Username: lulualh

Date posted: 40w ago

Schizophrenia and auditory hallucinations fear

I’ve been diagnosed with ocd. I first started off with harm ocd.when I got over it, it started switching into new themes. Every week I’d have to deal with a new thought/fear. And now i feel like im stuck again! Im not sure what type of ocd im going through right now. But im scared of hallucinating. Im scared of hearing things that aren’t there. So that caused me to be hyper aware of every sound I hear. And I now focus on white noises so much ( like AC, fridge, water pipes, the tv when it’s far away etc.) and I start to question my sister: can you hear that ? Because I’m super scared the I’m hallucinating. But usually she’ll answer with yes she can hear it. But I’ve been struggling with something else too. I sleep with the AC on and I’ve been doing for years. But during the past month that caused me so much stress and anxiety. Because I feel like whenever the AC is on I hear other things (not people talk or words or specific things) just unclear sounds. And I’m not sure if that’s in my head or it’s actually there but because the AC sound loud I can’t recognize the other sounds im hearing. And I get so anxious when I try to sleep because everything is so quiet and it’s just me and the AC on. So I feel like everything is loud. And I don’t know if the unclear sounds are in my head or real. And yesterday when I tried to sleep a police car went by and the siren of it was loud too. I focused on the sound. And questioned if it’s real or not. Then I started hearing the siren non stop for 3 minutes probably. Even though I’m sure the police car went by. So I was scared and terrified that I was hallucinating. And now I’m just scared that what if I’m not hyper aware ocd. What if I’m schizophrenic. What if I’m going crazy. I’m so scared. And I’m worrying that this will happen again if I go to sleep tonight. Someone help me please and give me advice!

Username: Schoolie93Schoolie93

Date posted: 33w ago

I’m a pysch nurse and if you’re scared you have schizophrenia then you don’t. My patients who have it don’t believe they have it. They don’t worry about it. So I hope that helps a little. Before I became a nurse that was one of my obsessions early on when I was diagnosed . Be kind to yourself your fine

Username: Princess LoritaPrincess Lorita

Date posted: 40w ago

I could have written this post myself babe! I go through this all the time!!! So one thing I didn’t realize that seems to be a really common OCD fear is becoming schizophrenic. Because honestly that’s a huge fear of mine as well. One thing you have to know is all thought that are “what if” thoughts, are from OCD. I look at OCD as this, obsession, confusion, doubt. You are obsessed, confused, doubtful and afraid, and want relief. People who have schizophrenia are not afraid of having schizophrenia, like how we are not afraid of having OCD. We have OCD and live with what OCD gives us, the mental and emotional and physical symptoms. People who have schizophrenia don’t worry about having it, but they have to live with the physical symptoms of their mental illness. Auditory hallucinations are so common in anxiety! And even much more so in OCD. I feel like I hear my name being whispered in my ear all the time, and it’s so scary!!! I think it’s demons or mental illness getting worse, I think it’s God I think it’s schizophrenia, the list is endless. But it’s just OCD babe. You got this, you have the strength and the support and the will power to defeat this!!!! I am so proud of you sweetie!!!! Stay strong! Big hugs!💖💜💖

Username: lulualhlulualh

Date posted: 40w ago

@Anonymous Thank you!!! This made me feel much much better. I really hope you recover from ocd! Thank u again for helping me and saying what I needed. I want to ask you does the hyper awareness of sounds ever stop? And how do I stop it? And can it be a reason of why I’m hearing things that are unclear or that’s just part of anxiety?

Username: Princess LoritaPrincess Lorita

Date posted: 40w ago

@lulualh For me the hyper awareness comes and goes, but it is 1000000% anxiety that causes this!!!!! Your brain will basically get bored of this eventually and just start thinking of other things, but OCD is a cycle so you will have it loop back around from time to time, medication really helped me not to be stressed about it. But you got his darling!!!!! I’m so proud of you and you will be able to get over this fear!!!! 💖💜💖

Username: lulualhlulualh

Date posted: 40w ago

@Princess Lorita Hopefully you get through ocd too! Thank u so much for making me feel better!!

Username: Princess LoritaPrincess Lorita

Date posted: 40w ago

@lulualh Of course darling!!! If you ever need me please reach out!!!!💖💜💜

Username: Mike0310Mike0310

Date posted: 39w ago

This post is what has happened to me the last 6 months! The fear that turns into hyper awareness and you analyze and repeat every thought to make sure it’s your own and not an auditory hallucination . It is horrible and I know what you are going through . The doubt is so real

Username: Johnny PJohnny P

User type: OCD Conqueror

Date posted: 38w ago

I had this and went away and came back and just today my ocd picked up on bpd. With meds and erp I had a huge rage of anxiety and let it sit and didn’t engage and it went down tremendously the anxiety.

