It’s hard again

Hey, sorry you're struggling. I have found in my recovery journey that we really can't control when the doubts/uncertainty of our themes are going to pop up. I have found it helpful to not be surprised, have an attitude of "Oh, OK I'm noticing I'm having intrusive thoughts. That sucks, but I'm not going to engage with them even though I feel like I'm making a terrible mistake by ignoring them." I will do my best to take some deep breaths, remind myself of my values, then I go do some behavior that leads me towards my values. I was triggered this morning, I felt the "whoosh" of anxiety. It felt terrible, but I decided I would follow my values, offer support on here, do some work, and now I'm headed to the gym. It doesn't feel great, I feel like I may be making a mistake, but I am willing to take the risk to get over OCD and get my life back. Wishing you all the best.

Let it wreak havoc. See the thoughts as thoughts, because that’s all they are. Try not to give in to a compulsion that will make that thought go away for a little bit. Let it happen.