Do some of you have the same problem ⁉️ I don’t see myself as very beautiful and boys hardly recognize me and never ask me for a date and my HOCD tells me that „women definitely would ask you for a date“ and that I will never get a boyfriend so I should go with women. I always knew I never had a relationship because of my very (!) low self esteem but now my HOCD tells me that’s because of my HOCD.

Ok so this might be long might not but I’m going to try and explain this very well ok so I have always dreamed about having a boyfriend and I’ll read novels and want that for me and I can imagine myself with a guy when I’m older and happy but right now I can’t whenever I try to think about it I get anxious and just want to cry cause more than anything in the world I want happiness but ever since I got hocd whenever a guy tells me they like me all I want to do I stop them from liking me and want to tell them to stop liking me I get an anxious type feeling and lately I have had the theme of asexuality like “am I an asexual? What if I turn asexual? What if because I get these weird feeling about boys liking me does that make me asexual?” I need some opinions of what people think and I also don’t know these could be new feelings to me I just have never dated or had a boyfriend I want one but at the same time “myself” doesn’t want me having one! What do you think?

Anyone struggling with hocd going through this: growing up (18 now) I've never had a boyfriend or even my first kiss. I'm super awkward with that type of stuff for some reason and just don't know why. So any opportunity of having a serious boyfriend I was always uncomfortable and said no. That also had to do with me not liking my body and thinking that a guy would find it super ugly and unlovable. So with that being said I'm afraid I'm a lesbian or bi and like I don't find boys attractive anymore. I'm scared cause I want to be with a guy but I'm afraid I'll never find a guy I want to be with and find out in the long run I'm a lesbian or something. I don't want to be with girls but ocd is kicking me in my ass. Telling me that only girls are attractive, picking apart anything I find attractive on a guy and it makes me sad. Also sorry for the tmi but I'm afraid I won't find a penis attractive and that's that and I'm lesbian. I know I have to accept the unknown but I'm truly terrified cause of my past that it is set that I'm bi or lesbian and just was too stupid to know it.

this is not particularly ocd related but I need help. I have experienced all my life that most girls don’t like me and always find ways to make me feel insecure. Even girls that doesn’t me, I feel an energy that is very toxic from so many girls that I meet. But it’s always me that deals with it, I don’t know anyone else that experience it. I have been told that I am pretty and that I have a beautiful soul that makes other girls jealous, but I don’t understand what it is about me that makes other girls behaving like this towards me. Therefor I don’t have a lot of friends, that also has been a trigger to my hocd, can someone help me understand this?