- Username
- LDWestwood
- Date posted
- 5y ago
That happens to me, I see a girl and my mind instantly thinks are you attracted to her?? and I’m not attracted to her. Another thing is I’m still kind of attracted to boys but it’s not the same. Also I only think girls are pretty I’ve never thought anything else, like with boys I think they’re really cute and I want to date them but it’s not like that with girls
Yeah, I’m stuck in the HOCD theme right now too and it’s got my head all tangled! It’s almost like the sexuality I was born with went “see ya” and ran out the door ? I still notice cute guys in the room immediately. But then because I’m so convinced that I don’t like men, my mind goes from thinking they’re attractive to finding them almost disgusting. Because if I think they’re cute, I’ll get a sexual thought about them to check if I still like men, but my brain wants me to so badly think I’m not attracted to guys, that I find the sexual thought gross. It’s hard to explain. I know in my heart I’m not attracted to girls. I never have been. Not like my attraction to men. It’s all really confusing and I feel numb from it. As always, the best thing to do is just accept the thoughts. I’m in that battle too right now, so I can’t say what definitely works or not.
You said you’re new to this app, I think you’ll find there’s a lot of HOCD in this community and with that, a lot of advice.
I’m going through this exact same thing. And my doubts only get worse when I’m getting better. If the thoughts are lessening, the doubts are increasing it’s like goddamn just give me a break. Are you ever just tired of being so tired of this. I know I like men but my mind has now made it weird for me to say that because Now I’m convinced I like “women.” So it feels like it’s wrong for me to say I like men cause I’m having ocd twist my memories and making me seem fake.
Does anybody have Sexuality OCD? Because I am pretty sure that I am straight but then suddenly about a week ago I stopped going guys attractive and it really scared me. I was convinced I was gay! I tried to like a girl but my brain was telling me that it was wrong. That was when I thought ‘OMG I DONT HAVE A SEXUALITY’ and I got really scared. Then yesterday I thought a girl was really cute but then saw a guy and thought he was gorgeous! And then I was like no I have to be straight!!!!! What do I do? Does anybody have this problem?
I’m so exhausted. Been having HOCD since May & had it once before when I was 15 - both times began as me genuinely thinking I was questioning my sexuality, then it became obsessive and that’s when I landed on HOCD. It was more like HOCD that actually questioning. But I will say I do find women attractive, and have always watched lesbian porn & in my mind I guess I do find women’s body’s somewhat sexually attractive. This being said - I have always had boyfriends, always fell for boys and not once have I ever been genuinely interested in a girl or fallen for one. I’m 20 too, so it’s not like i’m only 14. In very open about sexuality and accept everything and everyone, so the idea of being lesbian or bi isn’t alien to me. Some of my friends are gay and lesbian . Earlier this summer I even started coming out to people as maybe being bi, and i was almost pushing that label onto myself to try and accept myself - but it still didn’t feel right and I am still unsure and uncertain. Just want some advice - is this similar to other people’s stories ? Not looking for reassurance, just genuinely wondering wether it is HOCD or maybe I am just abit gay hahaha (which would be okay, just doesn’t really feel right)
Has anyone else with SOOCD found themselves mentally reviewing literally every interaction they’ve ever had with the sex that their OCD is telling them they are attracted to rather than the want they want and know themselves to be attracted to?? I am a straight female and ever since my OCD flared up about two months ago I have spent every minute of every day ruminating over past experiences and my mind has convinced me that I was attracted to virtually every female figure in my life, even though I have never actually acted on any of these presumptions. Likewise, my brain is pushing away all of the actual memories I have of being in love with past boyfriends and having crushes on guys. Now, when I see a girl anywhere I freak out and automatically assume I’m attracted to them, even though the thought of being gay makes me sick to my stomach and is never something that I want to act on. And also, when I see any guy that I find attractive, I will acknowledge that I find them attractive but it’s like my mind is telling me I’m faking it because I must actually like women. These thoughts are so incredibly painful because I feel like my attraction to men is fading away even though I only ever want to be with men in the future. I feel like I’m numb to everything and it’s making the anxiety soso much worse. Anyone who can relate or provide any advice would be greatly appreciated.
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