JamesMY
- Date posted
- 1y ago
Harm OCD tricks
Anyone feel like you are meant to hurt/murder? Like your true identity is the bad guy and you're just struggling to keep him under wraps?
kw670kw670
- Date posted
- 1y ago
That's the definition of Harm OCD. We must learn to get comfortable with the unknown and let the thoughts pass rather then trying to convince ourselves that it's not who we are. OCD wants you to ruminate on the topic rather then it just being a fleeting thought. Then the thought gets reinforced and OCD will continue to make you question it. We are here for you. You are a beautiful being. One Day At A Time
AverageJaneAverageJane
- Date posted
- 1y ago
@kw670 May I ask is there something about yourself you do not like to possibly want you to act out violently? It also makes me think about that being a dominant trait to possibly protect yourself? I’m sorry, I’m just thinking out loud. I am truly sorry you are burdened with these thoughts. I hope this outlet helps you find some peace.
JamesMYJamesMY
- Date posted
- 1y ago
@AverageJane - Personally I believe harm ocd is rooted in suppressed anger..I'd like to believe it's all a brain malfunction, but I believe in my case it has to do with anger.
kw670kw670
- Date posted
- 1y ago
@AverageJane Nope! It's just OCD tring to convince me that I'm capable of that, due to family history, but I know otherwise. It's just that during flareups the thoughts are more frequent and intense. One Day At A Time!
AverageJaneAverageJane
- Date posted
- 1y ago
@JamesMY That’s a very good idea. Suppressing could lead to unhealthy thoughts. Thank you for sharing with me.
AverageJaneAverageJane
- Date posted
- 1y ago
@kw670 That’s right - one day at a time! I have a pretty rough family history and I will say with raising my kids I broke that cycle of many things. But my OCD intrusive thoughts worrying about my kids didn’t help 🫠😂❤️
AnonymousAnonymous
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- OCD Conqueror
- Date posted
- 1y ago
YES which is so hard!! It makes me feel like I’m a monster underneath a mask of kindness, and really messes with my sense self worth. Honestly my ERP helped me a lot with it though, although it does still sometimes come back and try to pull these tricks again.
GreenRain01GreenRain01
- Date posted
- 1y ago
Yes I am feeling this same way right now. Like I'm just keeping myself from doing it. Like I used to be terrified about these thoughts and now I feel like I'm not afraid of them and maybe I'm my identity is being an evil murderer. It really sucks because I loved who I was before 😢
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Does anyone ever mimic/imagine harm OCD thoughts?
Does anyone imagine they are doing their harm thoughts during an action, making you feel like you acted on your thoughts? For example, someone gave me a hug and at the last second I imagined I was touching something I shouldn’t during the hug? I want to make it clear it’s something I have zero desire to do! But the problem is, I thought it on purpose and it makes me sick !! Obviously nothing happened but my mind is telling me that was me trying to do it. Even though it was physically impossible to do. Am I a monster or could this be OCD? I’m freaking out and don’t want to be here anymore. I feel like I’m the exception and that this isn’t OCD. I know I post about this stuff a lot but I’m struggling and don’t know what to do.
Anonymous
- Date posted
- 11w ago
Questions
There are times my harm ocd has me convinced that my feelings of self harm or suicide and harm are real and that any moment I could commit the act on myself or my family. Is there anyone who can chime in on this. I feel like all the time I want to leave run away or avoid my family because of these thoughts. Like I shouldn’t be around my children and I don’t trust myself.
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