- Username
- Mars
- Date posted
- 5y ago
Yeah, my dad doesn't understand my OCD symptoms either?? He's all like "why don't you just stop the repetitive actions" and I'm like "because it causes me severe distress if I don't" and he's all like"?." Ughh? The fact of the matter is that people without OCD just don't get us. BUT! Here, we do get you. We understand that you are not a bad person, as a matter of fact, the fact that those thoughts cause you distress proves it! Is the doctor that told you to do that a general doctor or a actual OCD therapist?
Hey! From what I understand, you told your father and he said if he should be ready, right? Sorry, I wasn't clear on that. But I do know that when it comes to speaking about OCD it's better to expect people to react erroneously and not blame them at least at the moment we are "coming out" on telling them (which actually is the moment we need them the most). We are all soooo used to go through life without questioning our thoughts, desires, and behaviors that we always think they are the same and that they all come from the same place: us and who we "are or might want to be". So you mention OCD yo someone and they quickly think their's at least a hidden temptation or desire on you to act on whatever you are mentioning you are affraid of. Keep explaining them what OCD is and hopefully he might understand better. Wether we like it or not, our family is important in supoorting us. But if they don't, then we still find a way to push through! You are not your mind and You're loved ❤ keep pushing?
@Infinite1010 The Doctor is a general doctor. My therapist is not someone who actually deals specifically with OCD, and I just got diagnosed with BPD, so my therapist and psyche wanted me to go to a day program for “crisis” basically. But I’m hoping after they’ll be able to find me someone who specializes in ocd and takes my insurance and that I’d be able to get to them since I have no car.
@TonyOCD yeah, that’s what he said. In the past my father has been an asshole, and honestly I have trouble trusting him for that reason. I think he’s trying to be better now, but it’s still hard to trust him. He at least wasn’t angry about it, but he got defensive when I tried to explain.
Mars, but few therapists know how to treat OCD well. I dont know where you live, but The Behavioral Wellness Clinic specializes specifically in OCD treatment. I might be wrong here, but I think they accept insurance and, even if they don't, they do have low fee opportunities for people in need. I provided evidence of my need and believe me I'm in treatment at a rate that is nowhere near their normal ones. They also provide teleconsultation in case you live far. Look for them on the internet or try to find help near you in the International OCD Foundation website. A general doctor knows nothing about psychological disorders and diagnoses yet for some reason people make the mistake of consulting them for psychological conditions. Even worse they can make the mistake of telling you what to do instead of referring you to proper assistance. A general doctor is where my mom took me the first time I told her I had OCD 11 years ago. There's nothing he could do then. Hang in there ❤
@Mars I see. Here are a few great resources to finding a specialized therapist! First start here, because the therapists that are recommended are very specialized in OCD https://iocdf.org/ocd-finding-help/find-help/ If none are the right fit from there, then using this resource will help you find more, plus you can also filter for BPD https://www.psychologytoday.com/us/therapists Now, I will say, I strongly recommend that when you contact a therapist to first ask if they accept your insurance, then also ask about the BPD. The second part is a little important because I waited like 2 1/2 months to see a therapist just for her to say "I can't help you because you have co-occuring disorders" so that sucked. My current therapist specializes in OCD and understands I have other co-occuring disorders, but we are just working on the OCD. So take a look and message as many as you think are a good fit and see if they can work with you. Good luck?
My dad and I got in a physical fight today. I was screaming in a panic attack, frustratedly yelling and he decided to spit at me (contamimation OCD so that was awful), it eventually escalated to the point where he hit me, choked me and kicked my leg. I peed myself from fear when this all happened onto the floor. My mom and sister had to restrain him from hitting me more. My leg still hurts hours after. I'm at my uncle's now as the crisis service did not think me staying there was a safe situation. I can't stop thinking about it. My relationship was great with my dad before I got OCD. But ever since it has gotten to this point. This is not the first time it has happened either. He promised last time it wouldn't happen again. I still love him and want to forgive him as we had a great relationship before OCD. I don't know how to cope with all this. I am trying to sleep but my leg hurts and it keeps reminding me of what happened today. I sometimes wonder if I'll ever be able to trust him again... certaintly not while having a mental illness I feel like. I wish I could sleep but I just feel like crying.
