- Date posted
- 1y
Scared to stop compulsions
Anyone else scared to stop compulsions incase the thoughts come true? This is why I’m reluctant to do ERP 🙈!
Anyone else scared to stop compulsions incase the thoughts come true? This is why I’m reluctant to do ERP 🙈!
I’m not wanting to do erp is that normal
@Cloth Think it’s a common fear for a lot of us x
That’s like the most basic OCD fear I think everyone has that, realistically compulsions don’t save you from shit you just think they do
Compulsions are safety behaviours that are meant to ‘protect’ us from any threat or harm. Ofc it’s going to be difficult to stop bc your brain will do anything to keep you away from danger. But remind yourself that you can do hard things and will get through it!
I did some gross compulsions, i do them because i think that if i do them i get rid of thoughts ( cause i don’t want them) that’s why I do compulsions but people do them to check am I a p? I’m terrified I can’t do it. What if im different I don’t think I heard about someone that did compulsions to get rid of thoughts that’s why but to check omg im terrified
No matter what task I’m doing. If I have an intrusive thought I have to redo the task or just just completely move on to something else. I’m Christian and I struggle with scrupulosity. I feel like I have to repeat task to keep everyone safe. I’m tired of this. I know ERP is the key and I have to stand up to the thoughts but they are just so scary. I know God is with me and I’m suppose to have faith but again I’m just so scared. I can’t even fully go into detail about my theme because I don’t want to type it out. I’m in therapy and I’m told to lean into the discomfort but it just seems like an impossible thing for me to do.
I can’t come to terms with script writing my worst fears coming true. Especially when they are in relation to harm. Those thoughts attack my son and those that I hold the closet to my heart. It honestly makes my anxiety so bad just thinking about it. Or going along with a thought like “Oh yeah I’m totally going to do that”. It just in turn makes me feel like I’m agreeing with the thought. I’m having so much conflicting feelings/thoughts in terms of ERP at this point.
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