i was in the car on the way home from my grandmas house talking to my mom about my anxiety and how my grandma had OCD but that me and my siblings never really had it (keep in mind I haven’t told my mom about my HOCD yet). i was talking to her about how I think I have some OCD in me, hoping that she would say something along the lines of “yes you probably do!” but instead she said, “you may, but you probably just have OCD tendencies”. apparently you can have just ocd tendencies without having full blown OCD?? anyway, now i’m getting all worried that I don’t actually have HOCD and that all this is just a “tendency” and that i’m actually gay. this sucks. i just wish she knew. i wish i could tell her. i want to tell her so bad but i’m just so scared that she won’t understand. i honestly might just wait until i graduate high school (i’m going to be a senior) and just get an OCD therapist wherever I go to college so that i won’t have to worry about my parents finding out about me going to a therapist ugh. i feel so bad for not telling them but i am just so scared

Sexual Orientation OCD

Idk

Date posted: 6y

I don’t this there’s such thing as OCD tendencies. Try not to worry about it, but there is different types of OCD. And we have the checking and intrusive thought types.

I Need An Of...

Date posted: 6y

Yeah. It’s frustrating. My mom got me in to see a therapist because I told her about my anxiety (not mentioning the HOCD) and then I told my therapist about it and she confirmed it was OCD and then I asked her to tell my mom so it could be from a professional stand point. My mom understood after that, but even though she understands she doesn’t totally get it. I mean, I wouldn’t if I was her. It’s someone questioning their sexuality obsessively and never finding an answer. She’s never heard of something like that. I told my grandma and she totally denied the reality of it. She told me that everyone has ocd and what I’m dealing with was no different and that I just had to stop thinking about the thoughts. Even though it’s gotten to the point of me mimicking suicidal thoughts, she doesn’t understand how horrible and torturous it is. It’s kind of like coming out as gay in a way. When you tell people about your HOCD they either reject you or just don’t understand.?

justtryingmy...

Date posted: 6y

all i want to do right now is go online and find some sort of OCD diagnosing thing that can tell me that i do have OCD and that they aren’t just tendencies UGH i want to so badly... but i’m going to fight the urge

Idk

Date posted: 6y

I understand, when I first told my siblings about it I was afraid they’d think I was actually questioning my sexuality but I wasn’t. I was hat afraid of being something I’m not obviously. But same, I was also having suicidal thoughts. Ocd is really a pain. I haven’t been diagnosed but I think I might have it. It kind of runs in the family. Inherited from my mom, especially the anxiety. But I get you.

momma2gals

Date posted: 6y

Don’t feel bad. OCD likes to trick and make you doubt yourself.. it’s called the doubting disease for a reason! A book that really helped me was “overcoming intrusive thoughts” by Martin Seif and sally Winston. There’s a kindle version available to download. It may make you feel better and more comfortable with all of the things you’re thinking and feeling.

Adi7

Date posted: 25w

Advice please ❤️

Hi ❤️ I’m really struggling right now I’m in my sophomore year of Highschool and I’ve finally started planning or thinking abt my future (for context I was extremely depressed and suicidal from 6-9th grade) After conquering my depression this is a huge leap for me and I’m proud of myself ❤️ But there’s something still holding me down :( and I’m not sure what to do anymore that thing is OCD. Since 6th grade I have had strong and invasive intrusive thoughts all the time they scare me so bad and make me feel as though I’m not even real anymore :( I’m sick of taking the time to do ridiculous compulsions to rid or ease these thoughts it’s a waste of time and energy and it hurts me so bad I feel like I will never get to just live my life without this :( How can I plan my future when I can’t even find myself in this mess of anxiety 💔 I’m so tired of fighting my mental health it’s been years from anxiety attacks to sh to survived suicide attempts (I got help dw❤️‍🩹) and recovery there. Just to be thrown into a storm of awful scary sickening thoughts day and night-when can I just be a normal teenager and possibly a happy adult? How do I conquer this so I can love myself to the fullest and live my life free and happy? :( ❤️❤️‍🩹 I’m so scared to talk to my parents about it I’m ashamed of my thoughts and every time I bring it up they just say I shouldn’t be diagnosing myself or it’s just ADHD. It really really hurts me they have no idea how awful this feels and it makes me feel so alone sometimes 💔

idolent

Date posted: 20w

i think i have OCD, but my gf disagrees (rant?)

i’ve thought that i have OCD for about 2 years now, but i’ve had a lot of the symptoms for as long as i can remember (but i don’t really remember a lot of my childhood- i need to check w family to confirm). i’ve talked to my gf about it, and she thinks i just have GAD and am a hypochondriac. i definitely do have GAD, but the things i have obsessions and compulsions ab aren’t just health related (even tho a lot are), ill imagine that people are injured or dead if i don’t hear from them, i ruminate on childhood events and think about if i could have changed things, i blame myself for things that aren’t my fault, i check all of the locks in my house every night to make sure nobody can break in (even tho ik they’re locked), etc. my GAD more shows up in worrying about like worrying about an upcoming exam or about going into work, or that my friends/family/gf are/is mad at me. i know you guys can’t diagnose me, but the i can’t see a therapist on here until i am able to tell my current therapist that i need to see someone else. i just wanted to talk about it i guess, ive taken so many online quizzes and psych classes that i feel like i somewhat know what im talking about.

Rohannn

Date posted: 19w

I really need advice.

I'm 15 turning 16 soon and I'm 100 percent convinced I have ocd.. I have been having major symptoms since I was 13, the constant what ifs, rumination, compulsions, guilt, anxiety from intrusive thoughts. I tried to open up about it to my parents when i was 13 but they dismissed it cause they don't believe in mental health.. I really want to get better. My parents won't listen to me and I don't wanna tell a teacher at school cause that would make things worse as they would just tell my parents and obviously since I'm 15 I can't afford therapy.. I don't know what to do :(

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