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Not so much about noises although certain noises do annoy me. But if I feel angry towards a person for any reason or they annoy me. I worry my harm ocd thoughts and urges will be worse around them
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Yes!! We're on the same level. I'm sorry youre going through this wouldn't wish it on anyone! That's how I feel. But even without people annoying me i still get the same feelings and urges. It's a never ending hell being stuck with harm ocd ?
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Yeah I agree it's always good to know you're not alone and not the only one who thinks that way. I definitely recommend putting yourself in those situations and sitting with the anxiety it's the way foward. ? I don't want anyone to end up doing what I've done. I get what you mean it does feel very real. My harm ocd convinces me I'm gonna punch someone in the face it becomes like an urge I feel I can not control and get so scared my hands will just lash out ? I've been told many times it feels like an urge because that's the anxiety. Which makes sense I guess. I miss the days when it was just a thought not an urge
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It’s so weird you described my exact fear @wheredoesitend . It always hits worse when someone annoys me or my family does something to annoy me or if I get angry then that just PROVES I’m capable of harming people god it’s scary
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Can't you talk to someone?, ? I did manage to tell my mom which did help but I still have the thoughts around her which I hate
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I'm so sorry to hear that ? I really am. Do you see a therapist? If not can you try to seek help because you shouldn't be going through this alone. I thought my family wouldn't take me seriously luckily my mom has been very understanding and supportive of it but I haven't managed to tell anyone else in depth the problems I'm going through cos I worry about being judged. And worry about adding to other people's worry. I just don't want you to go through this alone. But you have me if you need it. Cos I understand you, ❤️I'm sorry youre brother doesn't give you the support you need ?do you have a friend you can confide in? And what you said about suffering ptsd I assume your family know about this? It's so difficult to talk about Because it's so unheard of. Almost no one I know in my life has ever even heard of harm ocd they think ocd is all to do with cleaning and rituals. I believe I also suffered ptsd and have also had harm ocd and ocd for aslong as I can remember. I just didn't know what it was until very recently its all still new to me ?
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I definitely feel like that too,
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Yes exactly! How do you deal the thoughts in that's situation if that is ok to ask?
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I wish i could give you a more positive answer hun but unfortunately I haven't dealt with it in the right way at all. I've isolated myself for over 2 months now. I have done little bits of erp (exposure) but not much. I just became that bad with the fear of my thoughts coming true aswell as depression and anxiety I shut myself away. But I know exposure is the way to beat it. Exposing yourself to these situations as much as possible and apparently the anxiety gets easier. It's still all very new to me this harm ocd thing ? I didn't know how to handle it other than shutting myself away which I really advise against! Don't do that because it becomes even harder. ?
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Just wanted to give you the most honest answer I could
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That's just how I react to my harm ocd in general not necessarily noises. But I understand what you mean about noise. I get very annoyed with certain things even people coughing and little things like that.
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No that's great thank you! Just knowing it's not just me is somewhat relieving! I feel like putting myself or keeping myself in the situation is probably best to do. It's just so hard when it feels so real as I'm sure you will understand too!
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Yeah
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Same. Even when somebody’s being nice to me- but keeping this all in is the worst part of knowing I’ll never get through it
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It’s just something that my family won’t take seriously or will make the worst out of and will look at me different or just blame it on something as stupid as my phone. I don’t know how to explain it well but I’ve always been awkward in the sharing emotions with family or anyone department. My brother is aware of some of my ocd themes but he treats it carelessly because people without ocd don’t understand the depth you know? He never checks in with me on how I’m doing about it and even knowing what I’m going through he shrugs it off. Plus there’s a lot on my family’s plate right now I wouldn’t want to fill it up more with my problems. But this is understandable since I have been suffering from ptsd since I was young so it was bound to turn into something.
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I don’t see a therapist, I really wish I could because it would be such an immense help stability wise. And in order to seek help from therapy I’d have to inform my family about what’s going on correct, and as we’ve discussed that’s kind of a rough path to take:/ and also the expense of therapy seems like a lot, I haven’t done much research though since I know the possibility is miles away. I’m also scared to confide in anyone else including friends, I have one super close friend but I don’t want her to think different of me, I’m also scared that if one day our friendship ends (I doubt that this will occur but still), I don’t want her to have something so private against me. I have a hard time with trust. But remember you’re never a burden, it’s their job as your friends and family to support you. They made you/you mean importance to them and they should take care of you. I find it hard to follow my same advice. I was always the advice giver everyone went to but never gave me any back. Thank you for caring, it really means a lot to me. I find it super triggering when people say intrusive ocd like these themes don’t exist because it gives a possibility that it’s all in my head but we have to remember not everyone’s as educated as us. I have too much cursed knowledge now than ever before but that’s just how it is and I wish I could change it but unfortunately can’t I guess:/ and I feel you! My family is aware of the trauma but I’m not sure they’re aware of my ptsd. I find little pieces from my life that connect the fact that I always have a little bit of ocd, I just never knew or noticed. But it’s all so difficult to put in words and explain.
