don’t have to check by looking at people! And looking at people can be just that! Just looking, and it doesn’t mean anything at all 😊
Hi Gray, I’m having an hard time with ROCD too. What’s going? How are you?
@il4ria Hi Ils, thank you for your response. I posted what’s going on in response to hellopeople on the thread. I’m okay for now, trying to tell myself it’s just OCD. How are you? What has been happening for you with ROCD?
@gray1 Just read what you wrote, I’m really sorry :( always remember you’re not a bad person for giving in to compulsions. As for me, in the last couple of days I’ve been obsessing over the thought of not really loving my boyfriend and the one of my relationship ending, it gets though
@il4ria I’m so sorry to hear that. Have you expressed that you have OCD to your partner? I never know what to share and what not to because sometimes I think telling can be a compulsion. Idk tho im still learning.
@gray1 yeah, I completely get that! Honestly idk, I shared my thoughts and fears with my boyfriend months ago, before I got diagnosed (even if I was already pretty sure I was suffering from ocd), I’m pretty sure I was compulsing back then. Now though I’d like to talk to him about it so that he can understand my “bad days” better, still afraid of compulsing though. I’ll think about it
Any Christian’s with religion ocd and relationship ocd I feel so alone
Looking back, my introverted nature and struggles to find belonging in high school may have set the stage for how OCD would later impact my relationships. I had my first relationship in high school, but OCD wasn’t a major factor then. It wasn’t until my longest relationship—six years from age 18 to 24—that OCD really took hold. The relationship itself wasn’t the issue; it was what happened after. When it ended, I became obsessed with confessing past mistakes, convinced I had to be completely transparent. Even when my partner was willing to work past them, I couldn’t let go of the intrusive thoughts, and that obsession landed me in the hospital. From there, my struggle with ROCD (Relationship OCD) fully emerged. For years, every time I tried to move forward in dating, doubts consumed me. I would start seeing someone and feel fine, but then the questions would creep in: Do I really like her? Do I find her attractive? Is she getting on my nerves? What if I’m with the wrong person? I’d break things off, thinking I was following my true feelings. But then I’d question: Was that really how I felt, or was it just OCD? I tried again and again, each time hoping I could “withstand it this time,” only to fall back into the same cycle. The back and forth hurt both me and the person I was with. By the time I realized it was ROCD, the damage had been done, and I still hadn’t built the tools to manage it. Now, at 28, I know I need to approach dating differently. I recently talked to someone from a dating app, and my OCD still showed up—questioning my every move, making me doubt my own decisions. I haven’t yet done ERP specifically for ROCD, but I know that’s my next step. Just like I’ve learned tools for managing my other OCD subtypes, I need a set of strategies for when intrusive doubts hit in relationships. My goal this year is to stop letting uncertainty control me—to learn how to sit with doubt instead of trying to “figure it out.” I want to break the cycle and be able to build something healthy without my OCD sabotaging it. I know I’m not alone in this, and I know healing is possible. I’m hopeful that working with a therapist will help me develop exposures and thought loops to practice. I don’t expect to eliminate doubt entirely—after all, doubt is a part of every relationship—but I want to reach a place where it doesn’t paralyze me. Where I can move forward without constantly questioning whether I should. And where I can be in a relationship without feeling like OCD is pulling the strings. I would appreciate hearing about your experiences with ROCD. Please share your thoughts or any questions in the comments below. I’d love to connect and offer my perspective. Thanks!
Hey everyone, First time posting here! Wanted to share my story for some support but also to hopefully make others feel less alone. In short - my ROCD has made such a mess of my personal life. I was in a great relationship until spring of last year, at which point we separated mainly due to my ROCD. I struggled heavily with OCD about 10 years ago (harm based intrusive thoughts, sexual orientation ocd, etc). It took a lot of work but I was able to mostly overcome my struggles and truthfully, hadn’t given ocd much thought since then. I thought I was cured. And then 10 years later I am in a very fulfilling relationship with a girl I really love, but at about the year mark in my relationship things really changed. She wanted to have a conversation about next steps (moving in, marriage, kids, etc) and at that point my brain just went into panic mode and the ocd took over. From that point on, I was constantly scanning for red flags, felt very reserved when it came to any sort of statement or commitment and tended to avoid anything that would indicate I was committed to a long term future. It was not that I didn’t love it was just that my ocd was doing anything to keep me from making a big commitment. It eventually got a point where we had a big conversation about breaking up or staying together and my OCD convinced me that it was safer and that I would do less harm to her if we ended things, which was incredibly devastating to me. At the time I felt like my obsessing over small red flags were normal and that I needed to protect myself. I just had no clue it was ROCD. I spent the next 8 months missing her and kicking myself for my mistakes, and I eventually got the courage to reach out and see if she’d be willing to talk again, which she was. But the problem is, at this point I still didn’t know it was ocd. So when we talked again I was still plagued by ROCD as all the same thoughts and feelings came flooding back. We tried to talk through things but once again I was unable to make any sort of commitment to the future so it went nowhere. Once again, I am feeling very sad and angry at myself for not being able to handle ROCD. I feel like I let it control me twice and has robbed me of a lot of happiness and hurt someone I care very much about. I understand it’s probably not best to just look at ourselves with anger and guilt all the time but it’s hard not to when you feel like you just caused so much harm. Anyone feel like they can relate? Or if anyone is going through something similar I am happy to chat as ROCD can really be tricky. Thanks
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