- Date posted
- 1y ago
Forcing yourself to sit in the discomfort?
I always think about how I can just sit in discomfort and get used to my environment or not act on impulse, but every time I try I get so overwhelmed and stressed out. When I am home, all day I obsess over the cleanliness of my room or apartment in general and I clean every single day/disinfect surfaces. I can’t focus on what I am trying to do without cleaning my space up and when I am cleaning then I have to get very little detail and everything has to be in the right position/location or is clean the way I like it to be clean. I get so annoyed with it sometimes and I start to judge myself for having OCD, but in reality I know it’s not my fault but it’s hard to deal with sometimes. I don’t really have anyone in my life that understands OCD so then I feel extremely isolated because no one can understand so when I try and talk about it then I feel misunderstood and even worse so now I keep it all in and get stressed and frustrated about it. I already take meds for depression and I have anxiety meds for as needed but I am afraid to be put on anxiety meds for daily use because I don’t want to feel numb and I want to be off meds in the next few years or by the time I graduate from college, because I have found very good methods for coping and managing my depression and anxiety. I just would like some advice on how to cope and mange with OCD, I am new to it because I haven’t ever wanted to address it until now. Thank you in advance!