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- 2y
I just don’t know :(
why am I so scared of death at 15 ???? I think everything is a sign and I’m constantly in fear of how my friends and family would feel if I died it makes me wanna cry. 🥹🥹
why am I so scared of death at 15 ???? I think everything is a sign and I’m constantly in fear of how my friends and family would feel if I died it makes me wanna cry. 🥹🥹
Im sorry to hear your fear! It must be so daunting. I have this fear too when I was 10. To the point I do a lot of mental and physical compulsions and persuade myself that I can live forever. It is daunting to think about death. But it’s the living part that’s important to think about. I like to think that a second is just a measurement of time, but any good moment can be forever long. When we die, we don’t disappear, we just walk out of time.
@Traveller Thankyou !
I’m so sorry…it’s so painful to witness ourselves be so gripped by fear. Let the tears roll friend. I will hold hope for you. Keep seeking help, and keep trying…life is just beginning. Better seasons will come.
@MadSeason 🥹🥹💖
i understand this feeling. im 21 , but i have this fear of just how im gonna grow old & die or suffer and i get extremely paranoid about it . it makes me no able to sleep & everything. i used to think i was gonna die a lot when i was little too and id get extremely nervous. i don’t have anything really to help, i wish i did but i can relate. youre not alone
You aren’t just someone, you are someone special to so many. You are living the wonder years of your life and your probability to die at 15 is less than 0.05% - that is 0.05 out of 1000 or extremely unlikely. I am not a therapist but from general experience living life, it might help to replace these disturbing thoughts with something exciting m. Maybe daydream a little. Maybe think about the beautiful life that awaits you on the other side of 20. Think how you want to build your career, what you want to do, where you want to go… just think something else happy. Good luck!
@Anonymo_US Thankyou so much. 💖
I recommend ERSp therapy to help you with this.
@Erin P **ERP
That tragedy that happened in my country Dominican Republic at the nightclub taking 221 people lives is affecting me even though I didn’t have no family members there I can’t stop thinking about it that that’s all we here and one minute we are gone I can’t stop thinking about what’s the point of all of this getting married having kids more father ect car house what’s the point of anything if we have to die anyway I never felt like this before :( I m so afraid to die I m afraid of my family dying how can I move on from this I m scared that I m wasting my life being depressed and anxious I feel that I should’ve never been going through ocd and depression how I m supposed to enjoy life going through this plus I feel guilty for struggling with mental health I m so confused. and lost 😭 why are we here doing all of this if we gonna die ? Why we have families and then have suffer from our families dying
the concept of death & existence is ruining my life rn 😭 im losing so much sleep. i try to close my eyes & all my brain wants to do is try to wrap itself around the idea of what not existing feels like & i get this sinking feeling that grows & grows until my eyes snap open & i have to go back on my phone to distract myself until im literally too exhausted to keep my head up & my body forces me to sleep. it makes having the motivation to do anything hard because all i can think is "it wont matter when i die". it sucks because i know that having MORE in my life might actually improve this, im 21 unemployed still living at home with ASD & i know once i have a job that will definitely give me more to focus on & other stresses to have lol, but i feel like im stuck in the endless cycle of "not having a life makes me worried im wasting my life & itll all be over so fast" & then "being so stressed about my life & time passing is exhausting & makes it too hard to find the motivation to do anything other than sit here" & repeat. spirituality is hard because i like thinking that way, like afterlife & shit, but i worry that im just "in denial" & using it as an unhealthy coping mechanism that leads to magical thinking thoughts. then its like i have some sort of meta ocd spiral obsessing over if what im doing is bad & unhealthy for my ocd or not. i LIKE being spiritual but im worrying im hurting myself & doing a compulsion thinking that way. it also doesnt help that religious spaces have hurt & traumatized so many people & im terrified of being apart of a "delusional" community that spreads a false narrative & attacks anyone that doesnt agree with them. i know i am not like that but i worry im still apart of the problem even thinking this way. at the end of the day no one knows the truth, no one knows what happens after death. im just struggling to sit with the uncertainty. it is so late rn idk of any of my words make sense lol
At first, it just started as harmless questions, curiously exploring the universe and what life and death mean as a human. Then it became an obsession about death and the afterlife. I’m a Catholic-turned-agnostic who recently took an interest in religion again, trying to redevelop a relationship with God without letting the fear of not being good enough and possibly going to Hell taking over me. Instead, my brain latched onto the possibility that there is no God, that there’s eternal nothingness after the short time we have here on earth and that everything means nothing. My love for my friends and family. My desire to achieve my goals, and to be happy for the people I love achieving theirs. I’m haunted by the feeling that it will all be for nothing, that I will never be reunited with those that I love, that the people I love who have passed on have ceased to exist and one day, so will I and everyone else. I can’t function now. I’ve made myself physically ill over this. I’ve lost my appetite. As someone who once took pride in how much love I have for my job as a daycare teacher, I come into work and feel numb. I go home and feel numb. I’ve obsessively started telling the people in my life how much I love and appreciate them because for the past three days, I’ve been sick thinking about how one day, either I’ll leave them or they’ll leave me. It feels like nothing matters. It feels like everything is in vain. I’ve tried so hard to reframe my mindset, to rewire my brain to not think that way. I’ve tried ERP techniques of allowing myself to sit with the discomfort that the fear brings. To try and desensitize myself to this fear. Nothing seems to work. I’m so lost. I’ve been this way for three days, with yesterday and today being worse than the day it started. It’s like the obsession is morphing into depression in a way. I’m scared I’ll never feel enjoyment in any form again. I don’t know what to do anymore.
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