- Username
- krlyscott
- Date posted
- 300d ago
- Order & Symmetry OCD
- Perfectionism OCD
Excoriation Disorder
Hi all, my name is Karley. I have ED, aka Dermatillomania, which falls under the DSM5 OCD category. I obsess over my skin. Any little bump, texture, black head, flaw, anything that isn't flat and smooth, I feel like I have to pick at. I will literally tell myself I don't need to pick, and then my brain obsesses over the what ifs. What if there is pus in there? What if I don't flatten that spot? What if someone sees the bump? (Which rational brain me knows that picking only makes it more apparent🙃 but my OCD brain is like nahh, pick it, they can see it). What if I don't get the stuff out? And man do my compulsions feel satisfied when I do get something out of a bump. It's validating almost. See, if I hadn't squeezed that spot, the stuff that's not supposed to be there would still be there. Anyways, I'm hoping there's others who can relate to this specific disorder. I wish there was a cure as we all do. But for now I'll find some peace in knowing we're not alone.