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If you are AFRAID of the pedophilia, then that means it’s OCD! OCD comes at you with what you don’t want. And if you don’t want it then you’re not actually IT. It will get better!

Repeat the thought out loud to yourself until it loses its luster. It will over time. I know that at least works for me when I’m struggling with my own personal obsessive thoughts. Hope you feel better. Stick with it and you will

Are you engaging in pedophilia now? Are you plotting to engage? If the answers are no, you are probably experiencing one of the most common OCD themes: POCD. This is treatable, but you need to work with a trained OCD therapist who uses ERP therapy. If you don't have one, you can find a good one through NOCD. Their consultations are free and they have contracts with a lot of the leading insurance companies. Hope this helps.

Please keep living. It does get better.