Am I a pedophile in denial due to my OCD fears and past experiences?

pocd

still always scared and worried that deep down im a p, that the signs have “been there” (signs being weird stuff i watched as a kid and also me being very touchy with other kids as a child). my pocd spiked when me and my best friend found out her ex is an actual p. i just hate this i don’t even trust myself and the groinal responses are unbearable. i really don’t like this im scared im gonna die alone. me and my friend were having a convo abt ped0s yesterday due to her ex and i know a lot about them bc i researched about them because of my ocd but now im scared she thinks im a p or im just a p in denial who just covers it up with ocd. as im writing this im getting really bad groinal responses and i don’t know why. i use to be fine and got better with my pocd why is it back and 10x worse

Username: @sophiaevidal@sophiaevidal

Date posted: 37w ago

You do have OCD though because you are disturbed by these thoughts. Ps are not, they are intrigued and want to act on them. You being disturbed by these thoughts are a good thing because it means you are a good person. I think too you should reach out to a therapist or a psychiatrist to help also.

Username: @sophiaevidal@sophiaevidal

Date posted: 37w ago

Also google said that Groinal response can happen when one is in a heightened state of anxiety, feeling joy, feeling pain, or excitement. We call these high arousal emotions. Simply put, a groinal response is not always an indicator of arousal.

Username: @sophiaevidal@sophiaevidal

Date posted: 37w ago

So it is just anxiety.

Username: AnonymousAnonymous

Date posted: 37w ago

I struggle with this too. It is by far the worst theme I’ve experienced. I’m so sorry you have to deal with this-it’s really not fair. But something I gave to tell myself (although truthfully I’m not always able to believe it) is that the very fact you’re bothered by the thoughts mean they’re not coming from you, the core of who you are or your desires. You’re not alone <3 you won’t be alone forever. There will be better days. You will find yourself again .

Username: co653co653

Date posted: 37w ago

thank you all for your comments, we will get through ocd :) it makes me feel better knowing you guys relate in some way. 🩷

Username: iamtryingmybest

Date posted: 45w ago

i need help with pocd (pure o)

hey its been a while since ive last been on this app. tbh my health ocd has gotten a lot better since the last few posts (yay to that!!) but ive been struggling soo much with pocd. i used to struggle w/ intrusive, obsessive thoughts like these before but they werent common and they were bearable. not anymore apparently. im so scared and disgusted at even the idea of having these thoughts, i know i would never actually do something to anyone but i keep on ruminating and its been taking me into mental crisis. anyone that could help? ive been off therapy for 2 months so im thinking that maybe that caused the obsessions to get worse but idrk im 17, about to turn 18 this year. i feel gross

Username: co653

Date posted: 34w ago

pocd help

why do i feel like i am a p? everytime i am around my friends i get this sense of dread and that im a fraud and im fooling the people around me. ive always felt like i didn’t fit in and now im scared its bc i am a p. these intrusive thoughts and groinal responses feel so real. im scared and sad and I wanna cry. I’m on a trip and I just feel like sht and I can’t even focus on the conversation with my friends.

Username: co653

Date posted: 30w ago

pocd

everytime i see a kid or hear any words related to children i get immediate intrusive thoughts and terrible groinal responses :( the sensations feel so real. i have no anxiety anymore its been like this for a while i use to have terrible anxiety with my ocd but now its just shame and worry:( and sadness/dread. i hate this. my brain literally tells me im a p, and i believe it, it sounds and feels so real :(

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