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Me... Even after months after that night...
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And are your memories eeally vivid ?
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Yes :( i have been struggeling with that for the last few months eventhough i haven't had a drink in almost a year ...
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What about you?
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The more you think about them, the more real they seem right?
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Unfortunately yes.. the more you think about them the realer they seem.. i just want to stop myself from thinking... But that makes it even worse
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I’ve been dealing with it for 6 months now! It’s a lot better, but it was pure mental torture for so long
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What was your theme Louiss ?
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How did you get better?
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Three days ago. I had a pocd thought and I decided I wasn't distressed enough and that must mean it's true. Awful. That's why I try to stay away from alcohol.
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It was POCD, it started with horrible false memories from when I was a child It went from thinking I may have seen child pornograpy, to spiralling thinking “what if I downloaded it?!” And got stuck on that for ages Then it went to 2 years ago when I had a few drinks, I remember having a Facebook conversation with some girl and I couldn’t remember it. So my mind is like “what if she was underage, what if you did this, what if you said that” ? Then more recently it’s been cheating OCD and even animal abuse ? And how to get better...I’ll talk about that in a minute!
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Honestly, I don’t really know how I improved Gradually over time I think it’s natural, however the turning point was when I gave up. I had been fighting it so much, so I got to a point where I gave up on life...that’s when it started get better I still have off moments and off days, but I can enjoy things now. I created a ‘Bucket List’ and am trying to make the most out of life. May I ask what your memory is about?
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It was about cheating ocd. I would need reassurance from everyone who was out with me... It has been really bad the last few weeks, nothing seems to be working... I also started talking therapy, hope that will Help. But now it feels like the obsessions are also about other things even worse than cheating.. just hope to get better.
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I’m sorry to hear that, there really is no easy solution. It really is worse than any physical pain I’ve been through ? It definitely does get better, I never thought it would
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The more you think about those memories, the more details you add to them so they seem so real and vivid at the end. Is it like this for you guys too? I guess we really have to stop ruminating
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I went to bed one night in November, and I can't quite say what happened, but I believed that I had a "memory" from childhood. I won't discuss what, but I had "remembered" doing something sickeningly awful. This thing came to me almost as clear as a real memory. I remember thinking something along the lines of 'How could I forget doing something like that?' followed by a feeling of complete horror and terror. I have moments of "clarity" where I can't believe that I'm questioning doing this thing, and it appears obvious that it's false. But now, I'm more than often believing that I did. I am spending 24/7 fighting my head, and it's taking me to dark places. I know this is the worst thing to do, but you don't understand, if this is real then I am a monster and I can't just adopt the 'maybe I did, maybe I didn't approach'. I just can't. I have to know. I'm so scared. My entire life is on the line. I don't have anyone to talk to about this. Literally no one. I feel like I'm insane, like I'm a monster, like I'm hiding my true identity from everyone I love. Does this sound like False Memory? Or am I in denial, trying to convince myself this didn't happen? Why does it feel so real? And why do I have moments of clarity? I also had my first nightmare about it last night. Please someone help me.
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im going to be vague here, but basically i did something in the past that i regret and it became a huge point of my OCD but i have talked to my therapist and i have mostly moved past it. i watched a video by an OCD youtuber that really put it into perspective. anyway, i have been with minimal worry for a few days, but now im having worries related to i think false memory? basically it’s like “oh but what if i said/ did this and just forgot that means i harmed this person im a bad person”. to me it sounds like textbook OCD but im just wondering if anyone else has experienced false memory / real event at the same time. i have a really horrible memory which is making it even more stressful. any responses are appreciated!
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Hello all, I’ve dealt with various OCD themes and compulsions for pretty much as long as I can remember. In some periods of my life the thoughts and compulsions have been particularly severe, but I’ve also had years where I’m able to keep it under control. This has made me worry I don’t actually have OCD, especially because I haven’t been doing consistent therapy and my therapists have gone back and forth on whether I have OCD. In the past few years, I’ve struggled immensely with false memory ocd, and right now I’m going through probably the most severe episode of my life. I love my boyfriend with all my heart. A few times that I’ve gone out drinking I’ve had the thought before “what if I lost control and cheated tonight” and it’s bothered me severely. Two times before, it’s gotten to the point of convincing myself that because I talked to a man that meant I had cheated on my boyfriend and just couldn’t remember. It has never turned out to be true. About a month ago, I went out with friends and had too much to drink. I was really ashamed of myself the next morning, particularly because I always try to drink cautiously now that I know it can trigger my anxiety. I am ashamed to admit I do not remember the very end of the night getting in my uber and going home. I woke up anxious and extremely worried and immediately started off by worrying if I could have tried to kiss my friend and not remembered. I called him and was immediately reassured nothing had happened, I simply drank too much and went home at the end of the night. I started feeling better, but then remembered a moment I had been in the bathroom. I remembered chatting with people in line about how long the line was, and then being in the bathroom on my phone. I then felt like I remembered people knocking and saying to myself “that wasn’t that long” and leaving. There is nothing concrete that I remember that in any way indicates I cheated, and in fact I have texts with my boyfriend from the whole night telling him I loved him. My friend told me that the only time I was ever apart from him was about 5 minutes and that when he came back I was in the same exact spot he left me in. However, when I remembered being in the bathroom, I thought to myself “what if you cheated on him in the bathroom”/ “oh my god did you cheat on him in the bathroom” and then a series of images of me performing sexual acts popped into my head. I’ve poured over my memory and truly do not remember meeting anyone, talking to anyone, or even finding anyone attractive that night, but the fact that I was drinking makes me worried I’m just forgetting and these images could be real. I’ve been constantly ruminating on these fears for the past month, to the point that the only relief I feel is when I’m able to fall asleep. I’m a law student and it’s becoming extremely difficult to keep up with my classes. I’ve been google searching, asked chat gpt for advice, confessed my fears to my boyfriend, asked for reassurance from pretty much everyone in my life, and even emailed the bar asking for security footage (which I know all sounds insane). I’m a naturally guilty person and feel bad about small things, so I really don’t think I would be capable of cheating and then nonchalantly texting my boyfriend, but these images feel so real that it’s terrifying. I’ve also seen a lot about how I would “just know” and that begins to scare me because then I think “you do just know, you did it” even though I really don’t think I did. I know these posts are not supposed to be for reassurance seeking, I’m just so exhausted and feeling really depressed. I’m wondering if anyone has experienced something similar and has any advice. I’m also wondering if images can feel more real the more you ruminate on them or if it’s a sign of memory. Thank you so much for listening.
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