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Scared to stop compulsions
Anyone else scared to stop compulsions incase the thoughts come true? This is why I’m reluctant to do ERP 🙈!
Anyone else scared to stop compulsions incase the thoughts come true? This is why I’m reluctant to do ERP 🙈!
I’m not wanting to do erp is that normal
@Cloth Think it’s a common fear for a lot of us x
That’s like the most basic OCD fear I think everyone has that, realistically compulsions don’t save you from shit you just think they do
Compulsions are safety behaviours that are meant to ‘protect’ us from any threat or harm. Ofc it’s going to be difficult to stop bc your brain will do anything to keep you away from danger. But remind yourself that you can do hard things and will get through it!
i don’t think i can, i can’t stomach the possibility of these things, or maybe i can (because they might be true and deep down i know that) and just don’t want to and want to pretend it isn’t there. i can’t do ERP, i just want to pretend it isnt there and won’t happen to clarify, i know i have to do ERP, i know it’s necessary; i don’t need to be told this, this is just how i am feeling currently
I’ve noticed that I’m somewhat happier also ignoring my thoughts than I am instead of doing compulsions (I’m sick and tired of being sick and tired atp) but I’ve heard you’re technically supposed to do erp rather than pushing under the rug. But idk if I have a thought I just refuse to think about it again and im fine even if I want to do compulsions
Does anyone else struggle with this? It's been the main thing powering my POCD, and it's only been getting worse. Especially when I see posts online of people sharing their personal stories relating to CSA, specifically grooming. It's so triggering now, but before this theme developed, the most I'd feel while reading posts like that would be disgust targeted towards people who did those things. Now, my first thought is, "What if I do something like that one day? What if I've done it before and I don't remember or didn't know I was doing it?" I have many, many different intrusive thoughts or worries related to this theme, but it all circles back to this specific fear that I'll become like the people who hurt and took advantage of me. Does anyone have advice for this? I'm not sure if I've asked a similar question in the past or not, but is this something I need to deal with separately before beginning ERP for OCD? I'm just curious and also lost on where to begin with all of this. I'm just glad I'm able to begin working through all of these issues now, rather than later in life when I'd probably have a lot more responsibilities. Anyways, any feedback is appreciated! 🤍
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