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Hiding in the bathroom at work cause I needed to let it out. None of this is ok. Can POCD be mistaken for actual pedophilia? I don’t want to keep doing this I really don’t like living right now.
Hiding in the bathroom at work cause I needed to let it out. None of this is ok. Can POCD be mistaken for actual pedophilia? I don’t want to keep doing this I really don’t like living right now.
If you are AFRAID of the pedophilia, then that means it’s OCD! OCD comes at you with what you don’t want. And if you don’t want it then you’re not actually IT. It will get better!
@TurdFerguson3220 I have no idea if that’s the case anymore. I of course don’t want it but it won’t STOP showing up in my head idk wtf to do anymore except think the worst. I wasn’t always like this but I don’t think that matters anymore.
Repeat the thought out loud to yourself until it loses its luster. It will over time. I know that at least works for me when I’m struggling with my own personal obsessive thoughts. Hope you feel better. Stick with it and you will
Are you engaging in pedophilia now? Are you plotting to engage? If the answers are no, you are probably experiencing one of the most common OCD themes: POCD. This is treatable, but you need to work with a trained OCD therapist who uses ERP therapy. If you don't have one, you can find a good one through NOCD. Their consultations are free and they have contracts with a lot of the leading insurance companies. Hope this helps.
Please keep living. It does get better.
@Anonymous I’ve been dealing with this shit for the last year. What life is there to live when my mind keeps going to places it shouldn’t?
My pocd actually started cause of I accidentally read a cp manga and I didn’t have any special reaction while reading it. And got loads of false memories surrounding it. Now each time I see a child or literally anything I’m TERRIFIED that I somehow see cp and will enjoy it. Idk I wanna crawl under a rock and live there forever. Life is too much :/
I told a few people on social media about my OCD, including POCD and how distressing it is. But everyone went quiet, then a few hours later I posted that I don’t support pedophilia at all neither do I justify it or am a pedo. Then someone replied with: “I think someone might take it bc u have such an obsessive fear of it u might have actual p3 do philic tendencies” I can’t do this anymore, I’m terrified to spiral again like a few months ago but I’m on the brink of doing it again. I’m shaking and stressing tf out I hate this so so so so so much
Im only 20 and Ive been crying. I am not diagnosed with OCD yet but it lines up. I'm so scared its not, these physical sensations and urges are so horrible and I just wanna hide myself from this earth. It feels so real. I'd rather not feel any arousal than experience it, no matter if its something I like or not. I want to be free from this hell.
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