I’ve just spent the past 30minutes researching does God watch us have sex, read our minds and know our sexual thoughts. :( I don’t want him to but clearly he does. I feel so embarrassed and disgusted. I have suppressed everything for months. Don’t know how I’ll ever be comfortable with sexuality again

If you believe in God, please believe in a god that loves you unconditionally. Sexual thoughts are part of our nature, it's human to have them. If your sexual life is respectful and not hurting anyone then you shouldn't feel ashamed about it.

The fact that you freak out so much about these things show you really love God and you have a good heart. But that doesn't mean he doesnt know what you are going through which is scrupulosity. He's going to help you fight through it you will be just fine. And remember to always pray.

Thank you both very much

Do you think so? I feel so freaked out by the fact he can see into my brain. It’s like he watches me do everything. And I just can’t deal with that pressure :’(. My sexual life was totally fine and not hurting anyone, just a normal girl. But since having these thoughts it’s like I can’t stop ruminating about it. I don’t even know how to combat it.. how will I ever be able to kiss someone with my mind focusing on not enjoying it because God is watching and I feel anxiety inside about my thoughts

Look, I'm not religious but I used to be. From my experience I can tell you that if your God is a good presence then he doesn't judge what is going on in your head. Some thoughts could be intrusive and not even meaningful to who you really are. A good God wouldn't be so scrupulous about our minds , especially if he made us this way, with this ability to think about anything. Just try to focus more on your actions. If you're sure that your sexual life is respectful towards you and others, then don't be afraid to fulfill your desires.

@Bigheart God is a good God and He's not scrupulous. Scrupulosity doesn't come from Him because He has freed us from guilt and shame. God loves the sinner but hates sin. He didn't make us this way. "So God created man in his own image, in the image of God created he him; male and female created he them." Genesis 1:27 His plans were never to harm us any kind of way. "For I know the plans I have for you,” declares the Lord, “plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future." Jeremiah 29:11 His word also says that" by His stripes we have been healed " Isaiah 53:7 Even though God knows the situation with our minds He also knows what's deep inside our hearts. That's all He sees.