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Me... Even after months after that night...
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And are your memories eeally vivid ?
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Yes :( i have been struggeling with that for the last few months eventhough i haven't had a drink in almost a year ...
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What about you?
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The more you think about them, the more real they seem right?
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Unfortunately yes.. the more you think about them the realer they seem.. i just want to stop myself from thinking... But that makes it even worse
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I’ve been dealing with it for 6 months now! It’s a lot better, but it was pure mental torture for so long
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What was your theme Louiss ?
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How did you get better?
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Three days ago. I had a pocd thought and I decided I wasn't distressed enough and that must mean it's true. Awful. That's why I try to stay away from alcohol.
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It was POCD, it started with horrible false memories from when I was a child It went from thinking I may have seen child pornograpy, to spiralling thinking “what if I downloaded it?!” And got stuck on that for ages Then it went to 2 years ago when I had a few drinks, I remember having a Facebook conversation with some girl and I couldn’t remember it. So my mind is like “what if she was underage, what if you did this, what if you said that” ? Then more recently it’s been cheating OCD and even animal abuse ? And how to get better...I’ll talk about that in a minute!
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Honestly, I don’t really know how I improved Gradually over time I think it’s natural, however the turning point was when I gave up. I had been fighting it so much, so I got to a point where I gave up on life...that’s when it started get better I still have off moments and off days, but I can enjoy things now. I created a ‘Bucket List’ and am trying to make the most out of life. May I ask what your memory is about?
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It was about cheating ocd. I would need reassurance from everyone who was out with me... It has been really bad the last few weeks, nothing seems to be working... I also started talking therapy, hope that will Help. But now it feels like the obsessions are also about other things even worse than cheating.. just hope to get better.
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I’m sorry to hear that, there really is no easy solution. It really is worse than any physical pain I’ve been through ? It definitely does get better, I never thought it would
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The more you think about those memories, the more details you add to them so they seem so real and vivid at the end. Is it like this for you guys too? I guess we really have to stop ruminating
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How can I deal with False Memory OCD? I am struggling with ruminating thoughts, and trying to figure out false memories! How can I enjoy my day without figuring it out?
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Does anyone else’s false memory intrusive thoughts of what could have happened feel very, very real?
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So. I was in a traumatic relationship. for a long time. it was filled with gaslighting, manipulation, abuse, cheating ect. I would OBSESS over finding out where they were, what they were doing, who they were talking too. but I couldn’t leave. I tried so hard but I never could. they would call me names, physically hurt me, throw things, break things. because I would question them all the time. but I just couldn’t leave. no matter what I knew. they would manipulate me. I fell for their childhood trauma. it’s like I lost all logic. but I also feel like I have a pretty good memory with memories. not all the way, but remembering a lot of the traumatic things. especially now that I’m no longer with them. I keep remembering things that’s happened. even from my childhood. one time way before I even started dating this person, I had an intrusive thought about a friend of mine. that was with me. and I freaked out. I thought I had acted on the intrusive thought the next day. I asked my friend for confirmation but they said nothing happened. but the memories about it feel SO REAL. so VIVID. but they swore that nothing happened and they had no idea what I was talking about. I’ve struggled with intrusive thoughts for my whole life. so fast forward to now, that ‘false memory’ from my friend randomly popped up and I started obsessing about it, and my childhood ‘memories’ that have popped up. and then I was reading an article of someone doing something horrible, and then it sounded ‘familiar’ and so then I’ve created this whole memory of me doing something similar to the article involving my partner doing it also. the memory keeps adding new things and conversations around it. when it involves an actual real memory. but it’s like it’s been twisted from what I remembered before. I also suffer from bad anxiety. I’ve stalked pictures. my search history to figure out what I was doing that say when the real event happened. and I’ve found some things but I can’t look through my texts because I got a new phone. it has been hounding me for months. MONTHS. trying to figure out if this new ‘memory’ is real or not. if it’s been fabricated by an intrusive thought from reading the article and thinking ‘what if’ or if it actually happened and because I’m no longer in this relationship it’s a ‘repressed memory’ but the thing is I have horrible horrible anxiety and I don’t think I could have gone this long knowingly that that happened without remembering it until now. because I remember a lot of the horrible things that they did. this ‘memory’ is fuzzy, but it brings me horrible anxiety when I think of it, like I feel like it happened. but I also feel like it didn’t happen. because I know I would never do anything like that. but WHAT IF I DID, because I was manipulated. idk. is this a false memory. I really need help. because it’s been debilitating. that relationship was really traumatic. and I got manipulated into a lot of things. but I wouldn’t have just went forward knowing that that happened??? there’s no way I could have just forgotten it. because before when I would think about that night it was different, until now. but what if I just made myself forget what truly happened?? I’m a pretty self aware individual, but somehow that relationship really REALLY put me into a trance somehow where I allowed things that I have no idea how I would even allow because before I met that person I would have never allowed someone to cheat on my constantly or talk to me the way they did. or allow abuse. like I don’t understand it.
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