Username: Johnny PJohnny P

User type: OCD Conqueror

Date posted: 38w ago

Had this for years it can go away but ocd tends to grab onto something else

Username: CurlygGirly03!CurlygGirly03!

Date posted: 28w ago

When I tell you this is EXACTLY what I’m dealing with right now and I have been dealing with this fear since March 2022 and I had gotten over it after a while it would come in and out every once in a while, but now here recently is gotten bad again and this time it just feels like it’s a little more intense or maybe it’s the same and I just don’t remember because it had been so long since I like fully dealt with it and everything that you described the auditory hallucinations everything is exactly what I deal with being scared of and I question everything like when I sleep with the fan and I play Rain Sounds on my TV because my children sleep better with the Rain Sounds and all that is going on all at once I get scared like I’m hearing things when I know I’m not so I’ll get up and like go to the bathroom where it’s quiet and just to be in quietness to make sure that I’m not going crazy or like the other day it was so bad with the fan and the TV going at the same time that I literally thought I was hearing inaudible sounds not like full fledge words or anything, but like how you describe like more so unclear noises and it freaked me out to the point like my skin like flared up I got super anxious and whenever I get really anxious I have to go to the bathroom and after I did that I went in my daughters room to get diapers and just stood in her closet because it was quiet, just make sure that I wasn’t hearing things and then come to realize that this only happens when it’s like lots of noises going on and I can’t focus clearly on one specific sounds so it makes me super anxious thinking that I’m hearing things and sometimes it just gets to the point where I’m like OK, maybe this is it this is the final breaking point, but I constantly have to keep reminding myself like if you have to question it then you don’t have it and I’m always questioning it but it’s still hard to not do so and that’s the one thing that I’m trying to get over and my mom is actually schizophrenic so that does not help at all and I just like find myself constantly in a loop like OK is this it showing am I showing symptoms and is it like I’m just always in a loop of am I going to go down that same path as her but I thank you so much for sharing your post because it’s really comforted me some to now where I can finally go to sleep because it is currently 3 o’clock in the morning and I haven’t been able to go to sleep because when I’m falling asleep, my dreams for some reason or like me going into sleep everything sounds loud and I got to a point where I was questioning my dreams like me losing it so I woke up cried ,prayed and spiraled then I came across this post and was like This is what I’ve been dealing with and I thank you for sharing… makes me feel better knowing that I’m not the only one that has similar going on…sending lots of love to you…❤️

Username: lulualhlulualh

Date posted: 22w ago

@CurlygGirly03! I just saw this today It’s great knowing that someone is going through the same thing I’m going through too. It makes me feel calm and less anxious knowing that I’m not alone. Just wanted to say that I made this Post months ago. I’m not going to lie and say that everything is perfect and I don’t worry about these sound anymore. But I feel so much better. I managed to calm myself down anytime I focus on the sounds. Yes it’s hard at the beginning but it becomes easier by time. And I used to do the same thing you do. I struggle with the sound of the ac, because when I put my head on the pillow i feel like it becomes louder and I start focusing more on it. I’ve looked it up the first reason obviously is because of ocd. And the other reason is the sound of the ac sounds different depending on where I am compared to the ac and the angle of my head also affects the way I hear thing ( I’m not sure how to put it into a good sentence but anyways there were scientific reasons behind it) I felt relieved to be honest and the time but it was hard to stop focusing on the sounds and worrying that I wasn’t going crazy. I used to go to quiet places too just to make sure that I wasn’t actually hearing things. And about the schizophrenia I’ve read that if you question yourself having it you actually don’t. Because people with schizophrenia don’t actually know they do

Username: Lilly2442!Lilly2442!

Date posted: 26w ago

I struggle with the exact same thing! Literally the white noise is actually called audio pareidolia I have it too it was really bad but it has calmed down a bit. I’m just hyper aware about it which causes anxiety. As for the noise my brain does the exact same thing the sound gets stuck:( how are you now with this theme?

Username: lulualhlulualh

Date posted: 22w ago

@Lilly2442! Hi! I’m sorry I just read this today but yes it does get better by time. I mean i still worry about the sounds but I feel like I’m less anxious and the amount of stress and anxiety is nothing compared to what I was dealing with 5 months ago. It does get better if you get used to it without doing any compulsions!

Username: Lilly2442!Lilly2442!

