- Username
- Cami16
- Date posted
- 5y ago
Literally. 100%. Same. I think the best thing to do is talk to your therapist and psychiatrist IMMEDIATELY about this, I think this is one of the worst OCD themes and it really makes everything harder because like, why try to get better if nothing matters in the end? I've been dealing with intrusive thoughts about this by just thinking "who knows whatll happen? not me!" and just letting myself sit in the anxiety every time it flares up. This one is definitely gonna change you more than the other themes. Embrace that change, embrace fear, and just remember that we have to enjoy the time we have
I know everyone thinks their particular theme is “the worst” and really, they’re all awful, but the existential/religious beliefs ocd has been the worst for me and the most difficult to deal with. I’m trying to do CBT/ERP for it, but it hasn’t helped very much. It seems so difficult because, while I can resist the compulsion to wash my hands and eventually my brain will learn that I don’t get sick, I can’t die a little bit so that I stop being afraid of dying. I’m not sure how to deal with this. The ache feels so, so heavy—so acute. But what helps me is that no one knows the answers, and that in my uncertainty, I am joining many other great minds who have come before me. We are small, but that doesn’t change what it feels like to hear the birds singing outside, or to eat pizza, or to laugh with those you love. My hope is that learning to treasure those things can help with the despair.
I think with the fear of death, that's natural, but its how the brain dwells on it like it's solvable or that its "good" or "bad." With ERP, have you watched any videos about death and dying and all that? That was my first exposure because I'm a glutton for punishment and it did help quite a bit. If you want a recommendation, Ask a Mortician on Youtube was a good source for me. I'm not glad this is something so many experience, but I am glad some of us can open up about it.
I’ve tried documentaries about the universe and time and stuff like that and it rlly helped. I watch a lot of murder docs too just because i love forensic science and they seem to keep me off of the topic for the most part. But i’ll try something like that!
Hey guys! Trigger warning because I don’t want anyone to read this and adopt a new intrusive thought! So I’ve been struggling recently with something that seems pretty unique, and I could really use any help I can get with this thought. Basically, a little while back, I all of a sudden had this thought that nothing matters, because at the end of the day, we are all going to die anyways. Since then, any time I start getting really excited or if I start feeling depressed about something, that intrusive thought pops into my head. It tells me that there’s no point in feeling anything deeply because it’s not a big deal and life is short. I know some people might say this is a good way to look at things that stress you out, but it’s really really starting to affect me in the realm of things that make me happy too. I’ll get excited to move in with my bf, and then this thought pops in intrusively and I immediately feel nothing now. I’m struggling to start my schoolwork that I was looking forward to doing well on because this way of thinking tells me it doesn’t even matter to finish my degree and be passionate about it, because I’m just going to die someday and this doesn’t matter. The things that made me excited before, now don’t simply because of this very thought. Not to be dramatic, but this one thought has changed my entire mindset and is literally changing my life. I really really really need help with this. It’s causing me not to feel like I used to, and I’m scared for how the rest of my life will feel now that I’ve adopted this intrusive thought.😢
Hey everyone, this is my first post here and I just have to get stuff off my chest. It started so randomly and so recently. I (21 m) came to accept my morality and my death at a fairly young age following watching 'UP' and my grandfather passed away. But a youtube video talking about a character struggle with their death as part of a character arc, that one line made my mind fall into a rabbit hole on death, what is death, what's after death, what's life, it's meaning, is there a God, what am I doing with my life, what do I want to do? And is it worthwhile? I felt like I like was slowly disconnecting from reality and that nothing was worth it. My interest like guitar, combat sports, pro wrestling and video games didn't bring me comfort. I've even have trouble eating, just two bites of a chicken sandwich felt like 30 bites. I've just keep thinking about my life and my inevitable death and I couldn't focus on anything else. I think it's because I feel like I'm at a war with my mind, people say life is to short and at the same time to not rush it. I am a Christian and I do believe in an after life of peace but I question what's real and what's not and I don't ever feel happy. Is anyone else going through what I'm feel I really need help.
I really need help. I’m suffering from existential ocd and I want to hear experience from those who are suffering from the same thing. I don’t feel real. I dont feel like I’m really here and if I am I dont really see the point in doing anything if I’m just going to die. I hate this feeling of feeling like I shouldn’t do anything at all because I’m gonna die and it’s gonna be erased anyway. I hate this. I cant stand this and I should be grateful for my life because there others that will never experience it. But it’s becoming dreadful and I feel like I’m going crazy. I feel sick. This feels worst than my other themes. I hate it so much.
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