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- morningdew
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- 1y ago
Is there an end?
Im just stuck thinking if there will ever be an end to this awful feeling, if ill ever be able to be at peace and happy with my life without intrusive thoughts ruining everything for me
Im just stuck thinking if there will ever be an end to this awful feeling, if ill ever be able to be at peace and happy with my life without intrusive thoughts ruining everything for me
Yes, there definitely can be improvement and healing in the area of OCD and intrusive thoughts. Therapy has helped me, and also a book called The OCD Healing Journey by Mark DeJesus. I’m learning to be more compassionate toward myself in my thinking. Im learning that thoughts are just thoughts- everyone has disturbing ones come through sometimes. My goal is to let them pass on by and not hold on to them. I’m learning “the problem is not the problem,” but actually it’s how I’m interacting with what I think is the problem. Hope this helps you.
Looks like you're on the right path by being here. Don't give up. It's all about learning to coexist with uncertainty.
@CaleeGee Thank you!
Tons of people ERP their way out of this disorder. At a certain point, they don't meet the criteria for OCD as a diagnosis and if you do upkeep, you can continue to manage it at that level. Even then, some people might have blips here and there, but they know how to handle it and bring it back to managing well.
Does ERP actually work I have hocd well so I think I do it’s been 3 years now and still stuck I am stuck on the idea that sexuality can change and that is scary the crap out of me I went on you tube to try and do a exposure by watching two guys kissing I was finding it hard to watch and felt sick and wasn’t able to continue watching it with out gagging how do I sit with the thought and uncertainty if I can’t even watch the video 5 mins why has ocd choose this theme
When you feel like you can’t live anymore because of your terrible intrusive thoughts, What do you do? How do you overcome this? I don’t want to do anything to myself but I want this all to end.
I've been in treatment for about 3.5 months and I have definitely improved. However, I feel like I'm always relapsing... I do exposures for specific thoughts and it definitely helps. Usually my anxiety will go way down and that specific thought will improve. Then I may have a period of a week or so where my intrusive thoughts aren't so bothersome. But they ALWAYS come back. My ocd will latch on to anything at all and Im constantly having new intrusive thoughts. I seem to be stuck in a cycle of improvement and relapse. I don't know what I'm doing wrong. Will the intrusive thoughts ever subside??
When was the last time I had a day where I didnt have to mentally torture myself to make sure I wasn't what I feared most. It has stolen so much from me and it is as if I am no longer able to live. It is always back to this problem. I genuinely despise myself.
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