Riga
- Date posted
- 1y ago
anonymoususer anonymoususer
- Date posted
- 1y ago
yea i know this makes no sense, but sometimes i’ll try to get into a hobby but then i’ll think something like, “what if you’re somehow going to get WAY too much into this and getting into this hobby with make you evil or something” and the activity in question is me learning how to play a single chord on the guitar😭
frosty9frosty9
- Date posted
- 1y ago
Yep! My hobbies have become compulsions before. I love to knit but would knit till finished with a project when my ocd gets at it and then redo it over and over till i considered good enough and I wouldn’t stop even though it would hurt my hands with hours of knitting without taking a break. I feel like I can make everything into a compulsion and worry about it. Gotten better overtime but it can be hard.
bruceWayne1bruceWayne1
- Date posted
- 1y ago
I’m not sure if it’s the same as your situation, but since the thoughts and feelings I get really get me down and sad, I feel unmotivated to do my hobbies, I usually draw and read, but since my thoughts have gotten worse, I can barely read without having a little quote or sentence in the book make me ruminate about something random. It’s made me not wanna read, and when I draw I get worried if the drawing of a person looks too young, and if that makes me a pedo. So , yea. OCD makes me wanna avoid doing things a usually love.
Anonymous Anonymous
- Date posted
- 1y ago
Yes I play rugby and it put me off massively as it’s a contact sport I found myself thinking in the warm up and games constantly going over the trigger etc. made me hate the sport because I thought if everyone knew what I thought I done and my thoughts they’d probs kill me
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