- Username
- JamesMY
- Date posted
- 1y ago
Harm OCD tricks
Anyone feel like you are meant to hurt/murder? Like your true identity is the bad guy and you're just struggling to keep him under wraps?
- Username
- kw670kw670
- Date posted
- 1y ago
That's the definition of Harm OCD. We must learn to get comfortable with the unknown and let the thoughts pass rather then trying to convince ourselves that it's not who we are. OCD wants you to ruminate on the topic rather then it just being a fleeting thought. Then the thought gets reinforced and OCD will continue to make you question it. We are here for you. You are a beautiful being. One Day At A Time
- Username
- AverageJaneAverageJane
- Date posted
- 1y ago
@kw670 May I ask is there something about yourself you do not like to possibly want you to act out violently? It also makes me think about that being a dominant trait to possibly protect yourself? I’m sorry, I’m just thinking out loud. I am truly sorry you are burdened with these thoughts. I hope this outlet helps you find some peace.
- Username
- JamesMYJamesMY
- Date posted
- 1y ago
@AverageJane - Personally I believe harm ocd is rooted in suppressed anger..I'd like to believe it's all a brain malfunction, but I believe in my case it has to do with anger.
- Username
- kw670kw670
- Date posted
- 1y ago
@AverageJane Nope! It's just OCD tring to convince me that I'm capable of that, due to family history, but I know otherwise. It's just that during flareups the thoughts are more frequent and intense. One Day At A Time!
- Username
- AverageJaneAverageJane
- Date posted
- 1y ago
@JamesMY That’s a very good idea. Suppressing could lead to unhealthy thoughts. Thank you for sharing with me.
- Username
- AverageJaneAverageJane
- Date posted
- 1y ago
@kw670 That’s right - one day at a time! I have a pretty rough family history and I will say with raising my kids I broke that cycle of many things. But my OCD intrusive thoughts worrying about my kids didn’t help 🫠😂❤️
- Username
- AnonymousAnonymous
- User type
- OCD Conqueror
- Date posted
- 1y ago
YES which is so hard!! It makes me feel like I’m a monster underneath a mask of kindness, and really messes with my sense self worth. Honestly my ERP helped me a lot with it though, although it does still sometimes come back and try to pull these tricks again.
- Username
- GreenRain01GreenRain01
- Date posted
- 1y ago
Yes I am feeling this same way right now. Like I'm just keeping myself from doing it. Like I used to be terrified about these thoughts and now I feel like I'm not afraid of them and maybe I'm my identity is being an evil murderer. It really sucks because I loved who I was before 😢
- Username
- JenniesOCDBrainJenniesOCDBrain
- Date posted
- 1y ago
hey there, i gotta say, that sounds incredibly heavy. it must be so challenging to feel trapped in a struggle with your own thoughts over your identity and intentions. even though my battles are more in the realm of pure o and don’t align with the same obsessions, the whole OCD thing is a rough ride that i get on a deep level. remember that we're all fighting our unique battles, but in this community, you’ve got ears that understand and are open to listen, always. i’ve actually been trying out this AI OCD therapy tool myself, and it's been quite impactful. basically, you jot down whatever is spinning up in your head, just like a journal entry, and the AI takes it from there, nudging you through the process with ERP tips and exercises — the kind of stuff an OCD therapist would walk you through in a session. it’s been helping me get a handle on things when they feel too much. since it's free, maybe give it a go? could be a solid support when you’re feeling stuck. stay strong. 🌟
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- Username
- BetterDays
- Date posted
- 3y ago
Does anyone especially with harm ocd feel like they are their thoughts and want to do these things? Like no matter how hard I try and even during my therapy session I get the constant, “what if this isn’t OCD?”, “you like these thoughts”, “your a bad person”, “your going to act on these thoughts.” It gotten to the point where it feels like I’m actually this person and that I have changed into an evil person and it’s so scary cause it’s gotten to the point where it feels like I’m never going to get my life back and that’s saddening. I’ve never had a violent history never hurt anyone or anything but I don’t know why it feels like I am.
- Username
- Thanks for t...
- Date posted
- 1y ago
Harm OCD
Is anyone else scared to not fight their intrusive thoughts about seriously hurting people and even killing them? Like the premise of ERP is to just let the thoughts flow and not do compulsions, but I’m scared if I don’t stop them or ruminate to keep them in check, then they will get out of hand and I will suddenly want to act on them. I’m terrified that suddenly I won’t be the kind, empathetic, harmless person I’ve always been. It doesn’t make any sense to me. I also fear that it’s not OCD and I’ve just been faking it or trying to convince myself that it is OCD.
- Username
- kyles
- Date posted
- 1y ago
Harm OCD?
Yesterday I was sitting on my couch with my son enjoying time and suddenly my mind goes “what if you just killed him right now” and then I was going back and forth in my mind just do it, you don’t want to do it, what if you do, what would happen…..obviously I have control and didn’t do it but my fingers got all tingly I really was very upset by how real the urge felt. I’ve tried all my coping skills but I feel like a crazy person and can’t stop thinking about it. Any tips?
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