- User type
- OCD Conqueror
- Date posted
- 1y
Why is this bothering me so much?
Yesterday was my birthday. My mom didn't call me on my birthday. When do you outgrow this type of hurt?
Yesterday was my birthday. My mom didn't call me on my birthday. When do you outgrow this type of hurt?
happy belated birthday ! Talk to her about it . That would hurt ANYBODY trust me ! i’m so sorry about that , but try to have a conversation with her about it :) no matter how it goes , you can at least feel confident in the fact that you tried and got it off your chest
Happy belated birthday! That would hurt me too. I agree wirh LifeIsBeautiful, talk to her about it. I dont believe this has anything remotely to do with rumination or impulsive thinking. I am sorry that it hurts you so much!
Happy belated birthday btw
Aw I’m sorry about that. Have you talked to her about it?
Thank you all for the kind words and reminders. Typical OCD, hyper focus and over reacting... Glad to be a part of this community here where we can support each other in our daily journey. :-)
Everyday I wake up, all my mind makes me think of is the stuff I’ve done in the past, like all day I’m in a constant cycle of judging who I used to be and it hurts so so much. I wish I never thought to do those things, I wish I had been more mature than how I was before, it’s really lowering my self worth and I don’t think I’ve ever felt this miserable before, like last summer was the worst because I was dealing with this shit, I about almost ended my life over it, and I thought it would get better, which it did, but it didn’t last but for a while. As soon as it became 2025 I was going through it again, having constant cycles of “I’m a good person” to “I’m the worst person imaginable” and I’m so sick of it because I just want to feel like the good person l like to imagine myself to be, but I can’t because of shit I did in the past that I obsess over. I’ve cried and screamed so much over it and it seems like it will never leave me.
Does anyone deal with rumination with their childhood past mistakes. Deep down I know I didn’t know any better but then I start having thoughts and it gets worse after that. I also recently have dealt with death in the family, started my period, started college and just moved to my own apartment this last month. :-/ I genuinely just wish I could let go of my past I feel like I could be a better person for myself mentally if I could just let it go.
So I was at a family thing yesterday and my ice was bothering me and I kept washing my hands and my family noticed and started making fun of me for it and it was like non stop it made me feel really alone especially since they clearly know something’s up but they just make it worse instead of at least trying to help😕
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