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Hi everyone. I'm wondering if anyone has any tips for dealing with religious OCD. I'm a Christian and I struggle with Harm OCD but then somehow, my religious beliefs got mixed into this where I am suddenly asking all these questions on whether God/Jesus is even good. And as a result, I feel so distant from my faith which makes dealing with my harm OCD so much harder 😢 Any advice would be appreciated.

Hello, This is my first community post and I would like to know if anyone else struggles with Religious OCD themes, I'm a Christian but please share any perspective you have. - What do your thoughts look like? - How do you know they are related to OCD? For me it's becoming a constant, 24/7 cycle and it's very draining. I want to find some kind of peace between my thoughts and God so I recently started NOCD therapy again. I'm not totally sure how this all works (treatment, OCD diagnosis, etc.). But if anything I want to know that I am not alone with Religious OCD. Thank you

I get the constant wave of sadness that ocd has taken my life from me. I can't share my thoughts and they don't feel like mine. I have episodes where I think God must hate me or see some secret sin in me that I don't see, or else I really really am missing when the holy spirit is saying to me. I want to be free so so deeply and have a normal, independent and fruitful life but God is not answering me. Why do I have these thoughts? Are they spiritual or just my mind? If anyone with Religious ocd can help or share how they navigate a true relationship with Christ while having ocd, I would really appreciate it. For context, I've had dozens of people pray over me and I've literally screamed like a child for God to give the answer, I had faith-based ocd even before i understood the gospel or personally knew Jesus. I want to live with eternity in mind and be free from these things so so much. Thank you!