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- birdlady
- Date posted
- 5y ago
It depends on what your obsession/compulsions are. If you have a germ OCD you may touch a toilet seat and not wash your hands. If your scared of murdering someone you might watch a movie about a serial killer. Stuff like that
What if someone has schizophrenia ocd then ?
I have fears setting my house on fire. I had bought a new extension cord with multiple outlets (surge protector). The on/off switch has an orange light indicator, which from a distance in the dark, looks like a lit cigarette. I caught this sight as I was leaving to go to work. I could not leave because I started to freak out. I actually believed that it could be a lit cigarette even though I live alone and don't smoke and could see with my own eyes it was just the light indicator. I battled with this notion for less than 5 min before I decided to give in and unplugged the cord to make it easier for me to leave. In the car, I realized that it was another OCD trick. Like, what a minute! I don't smoke! WHAT!?! I should've caught it sooner and just left it plugged in. Oh well! The next day, I stared down the extension cord. Oh boy, here we go again! I remembered feeling very uncertain about leaving it plugged it and being away from home to go to work. Again, I struggled, began to check other things that were low in my hierarchy list. Finally left the house to go to work. To this day, the cord is still plugged in, and I don't even think about it anymore. I have even forgotten the day when I stopped being anxious about it. Even if you sucked at doing an exposure, you must always be game for it and try again. Game-face on, as a therapist once suggested to me. Do you watch hockey? I always empathize with the goal tenders, especially when they let the bad goals go in. When they let a bad goal go in, they skate around their net, take a swig from their water bottle, and shake it off. Then they are back in the net, ready to face the next shot. God knows what goes through their minds during these times. I learned that it takes courage and resilience not to give into the opponent. We all can learn from mistakes!
I wish I could easily dismiss an intrusive thought as I do with spam mail. It's so hard for me. I find if I start rationalizing or arguing with the OCD, it gets worse. So, yesterday, I pretended I was a mother talking to a young toddler. The toddler wants me to go back and back again to check the stove. She is crying and acting hysterical, convinced something terrible will happen if I don't check it her way - the OCD way. I tell her softly and gently, "I'm so sorry, but I don't see what you want me to see. There's nothing wrong here. Now, it's time to leave." The child goes on to say I will lose everything if I don't go back to check. I try not to answer the question if the stove is on/off. I pay attention only to the loud ticking from the clock in the kitchen, which reminds me of how much time I'm wasting standing here. It helps too, to say outloud, "I know what's happening NOW. I GOT THIS. I've been through this before." I turn my back to the stove. Okay, good job. Deep breath. Close the light. Good job. Deep breath. Step out of the kitchen. No thinking. Whew, I did it. Don't forget to take a deep breath. Anyway, that is what it's like for me doing exposures alone. The more a person performs rituals, the more deeply it becomes ingrained in her/his brain.
Anyone out there have tips on doing exposures alone?
How do you do ERP? I'm not asking generally, but rather how do you, the person reading this, do ERP? I'm at the point where I'm trying to work out how to do ERP for myself (largely self-directed as I don't see my psychologist more than once every few weeks), and I'm trying to get an idea of what it looks like on a practical level. Do you try and do ERP every day? Multiple times a day? How long do you spend on each exposure/session? Do you do ERP at the same time every day, or do you change it up? What do you do after you've done an exposure, do you do any self-care once the exposure is finished? I see things online saying that it can take upwards of an hour for distress to decrease when doing an exposure, and I'm wondering what are you allowed to do during that time? If the goal of ERP is to sit with the distress, do you literally just sit there for an hour doing nothing until the anxiety goes down? That's a long time to sit doing nothing but feel anxious, especially if the goal is to do this every day. Right now I'm struggling with implementing ERP into my routine. I currently do ERP sporadically, and not on any kind of schedule. I'm struggling to find exposures that distress me sufficiently, and when I do find something I'll still find myself feeling anxious hours later even after I thought I'd acclimatized. I'd really appreciate hearing from other people so that I can get an idea of what good ERP looks like in practice.
Hi community, so I have a question. I’m treating OCD by myself, and I’m currently don’t giving my thoughts an importance that they don’t deserve while focusing on the present and avoiding compulssions. But when it comes to the term “exposures” by itself, does that means that I have to look for a quiet place and sit with my anxiety until is gone?, or an exposure can be done just by walking in the street and just making fun of my thoughts. Or are both different but useful techniches?
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