- Date posted
- 1y ago
Excoriation Disorder
Hi all, my name is Karley. I have ED, aka Dermatillomania, which falls under the DSM5 OCD category. I obsess over my skin. Any little bump, texture, black head, flaw, anything that isn't flat and smooth, I feel like I have to pick at. I will literally tell myself I don't need to pick, and then my brain obsesses over the what ifs. What if there is pus in there? What if I don't flatten that spot? What if someone sees the bump? (Which rational brain me knows that picking only makes it more apparentš but my OCD brain is like nahh, pick it, they can see it). What if I don't get the stuff out? And man do my compulsions feel satisfied when I do get something out of a bump. It's validating almost. See, if I hadn't squeezed that spot, the stuff that's not supposed to be there would still be there. Anyways, I'm hoping there's others who can relate to this specific disorder. I wish there was a cure as we all do. But for now I'll find some peace in knowing we're not alone.