Seeking positivity and recovery stories about OCD experiences.

In January I was stuck to the floor. I was crying nonstop, holding my head, just wanting all of the intrusions and obsessions to stop. I thought I was going to be arrested, I thought I was going to have a heart attack, and I couldn’t leave even 50 feet from my house. It was a dark time. After reaching out to NOCD, working with my health insurance, and found OCD groups I can say now…. I just got back from a two week road trip involving four hour hikes. I’m eating all kinds of food with zero fear. I’m working out. I just got a new job offer. I’m no longer having issues with going to the doctors. My OCD has reduced dramatically and it shows. ERP works and it feels like a leap of faith.

About a year ago, I found myself crying in a corner do the constant screaming in my head, to the point I thought I was going insane and a monster. Ended up calling my mom (I was 24, so this felt like a low point to bring this to a parent). Taken to the hospital, and give diazapam to bring me to a somewhat normal state. In grad school, I felt like needed to drop out cause of this. Found a therapist, went to my psychiatrist. Got medication and therapy, and at first it was horrible with the medication. Slowly it got better and better. Today, I have long periods of times where I have no rumination/intrusive thoughts at all. Yes, there are still triggers that bring it all back, but the bad times are shorter. It will never be fully fixed, and I accept that. Coping with it, is a skill, work at it, and you’ll get better at it. Hope this helps stranger, always willing to talk about it with someone who has a shared experience:)

Idk if I’m recovered but on a scale of 1 to 10 I say it’s a 7.5 to 8. And I’m ok with that. For me OCD is like background noise. It’s there and I don’t spend time listening to it. I just go about doing my thang!