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I miss being young
I’m turning 20 this year. I feel like I have so much limited time of being “young” which I never thought about before this. Growing up is so hard and I don’t know if it’s turning into ocd or not
I’m turning 20 this year. I feel like I have so much limited time of being “young” which I never thought about before this. Growing up is so hard and I don’t know if it’s turning into ocd or not
I am turning 19. You gotta think about all the opportunities you have now. Your life is just beginning!
I’m turning 29 and I feel like I’m still living life for the first time. You are young, 20s are long and you’ll be surprised how much happens. You’re young and have so much ahead of you! But I do relate, as I’m entering my 30s soon the idea of aging is scary, but we can do hard things!
Honestly man? Enjoy being 20. Don't think about the future and just have fun. Don't waste a minute of it. I'm 27 and there's so much I wish I could change. Tbh OCD wasted a lot of my youth and energy. Only now am I getting stuff together. In 5 years time you'll still be in your 20's. 8 years you'll still be in your 20's. A person is as young as they want to be. There's 20 year olds who look 40 because mentally they believe they are 40. Convince yourself of your youth and enjoy it because there will be a day where you're 40 wishing you would've enjoyed being 20. Trust me dude you have lots of time.
I have no idea anymore. I guess this all started with me worrying about whether I was gay, then whether I was a P, then worried about being just attracted to teenagers. After that I started freaking out about not feeling “grown up” enough. Like “I’m an adult wtf is wrong with me for seeing someone who is probably younger and thinking they’re physically attractive. Then I started overthinking not finding older adults (like 30 or 40) very attractive. Like ofc I’m probably not gonna find them attractive, they’re not anywhere close my age. Maybe the desires are half real. Maybe as a 21 yr old young adult I do find older teenagers (16+) somewhat physically attractive. I still think it’d be weird to date one. Maybe that’s the normal reaction I’m supposed to have. If not, please let me know. I just don’t wanna do anything illegal one day and I’m super scared I will. I can’t tell if the fear is my just being afraid of the law though, in which case I might actually just be a bad person. I hate that my brain is just rationalizing thoughts now. I feel like I can’t do the ERP thing of “just accept that the thoughts are there but don’t engage.” Like what? How can I just think a thought that might be so integral to my identity and just ignore it? If it’s all true and I don’t like people my age anymore then I have to know and plan around that, that could change my entire life. I’m rambling, my b.
I have recently been having new feelings of anxiety and obsessive thoughts about how time fast is moving. I saw an old picture and was like “wow that felt like yesturday” and then began to think about how it was actually 2 years ago. Now I’m in this loop of thinking about and being anxious about how fast it is moving. Anyone have any ERP suggestions for this or how to deal with it? I’m trying to crush this thought with ERP as fast I can, as it is a new theme for me. Is this considered existential ocd? I know themes can switch, but just am kind of shocked at this as I used to be able to not care about this topic and right now it seems like such a big deal.
Tw for people with pocd maybe I'm so tired of eighteen years old being consider adults or whatever i don't want to be an adult I'm fifteen I don't want to be fifteen leave me alone I want to be fourteen forever fifteen is too much I want to be fourteen I don't want to be fifteen,I never want to be an adult I want to be a child why can't I stay 13/14 forever I turned 15 19 days ago and I can't get over it leave me alone I don't want to be an adult,why do people consider 18 years olds adults when they're still in highschool and if 17 years olds are consider teens then why 18 years olds aren't when it's eightTEEN and neunTEEN,i literally saw a video of an 19 year old with an 33 year old man like it's a teen stop,and I saw a girl who's 2010 just like me say "stop treating us like kids we will be adults in 3 years" like eighteen is still so young please stop,i feel like a child,I don't feel like I will be an adult in 3 years why is 18 even consider an adult when you're still in highschool and brain develops to 25 just leave me alone please Can any adult 20+ tell me how it's like being an adult like the way you think and the way you see things? sorry for any grammar mistakes I was frustrated and English isn't mine first language
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