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I'm so sorry you aren't seeing one ? I'm not seeing one either at the moment. I have my appointment with psychiatrist soon but even then therapy could be a long wait. The mental health service in the UK is disgusting. How old are you hun? Depending on your age can't you see a doctor without your familys consent? I'm so sorry you feel like you can't talk to them I really wish you could and would but I understand what you're saying ? therapy can be a bit pricey sometimes and too expensive in my opinion. Although mine would be free on the NHS Im considering private and paying for it cos I don't have muchfaith in the mental health service. Where are you from? If therapy isnt possible right now maybe look at some self help books, watch some videos on YouTube some of them can be really good. I totally understand what you're saying about not wanting to tell your friend too ?I will always care because I know exactly what you are going through so remember you aren't alone. I'm here for you. Even if it takes me a while to reply sometimes lol. I find that very triggering too! But it's because people are so uneducated about this theme of ocd and its so unheard of ? can feel like a very lonely place. I know what you mean when I think back on my life I realise I've had harm ocd for absolutely ages. Im 29 now and had it since I was about 6/7 I really hope you can find some sort of help and support you really deserve it.! ❤️
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https://youtu.be/6csT2VeC5ZA Chrissie hodges talking about how to tell people you have ocd. She talks about violent and sexual thoughts hope this can help ❤️
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- 24w
I have this issue where I can vividly imagine hurting others or animals or say things OUTLOUD that may be disruptive or disrespectful becauss I am overstimulated by soemthing someone is doing or saying. So, Over stimulation with people and animals and things they do can be a big part of it, Sometimes I will see soemthing that bothers me about someone and I just want to either fix it or hit them because they make me so overstimulated I just want to hit the problem. I never act on these things obviously but SOMETIMES it leaks out and I hit my hands together to calm the urges. I really don’t like imagining hurting others but when I get mad I obsess over what I would or could do to them or might or would’ve in a situation in the past, had it planned out differently. I keep thinking about it and thinking about it and then get upset with myself because I know it’s wrong to be thinking about hurting others and it worries me I may someday act on something impulsive and harm someone. Sometimes I cry about it because I never want to hurt people. Really I don’t. Most of these thoughts happen in milliseconds and I have a second part in my brain like a THOUGHT processor/auto corrective thinking reminding me I can’t do that because it’s morally wrong and I am too good of a person to do that and there is nothing to stress over.
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- 23w
I worry people might get the wrong idea when I share this but I must post it because I’m scared so basically this is gonna sound weird but I have always sorta been a violent kid but in a normal way if that makes sense like if someone tris over I would find the ridiculously funny but what kinda confuses me is when loved ones hurt themselves I laugh it’s not like I’m putting it on idk I just randomly laugh and i find funny please don’t think I’m a bad person because I’m really not and I’m scared abt this but that’s not the point of this story so I will get to the pint now so basically I was walking upstairs and I hit my head on the door and my mum laughed at me and I said “its not funny I hit my head” and she said something else that made me angry I can’t remember and then I started to charge at her like I was gonna hit her or something and it scared me cuz I wanted to push her or something ( not harmful just like as a back off kinda thing) which I know it’s horrible writing it out but then while I had that urge to push it her or something I also got a groinal so then OCD was like ”you were gonna s3xualy attack just then and you liked it” and now I’m to scared to go near her just in case it happens again cuz I’ve been in a spiral for days now, again please don’t tell me I’m a bad person cuz I already feel like that cuz writing it out it sounds worse then it is irl im sorry if this was triggering and please reply and tell me your thoughts on this.
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Does anyone else get super scared of feelings of adrenaline while you have intrusive thoughts? Like it feels like it’s trying to take over your body and those feelings of anger are trying to collide and dictate what ur body does? Now you feel impulsive and on edge and you feel like you are acting on your thoughts? Like I get thoughts about hurting family and I get super scared when I get feelings of anger about them and I feel that adrenaline! It’s all intrusive and I don’t like anything of it
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