- Username
- Chris85Floki
- Date posted
- 51w ago
Nothing ever gets better
Had enough, it’s just one worry after another other how do I stop the constant worry’s in my mind. I just want to be happy and free
Had enough, it’s just one worry after another other how do I stop the constant worry’s in my mind. I just want to be happy and free
You and me both.
@Malisimo There has to be something we are doing wrong I’m 38 now I’ve spent all my life like this don’t want to spend the next 30 years or so doing the same thing
@Chris85Floki If I can add something here, I had untreated OCD for 35+ years (I’m 64 now🫤). I thought recovery would mean no worries, no worried feelings, fear, etc. it doesn’t work that way. I consider myself recovered, my life is so much better, bigger, more exciting and fulfilling than I ever dreamed possible. However, everyday I make the choice how I’m going to respond to my thoughts. Some days are better than others, thoughts, emotions, urges come, but what I’ve learned is non-engagement, following my values, gives me clarity, the intrusive thoughts quickly pass.
@Chris85Floki I ask this question everyday, what am I doing wrong. I’ve been through a ton of therapy and it sorta works. Unfortunately pure o just seems like endless work to overcome. It’s like you have to become unafraid of anything to beat it.
@VGH Hi, what would your number 1 tip be for me to do right now
Something that made a difference in my recovery-having a “bring it on attitude”. Instead of being upset every time another worry popped up (I get it, OCD is relentless) I practiced an attitude of “nope, not going there!” I worked very hard on deciding how I would spend my time, since I was going to do my best to stop “worrying” (directing my attention to what I feared might happen). Whenever an intrusive thought popped in my head, I practiced this attitude of “not this time” and redirected to my values. It takes time and practice, but you can do it❤️
@VGH I’ve tried that but after a week I get so tired and weak of keeping on top of it :(
@Chris85Floki I’m sorry, but I guess what I’m trying to say is keep fighting for your recovery, explore the resources here at NOCD. Also the IOCDF has some wonderful resources. Your life is worth the effort, it truly can get better.
I’m 36 and I feel the same way. I thought by now I would be past this but it’s only gotten worse as I’ve gotten older.
Is there any point in trying anymore? There is no way to get the help I need, and even if I could, what if I learn it was never ocd in the first place? What do i do then? Everything feels so hopeless, all i want is to go bavk in time to before these thoughts started. This app is all I have to talk about how I feel. I always had OCD symptoms of varying themes as well as a terrible anxiety disorder that only worsened, but I could've never imagined I would feel like this. If a Hell exists, im certain I'm going there
i’ve made posts in the past regarding the same struggles and i haven’t found any relief. school has started and im managing my grades well enough; but im miserable, suffocating on my thoughts day in and day out with no one to turn to and nothing to numb the pain. my ocd is been preventing me from sleeping and i cant stop the thoughts. i’ve been on medications and tried different types of therapies but i feel so stuck. time is just dragging me along for the ride but i cant stop thinking about everything bad that has ever happened to me. i cant stop the intrusive thoughts. my fingers are raw from the compulsions and i genuinely dont know what to do anymore. i have no one and nothing; does anyone have any advice to dig yourself out of quicksand? how to return to the person you used to be and leave all of the struggles behind? to even get over it all?
They’re getting more intense.. My mind wonders if what i’m feeling is really OCD.. what if it’s not and i’m in denial? Why is my life like this, a constant loop of fears and stress holding me back. I just want to live. To be the kind boy everyone knows. To make and be a difference. There’s sometimes I wish I could stay asleep.. to rest for a while. To hibernate all these feelings away. But I know that’s not how it works. Each tear I shed is a reminder of the hell I live every day when I open my eyes. I don’t know who I am anymore. I don’t know why I am anymore. Please someone.. advice, words of positivity, something.. I feel so alone. I’m scared. I don’t know where else to go.
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