Chris85Floki
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- 1y
Nothing ever gets better
Had enough, it’s just one worry after another other how do I stop the constant worry’s in my mind. I just want to be happy and free
MalisimoMalisimo
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- 1y
You and me both.
Chris85FlokiChris85Floki
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- 1y
@Malisimo There has to be something we are doing wrong I’m 38 now I’ve spent all my life like this don’t want to spend the next 30 years or so doing the same thing
VGHVGH
- User type
- OCD Conqueror
- Date posted
- 1y
@Chris85Floki If I can add something here, I had untreated OCD for 35+ years (I’m 64 now🫤). I thought recovery would mean no worries, no worried feelings, fear, etc. it doesn’t work that way. I consider myself recovered, my life is so much better, bigger, more exciting and fulfilling than I ever dreamed possible. However, everyday I make the choice how I’m going to respond to my thoughts. Some days are better than others, thoughts, emotions, urges come, but what I’ve learned is non-engagement, following my values, gives me clarity, the intrusive thoughts quickly pass.
MalisimoMalisimo
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- 1y
@Chris85Floki I ask this question everyday, what am I doing wrong. I’ve been through a ton of therapy and it sorta works. Unfortunately pure o just seems like endless work to overcome. It’s like you have to become unafraid of anything to beat it.
Chris85FlokiChris85Floki
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- 1y
@VGH Hi, what would your number 1 tip be for me to do right now
VGHVGH
- User type
- OCD Conqueror
- Date posted
- 1y
Something that made a difference in my recovery-having a “bring it on attitude”. Instead of being upset every time another worry popped up (I get it, OCD is relentless) I practiced an attitude of “nope, not going there!” I worked very hard on deciding how I would spend my time, since I was going to do my best to stop “worrying” (directing my attention to what I feared might happen). Whenever an intrusive thought popped in my head, I practiced this attitude of “not this time” and redirected to my values. It takes time and practice, but you can do it❤️
Chris85FlokiChris85Floki
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- 1y
@VGH I’ve tried that but after a week I get so tired and weak of keeping on top of it :(
VGHVGH
- User type
- OCD Conqueror
- Date posted
- 1y
@Chris85Floki I’m sorry, but I guess what I’m trying to say is keep fighting for your recovery, explore the resources here at NOCD. Also the IOCDF has some wonderful resources. Your life is worth the effort, it truly can get better.
Catlove9Catlove9
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- 1y
I’m 36 and I feel the same way. I thought by now I would be past this but it’s only gotten worse as I’ve gotten older.
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- 23w
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- 22w
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- 22w
I’m so tired I just wanna be free
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