Am I experiencing real OCD or just denial about my intrusive thoughts?

Don’t Even Know if It’s OCD or not Anymore

I can’t even tell if my intrusive thoughts are real or not. Sometimes I feel like I want the thoughts or am just in denial and some of the actions I’ve done in my past, I can’t forgive myself for. I have Real Event OCD and I can’t forgive myself for my mistakes. I hate myself so much. I hate feeling like such a bad person all the time. My themes have also continuously switched and it feels like I have a new theme every few months. I’m so done with this and I don’t know what to do.

Username: AnonymousAnonymous

Date posted: 31w ago

i understand, you aren’t alone. i have felt this too. it’s so tiring feeling constant guilt. i also struggle with false memory ocd where i literally cannot tell for the life of me what is real and what isn’t in my memory. and then i worry that i’m convincing myself that i “can’t remember it” to get out of it, even though i genuinely can’t remember. it will get better. you are not a bad person. intrusive thoughts are scary, but if you have to consider if it’s intrusive or not, it’s intrusive. and you can’t control your intrusive thoughts. they don’t define you and it DOES NOT mean that you want those thoughts!!!! i know it’s hard and your brain is trying to convince yourself you want them, but remind yourself it’s just intrusive.

Username: 123g123g

Date posted: 31w ago

@Anonymous Thank you for understanding. Yeah, false memory is the worst too. Thank you for the kind words and I’m sorry for everything you’re going through as well!

Username: LeslieB3LeslieB3

Date posted: 31w ago

hey, i'm really sorry you're going through this. it sounds incredibly tough dealing with real event ocd and the constant switching of themes. it's exhausting to feel like you're in a loop of doubt and self-blame. 💔 by the way, have you heard about this new ai-powered ocd therapy tool called 'unstuck'? when i was in a similar spot, what really made a difference for me was this free ai ocd therapy tool called 'unstuck' (unstuckmyocd.com/try) that my nocd therapist recommended. i think it'll be especially helpful for you because it offers personalized step-by-step support tailored to your specific situation, helping you navigate through the complexities of ocd, just like an ocd therapist would. i hate when people promote stuff, but i really think it can help you because it's changed my life. lmk if you have qs or just want to talk more! <3

Username: 123g123g

Date posted: 31w ago

@LeslieB3 Thank you for your compassion and thank you so much for the therapy tool! I appreciate the suggestion. I’ll look into that. Glad it has been able to help you through your OCD.

Username: Ocdislame

Date posted: 2y ago

Can real event ocd, or ocd in general make you feel bad for something you did that was actually wrong? I keep thinking about things I’ve done in the past that are defiantly wrong and shitty things. But I’ve never really thought of them before. I knew they were terrible things, and I’ve not gone back since. Maybe 10+ years ago (when I was 19-21). I thought real event ocd was your brain taking things that are trivial and twisting them to make you seem bad. In these cases I’ve grown as a person l, I’m really not proud of myself and hope to never go back to that place. Is this ocd, or am I suddenly just feeling remorse for being a terrible person? I just feel the need to confess to my wife again, even though she knows most of it.

Username: Coffeelover11

Date posted: 1y ago

Anyone else experience this?

Does anyone struggle with real event ocd and having to confess to their partner? I have so many regrets on things I’ve either done or thought and feel like I can’t move on or be better until I’ve been forgiven for them. Mostly things that happened a couple years ago and I don’t know why it’s all of a sudden bothering me now but it makes me feel like I’m the worst person ever. I’m even questioning how I thought or felt during that time and I’m confessing to thoughts or things I may or may not have done or thought. It’s so confusing and I feel trapped in my own head. If anyone has any tips I would appreciate it. Thank you for you time

Username: Givenup

Date posted: 34w ago

Real events ocd and horrible childhood mistakes

Real events OCD combined with hocd and pocd and harm ocd is making me feel so horrible... Ive made horrible mistakes as a child that I deeply regret (9-13) and now Im 22 about to turn 23... I feel like I dont deserve forgiveness cause of my childhood mistakes...

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