- Username
- ocdumbass
- Date posted
- 5y ago
I wouldn't believe everything that people say on the internet. I've seen people post stupid things said on support blogs related to OCD before which have triggered me.
That reminds me when I was on Twitter and I came across a MAP account who claimed to have POCD as well. And that makes no lick of sense whatsoever because the two are completely contradictory to each other. It’s very possible that a lot of MAPs are trying to gain sympathy by manipulating POCD folk into thinking they’re the same. Which is absolutely awful if that’s the case but my advice is to simply stay away from those people regardless.
oooh yeah that makes sense!! im sorry if that was triggering for you (i should've put a warning) but you're completely right. it does sound like something that's mostly speculation, and its almost definitely the ocd that's what's preventing me from taking it as such. thanks for responding!
Also I can’t help but mention this but Tumblr is honestly just one of the worst places to be on when it comes to mental health advice. Most people on there are teens and young adults who don’t know squat about these things and just place themselves on these impossible moral high standards (kind of like what OCD people do ironically enough). When I had Harm OCD I came across a post on Tumblr saying it’s okay if you have violent thoughts because that doesn’t mean you will actually act on those thoughts. But then someone replied and said that actually if you have those thoughts vey often that can mean you’re potentially dangerous and need to seek help. This obviously triggered me immensely and made me believe that my violent intrusive thoughts were going to come true. My point here is, a lot of folk don’t seem to understand how the brain even works and instead people just react with fear and make assumptions. Tumblr has been the hotspot for this so my advice is that you should find more supportive and positive environments for OCD advice. OCD forums and OCD support groups are especially helpful (just make sure you don’t fall into the trap of seeking reassurance from those places lol). When you meet people who actually have recovered from OCD you can learn what’s actually helpful and what isn’t.
ooh thanks for the advice! ive been looking out for some support groups irl too!
Weird maybe they didn’t see it was OCD and thought that it was them?
this is the post i was on about. im still confused by it and now also paranoid that im convincing myself the subject of my thoughts are okay when i do erp. why's this stuff gotta be so confusing https://you-are-not-a-map.tumblr.com/post/178026920937/how-can-i-make-sure-that-its-just-pocd-i-know
Okay so I read the post. Was kinda triggering for myself but again, based on what that person wrote they seem to have A LOT of speculation. They say they read that someone with POCD was somehow groomed by a MAP and somehow turned into a pedophile because of it. For all we know, this story might be completely false or twisted. Even if it is true, to me it just sounds like typical Tumblrinas creating a lot of paranoia by taking one supposed story from the internet that may not even be completely true and blowing it waaayyy out of proportion. It’s very typical for OCD folk to feel like they are “agreeing” with the thoughts. And then that further creates more anxiety. But at the end of the day, this really doesn’t prove anything other than that you’re simply ruminating and freaking out over any thought that you find unacceptable. So honestly, what this Tumblr user was writing was just creating more harm. Now people reading that post are just going to end up freaking out thinking that with enough time, having these thoughts might actually turn you into a pedophile. You should simply take what they said with a grain of salt, because honestly that Tumblr user sounds like they’re a bit paranoid themself.
No worries! No need to be sorry about the trigger. Being triggered by these things is actually good ERP practice, as long as we don’t do any compulsions to relieve the anxiety lol.
**tw; mentions of pocd and harm ocd** Sorry in advance for the long post. I feel as if I should address pocd, because talking about it to people who understand seems to help me a lot. I’ve always had OCD, however, I didn’t get this particular theme until I was 17 (I’m 19 now) and a senior in high school. Pedophilia was briefly mentioned in my psych course, and my brain went absolutely nuts telling me “what if I’m capable of being that.” Similar things have happened in my past; OCD tricked me into believing I was a murderer when I was around 7 because of crime segments on the news, and OCD later tricked me into thinking I could be a serial killer, but pocd arguably is the worst theme to have and all of you that have it are literally the strongest people alive. On top of that, I’ve only ever been attracted to older adults, yet this theme still persists. I just want to go back to the version of me that I was before I got this theme. If I had a do over in life I would have never taken that course, it straight up ruined my life. I will literally take any other theme over pocd at this point honestly. Thank you for reading if you’ve gotten this far, you’re a very patient person lmao bless.
POCD TRIGGER Years ago I once read someone’s post on another website who had looked up child pornography because their intrusive thoughts were getting them so much that they just figured that they were that way inclined. And they said that they pleasured themselves to this and then felt horrible and sick and guilty. I felt sorry for this person as they were clearly suffering from OCD and were not a pedophile. For some reason, this has entered my head today as I already have the fear of police scanning what I write on here and coming for me with them getting the wrong idea of me. Then I think the police would of definitely have went for that person as seeing that on their search list on their computer ID etc. Then came the fear of ‘what if I have done that and searched for that’. But that’s something you would know if you had done I’m telling myself.
Hey so I’m an 18 year old college student I’ve had ocd for a long time but I never wanted to admit this aspect of it as part of it and I still don’t. That’s why I won’t say it cause I’ll just end up crying again. I don’t even want to post about it cause this would just make the problem real. I know I’m not sexually attracted to them but my mind wants to trick me and I end up getting confused on which is rlly me, like the other aspects of my ocd. It spiked ig when someone sent me a meme and it was fine but at the end of it it showed a child being shown in a sexual way which was suppose to I guess be funny but it wasn’t rlly funny to me at all and got uncomfortable and the pocd thoughts came in hard and I had such a bad panic attack and then I felt the need to go back and check to see what I was feeling and went to the video the next day after avoiding it to see which after reading the threads here is I guess a big no no? I know I’m not sexually attracted but my mind is playing these games and confuses me and I’m so scared to even talk to my therapist about it or ask people for help cause what if they think I’m a pedophile? Children genuinely make me happy and I have a motherly instinct to care for them but my mind turns it into something darker and I know I don’t think of these kids sexually but it’s like I have the power to?And that freaks me out so much and it won’t leave me alone I don’t know what to do I know I’m not one but my mind is tricking me and it’s freaking me out and if my mind says it could be what if other people think I am no one I trust will even understand idk what to do I just needed to put this somewhere to vent
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