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Feeling sad & hopeless
I don't if I can do this anymore š
I don't if I can do this anymore š
i feel the same way. we can talk if u want
Recovery is possible donāt give up. Please confide in someone that youāre struggling. It doesnāt mean you have to share all the details but I guarantee someone loves you enough to help you seek therapy or help. You are braver and stronger than you think. One day at a time.
I am seeking counselling
I hate it when people say ātreatment does workā like eyeroll! But right now practically I want you to stop caring about the theme, stoproblem solving. I promise you will instantly feel better. I would suggest a meditation channel on youtube just to feel good. Not suggesting anything too hard or exhausting here.
Keep on pushing through, a breakthrough could be right around the corner ā¤ļøā¤ļø you got this, there is so much love for you in this world
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I don't think I will
Right there with you
I feel like Iāll never lead a normal life again with OCD, my thoughts have begun to be convince especially about POCD. I feel like so sad and down that this will be my life forever. Iāll never get to fall in love again without intrusive thoughts. Iāll never be worth falling in love with. I can never be intimate again. Iām just done, my life is over. I canāt even look at my nephew and niece anymore without the smile fading. It feels like Iām so nasty and then my brain convinces me this is how I feel. That thereās some part of me that is a p*do and thatās it. Iām a disgusting human being for that. I just feel hopeless
Today my mom broke down crying because of how much stress she feels having to take care of me, she said I canāt do anything in terms of being able to take care of myself and sheās right I canāt, she breaks down constantly because of me, I donāt know what to do, itās been like this for years, part of me feels like the only way to save her is to kill myself, I donāt want to die, but it feels like the only way to set her free, I donāt think anyone but her would miss me anyways, I feel utterly hopeless. Iām not going to do anything to myself the voices are just SCREAMING that I need to. I canāt work, I canāt go to school, Iām trying desperately to get therapy, I donāt know what else to do, I wish I was a child again and I felt like I had a chance to be okay. I love my mom so much and she loves me and Iām killing her, Iām actually killing her, with how fuckinh worthless and pathetic I am, itās too much, I miss being a kid.
iām so sorry, this is a bit longer than i anticipated. for the people that struggle with periods on this app, iāve had irregular ones all my life. the one iām having now has been going on for almost two and a half weeks, iām in so much pain, and iāve bled through pants multiple times a day since iāve been on it. i went to the gyno earlier this year for my first pap smear and tried talking to her about the problems i had previously faced. it felt like she ignored me and rushed through my appointment. i had to go ahead make another appointment with her because she could see me the soonest (since i was already established with her. every other office i called could only take me starting late june) due to the issues i stated previously. iām extremely nervous to go because iām scared she wonāt listen to my issues like last time. iāve also gone to the er a few times trying to figure out whatās wrong, but they all just do a blood test and an ultrasound and tell me to go home. iām swimming in medical bills that i already canāt pay. on top of that, my ocd is getting to a point of being extremely debilitating. i tried seeing if the app would accept my insurance, but they donāt. even with a payment plan, i absolutely cannot afford to find therapy here. iāve also tried looking at therapists near me, but it seems like none of them specialize in ocd. i live in a small town, so in a way thatās expected, but it doesnāt help my case. iāve been feeling incredibly weak due to the blood loss and the lack of therapy. i just need some kind words to help me keep a positive attitude, because itās been extremely hard to do so as of late.
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