If my fear was true

Same I feel the exact same way. This is not the lifestyle I want even though my brain is telling me something else

It would be me, and at the same time I am tormented by the fact of losing access to my preference, the thought of not being able to live a life keeps me depressed. And although I know that I would not act, I still have anxiety about ending up acting under an impulse, don't you feel that there is also a kind of pressure from society in that aspect? If you comment on what is happening to you, they would call you that you are in the closet or that you should experiment... Hey, I don't want to experience anything, thank you

Same! And then I’ll say to myself something like “are you seriously not going to try it if this is what you really want” so yikes

Yea me too. For me like, I get scared of the thought that i’ll have the urge to do something or if someone asked me what my orientation was, i’m scared i’ll say something i don’t want to say because of my ocd. Like Im just in my head so much everything feels awful. Recently i’ve been on dating apps and they ask for your orientation and I always put straight but because i’m so freaking scared that i’ll accidentally or impulsively put gay, I get so anxious and it’s like a never ending cycle. I have to always check 10000x that it’s not gay and then because i’m constantly checking, my ocd tells me it’s because I really wanna put that 😒 this just sucks man