Date posted: 22w ago

@lulualh Thank you! I’m doing a bit better but still anxious about it. It’s crazy cause I’m going through the exact same thing as you were. Especially with hearing the sound after it passed. It causes so much anxiety it still does but not that bad.

Username: Alex$123Alex$123

Date posted: 19w ago

Literally me! Everything that you explained I am dealing with currently! From the unclear noise. And the sirens repeating!

Username: Mis2Mis2

Date posted: 12w ago

Hi how are you today? I have the same issue right now and am afraid of all sounds due to auditory hallucinations.

Username: mrselfdestru...

Date posted: 1y ago

Fear of delusions/ SchizOCD

Disclaimer, I am diagnosed with OCD, GAD, PTSD, ADHD, Panic Disorder and hypochondria. I’ve been in the midst of what I hope and pray is just an extremely debilitating health ocd theme for about 4 months now, where I’ve basically convinced myself I am in the midst of psychosis or developing schizophrenia or a related disorder. I obsess over it day and night to the point where I can’t even function hardly. Constantly researching symptoms and seeking reassurance. Ive been having this weird symptom where my ear canal will randomly feel this pressure/ticklish sensation and I start to become hyperaware of the hole in my ear, and I get this weird tense feeling almost like I’m expecting someone to stick their finger in my ear or expecting something to go inside of it, this weird sensation almost makes me want to cover my ear but I never do. But when I get this weird ear feeling I get absolutely ridiculous crazy thoughts like “what if a demon is trying to get inside your ear” and I’m like WTF why would I even think of that, I don’t even believe in demons or religious stuff like that to begin with. I recognize that the thought is nonsense and FAR out of the realm of reality and makes zero sense.The fact that I would even have a thought like that to begin with scares the f**k out of me! I have never ever had thoughts like this before. YET now whenever I get that weird sensation in my ear I still get intense anxiety, why? Why do I still get such crippling fear from this ear sensation even if I don’t believe the thoughts? Why would my brain even come up with a thought like that in the first place? I’m so terrified of schizophrenia and psychosis, I don’t want to lose my mind ): I have a wife and so many dreams. I’m so scared of losing it. Has someone ever experienced anything remotely similar to this? I know this is very far fetched.

Username: mimi94

Date posted: 1y ago

Fear of schizophrenia

Hi everyone! This is me writing this while having an intense OCD attack and seriously I don’t know how to handle it. At this point I cry almost every day, I’ve lost my appetite, and I don’t know what to do anymore. This summer I’ve seen a movie where one of the characters had schizophrenia and did what my intrusive thoughts were about, which is harming others. I panicked immediately and did what I wish I didn’t, but I didn’t know back then it was a compulsion: I googled the symptoms. I felt relief at first, but then I started asking myself what if I have those symptoms? What if my thoughts will become voices and I’ll believe them? (This is still one of my biggest fears) Ever since then it’s a never ending cycle, everything I see and hear I question if it’s real or only me hearing/seeing it. I overanalyse my body sensations like when my ears ring, or I feel a tightness around my head etc. I went to see a therapist to start treatment, and he told me I have nothing to worry about, cause it’s unlikely I’ll develop it. I felt at ease, and for a few weeks I felt so much better, cause that talk with the therapist went well and I finally got the diagnosis which is OCD. But then, I was scrolling on Instagram, and I saw a video and ever since then it’s getting bad again. It gotten so bad that my mind “plays” random phrases/music/words in my head, and it’s sometimes in my internal voice, sometimes it’s in others’ and it’s so scary cause I’m just going on with my day and they’re just there. Also for example I hear my mom cleaning the dishes and as she puts them away they make a sound and I hear a word in it, but it makes no sense yet I panic over it cause it was a word? I feel like I don’t even have own thoughts anymore, other than those and the ‘What if this means…?’ thoughts which cause me so much anxiety I feel like I’ll explode. The reason I’m writing this is that maybe someone who went through the same thing can help me, and give me some tips how to stop ruminating and mentally+physically checking (my emotions, my facial expressions, body sensations etc.)? I’m currently going to a group therapy which is seem to help, but I feel like I need to see a therapist alone where she/he can help me with my exact problem? Maybe it’s seeking reassurance and that’s a compulsion cause what if this isn’t OCD but still I don’t know what to do. Thank you!

Username: Lilly2442!

Date posted: 39w ago

Schizo ocd theme

Has anyone overcame this theme? Or been thought this theme? I have a fear of schizo and now I’m just constantly scanning to see if I hear things. It’s so bad I constantly pay attention to every single noise and can hear everything now because of this theme. I’m constantly scanning and even my inner voice/ imagination has scared me because I think “what if this is schizo” I’m so scared of everything due to this theme

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