I keep feeling like I’m letting god down Bc I’m dating an agnostic person but he’ll pray with me and he says maybe one day he’ll become a Christian and he’s offered to go to church with me. I keep feeling like “god wants me to leave” but idk if it’s my ocd. Any tips ?

And also, regarding my fiancé’s faith or absence of faith and how I’m understanding it now: I don’t believe that God gives up on anyone, not in this life or after it. Faith evolves and we journey in and out and through faith and it will look different at different times in life. Everyone worships something, and I believe that when our minds and bodies are directed at loving and serving others, this is an act of worshipping the God who washed his disciples feet. So even though my fiancé won’t make a “faith claim” so to speak, I know that I’m loving me and loving others, he is also loving and moving in the spirit of the God who is Love itself.

I thinks that's really personal. I've been through the same situation, and he ended up going to church and indeed becoming a Christian. But it was a terrible relationship in spite of all this, but I kept telling myself we were meant to be because I helped him go to church etc. But he was a terrible, abusive person who did awful things to me, "Christian" or not. Your bf might not be Christian right now but turn out to be an amazing person who will treat you well. It all depends, my advice to you would be observe what is good for you, at the beginning of the relationship I blamed OCD for all these thoughts on how he wasn't the right person but it turned out that all these thoughts were actually that deep down I knew he wasn't treating me well even though I tried so hard to ignore it. In your case, it can be OCD, so it depends on how well your relationship will develop and if it's healthy for you.

It is healthy, he’s supper supportive and we actually have broken up once before Bc my mental health was becoming toxic. But we got back together and were the happiest we ever been. He’s helped me to grow a lot and learn more about love and myself and he’s helped me a lot with my ocd as he goes thru a different type of ocd. He’s even changing to become a better man and tells me how he wants to be kinder and nicer to all so Ik he has a good heart deep down.

@aholcomb, my heart breaks for you that you are experiencing this, because I have/am experiencing it too. And I know how hard it is. I agree with @villonr that this is an individual decision that really has to be based on your individual situation. I can only tell my story and what I’ve learned through it. I hope you will find encouragement through it. My fiancé is a wonderful, wonderful man and he is kind and generous and treats people like Jesus taught us to treat people. He comes to church with me sometimes and prays with me and really supports my practice of faith. His position on faith is that there is no way he can possibly make a statement about whether God exists or not. And of course, when we are honest with ourselves, none of us can really make 100% sure truth claims about God, because we can’t pull God out of a hat and say “hey look, it’s God.” We have been together for seven years and this issue tormented me for much of that time. After we got engaged last year, I had a breakdown and we had to postpone our wedding. I was very close to ending our relationship for no other reason than I felt like I “shouldn’t” marry someone who didn’t 100 percent share my beliefs, even though we share the same values. I realized that most of my anxiety wasn’t really about him, but was relationship ocd that is rooted in the spiritual trauma that I grew up in, the trauma that taught me to be terrified of disobeying God and taught me that nothing I could ever do would be good enough for God to love me. And that picture of God really needed to change for me. And while im still dealing with the relationship ocd, we are planning to get married in the next month or so. And here’s another thing I’ve learned; God is bigger than me and the person I am choosing to marry, and he doesn’t need my obedience. God cannot be anything other than loving, and I think, now, that faith is more about the action of loving others and sitting in brokenness with them than about a series of intellectual claims that we say we believe in. If God is Love, as the Bible says, then God is always moving in love, sitting with us in our fear and sadness, teaching us to be vulnerable with others and with ourselves. I encourage you to check out Sheryl Paul’s work on relationship anxiety; you may find it helpful. I hope you find peace in your situation.

*i know that IN loving me and loving others

You expect him to accept your religion. It's only fair if you accept his lack of religion as well.