JamesMY
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- 2y
Harm OCD tricks
Anyone feel like you are meant to hurt/murder? Like your true identity is the bad guy and you're just struggling to keep him under wraps?
kw670kw670
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- 2y
That's the definition of Harm OCD. We must learn to get comfortable with the unknown and let the thoughts pass rather then trying to convince ourselves that it's not who we are. OCD wants you to ruminate on the topic rather then it just being a fleeting thought. Then the thought gets reinforced and OCD will continue to make you question it. We are here for you. You are a beautiful being. One Day At A Time
AverageJaneAverageJane
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- 2y
@kw670 May I ask is there something about yourself you do not like to possibly want you to act out violently? It also makes me think about that being a dominant trait to possibly protect yourself? I’m sorry, I’m just thinking out loud. I am truly sorry you are burdened with these thoughts. I hope this outlet helps you find some peace.
JamesMYJamesMY
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- 2y
@AverageJane - Personally I believe harm ocd is rooted in suppressed anger..I'd like to believe it's all a brain malfunction, but I believe in my case it has to do with anger.
kw670kw670
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- 2y
@AverageJane Nope! It's just OCD tring to convince me that I'm capable of that, due to family history, but I know otherwise. It's just that during flareups the thoughts are more frequent and intense. One Day At A Time!
AverageJaneAverageJane
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- 2y
@JamesMY That’s a very good idea. Suppressing could lead to unhealthy thoughts. Thank you for sharing with me.
AverageJaneAverageJane
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- 2y
@kw670 That’s right - one day at a time! I have a pretty rough family history and I will say with raising my kids I broke that cycle of many things. But my OCD intrusive thoughts worrying about my kids didn’t help 🫠😂❤️
AnonymousAnonymous
- User type
- OCD Conqueror
- Date posted
- 2y
YES which is so hard!! It makes me feel like I’m a monster underneath a mask of kindness, and really messes with my sense self worth. Honestly my ERP helped me a lot with it though, although it does still sometimes come back and try to pull these tricks again.
GreenRain01GreenRain01
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- 2y
Yes I am feeling this same way right now. Like I'm just keeping myself from doing it. Like I used to be terrified about these thoughts and now I feel like I'm not afraid of them and maybe I'm my identity is being an evil murderer. It really sucks because I loved who I was before 😢
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