- Username
- LillyX
- Date posted
- 43w ago
Anyone feel like their situation is too ‘rare’
I sometimes worry my situation is too uncommon to be OCD and can’t find many people to relate too with similar situations. Anyone else?
I sometimes worry my situation is too uncommon to be OCD and can’t find many people to relate too with similar situations. Anyone else?
a lot of people relate, situations might be unique for anyone but the solution to that problem is mostly the same
Same
Same honestly. I have trouble breaking stuff like my phones or ripping my clothes. that triggers my OCD.
100%!! I can’t find my ocd theme anywhere online :( makes me feel like my ocd is completely untreatable
Same honestly
I keep hearing/seeing that luckily regardless of the theme, the treatment is the same. I know that doesn't help precisely with the loneliness feeling, but in a way it connects us all. Which is kind of nice to think about, there is a common humanity here
I did. Had an odd combination of compulsions and themes and the way ocd presented itself a few times is something I've rarely seen others struggle with on this app.
At least we all have that in common I suppose, must defo be an OCD thing.
Yeah I’ve like dealt with weird eating disorder stuff in the past that latched onto my ocd I have like intrusive thoughts but thought action fusion So it’s like intrusive thought action fusion sorta haha I feel like I’m eating stuff when I’m not And food used to be my motivation for stuff so now I have this idea unless I eat everything that I’ll fail And I’m like just yeah umm yeah lol don’t know how to explain but it is PARALYZING
Long story short, my comfort for you is: I’m not going to just tell you “your not alone” cause sometimes that just feels invalidating Especially when OCD is super duper personal with how themes present Often times we are trying to navigate a personal hell not quite like anyone else has before But since us OCD people are ALL in some way ALONE we are also in this together. (Not sure if that’s helpful or makes sense lol) I also worry about if I’ll ever get treatment cause I can’t find the words to even explain to my therapist what’s going on
My name is Lily. I’m from a small town in Colorado. I have had OCD since I was 6 but I was finally diagnosed at 9. I am constantly being bullied for being different and I came here to find others dealing with the sales things as me. I have never met another soul with OCD and no one in my area really knows what it is either. My most prominent OCD is sibling contamination OCD. I feel like my brother is dirty so I can’t touch him or anything in my own home. I can’t even touch the doors to leave without someone opening it for me or using gloves and washing my hands afterwards. I struggle everyday with anxiety which transferred over to harm and suicidal OCD. Whenever my anxiety gets to great I have to cut myself or sit on the roof and cry with my thoughts telling me to jump because I hurt my family emotionally. My parents call me a burden and my dad used to physically beat me. I’m trying to heal but all I can see in the mirror is a messed up 15 year old girl who is a burden to her family. Sometimes I wish I could just bring myself to the end and put my family out of their pain. I think I need someone with OCD to talk to.
I’m tired guys. I’m tired of thinking something is always wrong with my health, tired of letting random symptoms/ sensations take over my brain and make me think something is horribly wrong. Tired of thinking I need to go to the doctors to get X & Y looked at. I’m tired of always assuming worst case scenario. I’m tired of constantly thinking if something is unethical/ immoral if I don’t do something, tired of always thinking I’m offending a religious higher being, tired of thinking I’m a bad/ disgusting person for my thoughts. I’ve had OCD ruin so many things for me that should have been fun. It’s ruined intercourse/ intimacy because of religious thoughts, or I keep thinking about STDs/ infections. I’ve been having panic attacks lately, something I’ve never experienced, because of life changes and it’s all gotten in the way of my structured life and it’s been very uncomfortable. Lately I’ve been feeling like I’m in danger, or nothing is real. Right now I’m fearing the most that I’m losing my mind, who I am, and I’m just so scared of my mental health getting worse and going manic or developing a dangerous mental illness. My mental health has NEVER been this bad. This is all new and it’s so scary. I was just fine a few months ago, sure I was dealing with other OCD stuff, the intrusive thoughts, the fears, the repetitive actions just to make sure something is the way I want it/ brings me comfort. But ever since my structure was changed/ ruined, it’s all been downhill. I just finished an EMT program, and that messed with me. Saw/ experienced things I’ve never done before and man, it’s really messed with me. Working on getting a new job in healthcare but still don’t have insurance so getting a new OCD specialized therapist has been difficult. Can someone relate just so I don’t feel like I’m crazy?..
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