Hello everyone. I have been having horrible thoughts ever since I turned 13, and now I’m almost 16, and still having them. When I turned 13, the thoughts were constant and nearly drove me to kill myself. I thought about killing my family and pets constantly, but, worst of all, especially my mother. Now, I sleep with my door closed to try to stop the thoughts and to keep from hearing or seeing my mom or dad. I love my parents and pets, especially my mother— she’s an amazing woman, and has done so much for me, but yet I’m still having these damn thoughts. I was at a bad school when I was 13, and then moved to another when I was 14. After a switched schools, the thoughts gradually began to lessen, but every few months, they get really bad again for a few weeks (I still have them daily out of those bad few weeks, but when they get bad, they get bad.) I’m currently going through one of those spurts. I have tried to talk to my dad about getting help, and even though he said that he’ll look for a therapist, it’s been nearly a year, and I still haven’t gotten help. I desperately want these thoughts to stop because I feel like a horrible person and I love my parents, family, and pets so much, but I’m terrified of opening up to my dad and telling him everything that I think about (I also have thoughts about sexually abusing children, but I don’t want to do it! I’m not attracted to children whatsoever, but I’m still thinking about it.) My self-esteem is absolutely horrible, and I feel like a monster for thinking about these things. I’m very much a daddy’s girl, and if he is disgusted or angry at me, then I honestly don’t know how I’d handle it. I really, really need help, but just don’t know how to go about doing it (I’ve thought about going to the school councilor, but they’ve made it known that, if they’re concerned about a student, that they’ll either contact their parents or the police.) My dad has said to just calm down and relax, but I literally can’t. We have mental illnesses on my mom’s side, and many of those people take pills, and when I’ve talked to my dad about my anxiety and depression, he’s said that pills aren’t the answer. Honestly, at this point I don’t care what treatment I get— all I care about is these thoughts stopping. I’m sorry if this is rambling and a little confusing, but my mind is all over the place right now. Any suggestions would be very much appreciated.
I need a space to breathe and rant and get stuff off my chest so this is what I’m using this for now. I hate being angry. I hate it so much cause I always feel like I have less control over my thoughts and feelings and it makes me feel like I have no control over possible actions etc. which makes it really hard with harm ocd. But it feels like an endless loop, because my ocd is so frustrating it makes me angry, and that makes me feel less in control, so the circle continues. It sucks feeling like if anyone knew what it looked like sometimes inside your head, maybe they wouldn’t love you and they wouldn’t see you the same way. I feel so lonely and hollow that days. I have so many “friends” but they all make me feel more lonely, cause everything is so superficial and pointless and sitting with them just makes me feel like I need to withdraw deeper into myself because they don’t get it and they don’t really want to get it or care. I want to scream and cry cause I can’t control anything. I can’t stop the people I love from dying one day, I cant stop time, and I can’t keep things the same forever. I’m so tired of doubting everything about myself. Am I a pedophile? Am I a danger to my loved ones? Am I psychotic? Ya da ya da ya da. This endless anxiety I have it feels like it’s slowly killing me and it’s making me depressed. I can’t sleep. I haven’t slept for two nights and I mean like at all. I forget to eat I get so anxious and either way I sometimes feel so nauseous I don’t want to eat. My family doesn’t really get it, to them ocd is always just an excuse, or it’s for drama. I have tried to ease myself into the idea that maybe everything is chaos. Bad things happen to good people everything has an end, etc. it’s much easier said than done. If life is an ever changing stormy sea of waves than I’m barely clinging onto anything.
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