- Username
- jdd
- Date posted
- 1y ago
If my fear was true
Does anyone else think that they would just never act on it if turned out to not be OCD? Because I feel like that would be me. I just don't want it even if the ocd makes me feel like I do.
Does anyone else think that they would just never act on it if turned out to not be OCD? Because I feel like that would be me. I just don't want it even if the ocd makes me feel like I do.
Same I feel the exact same way. This is not the lifestyle I want even though my brain is telling me something else
It would be me, and at the same time I am tormented by the fact of losing access to my preference, the thought of not being able to live a life keeps me depressed. And although I know that I would not act, I still have anxiety about ending up acting under an impulse, don't you feel that there is also a kind of pressure from society in that aspect? If you comment on what is happening to you, they would call you that you are in the closet or that you should experiment... Hey, I don't want to experience anything, thank you
That's true I don't want to experience anything
Same! And then I’ll say to myself something like “are you seriously not going to try it if this is what you really want” so yikes
Yea me too. For me like, I get scared of the thought that i’ll have the urge to do something or if someone asked me what my orientation was, i’m scared i’ll say something i don’t want to say because of my ocd. Like Im just in my head so much everything feels awful. Recently i’ve been on dating apps and they ask for your orientation and I always put straight but because i’m so freaking scared that i’ll accidentally or impulsively put gay, I get so anxious and it’s like a never ending cycle. I have to always check 10000x that it’s not gay and then because i’m constantly checking, my ocd tells me it’s because I really wanna put that 😒 this just sucks man
What if I am what my OCD says? What if I am deep down a horrible monster and my ocd has been right all along and I’ve just been trying to fight it and deny that I am what it says?
I dont know if I have ocd really but I think I do because I have the intrusive thoughts and I always try and do things to soothe the anxiety. I've been dealing with this for a few months and this is a debilitating cycle and I wish I wad normal. when I first spoke to my therapist about it, she said that people with ocd like to clean and count a certain amount of tiles and stuff like that. I really want to get tested because I want help but im scared that if they say I don't have ocd then that means my intrusive thoughts are true and that I'm the person that my mind makes me think I am and it scares me. I mostly deal with symptoms of pocd so I try my best to avoid kids and sometimes I won't even want to go in public because of it and I count in my head a lot and try and see if my body is reacting any kind of way. I also try and just push the thoughts a way and do research and sometimes it makes me feel better but in reality it's just a cycle and it's terrifying so can someone please comfort me or give me advice and tips to help me feel better because I really need it. I just want to get help and stop this cycle because it's slowly killing me. I don't want to be the person my head thinks I am but in my head it's just constant fear anxiety and uncertainty.
I’ve been diagnosed with ocd but sometimes I think I’m faking or I don’t actually, but idk if that’s the ocd tricking me or if it’s true
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