- Username
- happiness._.123
- Date posted
- 39w ago
I don't feel real nowadays
I am doubting my existence, my surroundings like i am not even able to figure out what am I questioning what is life? Am in a dream? Like aaahhhhh! Or am I healing?
- Username
- loubr80loubr80
- Date posted
- 39w ago
I had this when I was 18.. I didn’t know what it was lo and behold at the age of 34 I realised it was OCD. Now I didn’t know I had it and happily carried on my life until late last year I had a bout of it with a rather horrible theme. Derealisation / depersonalisation is what I had. It was like everything was made up? Like I was watching myself, Truman show style. But one day I remember just saying to myself I accept it whatever, real hard acceptance… when I no longer fought it, it went. Not saying that this is true for everyone but just my experience. Get some exposure and practice acceptance in the present, that’s really where you need to be tuning into xx
- Username
- Anonymous813Anonymous813
- Date posted
- 39w ago
Ah, is it derealisation?
- Username
- happiness._.123happiness._.123
- Date posted
- 39w ago
I think it is but my thoughts are superstitious as well so does derealisation and superstition can go along as well?
- Username
- Anonymous813Anonymous813
- Date posted
- 39w ago
@happiness._.123 - Yes it can.
- Username
- happiness._.123happiness._.123
- Date posted
- 39w ago
@Anonymous813 Will this feeling go away?
- Username
- Anonymous813Anonymous813
- Date posted
- 39w ago
@happiness._.123 - I haven’t dealt with this but from what I have heard is that with therapy and meds, it goes away. Also there are videos on YouTube. on how to tackle this. There are many more. Here are some links : https://youtu.be/P9qJFm95n3Q?si=fSCPhKJt5YupCfR1 https://youtu.be/Xzl63ra2oBw?si=A8laTOHMEUjc4qAF You can search up books on derealisation to help you cope.
- Username
- Anonymous813Anonymous813
- Date posted
- 39w ago
@happiness._.123 - I haven’t dealt with this but from what I have heard is that with therapy and meds, it goes away. Also there are videos on YouTube. on how to tackle this. There are many more. Here are some links : https://youtu.be/P9qJFm95n3Q?si=fSCPhKJt5YupCfR1 https://youtu.be/Xzl63ra2oBw?si=A8laTOHMEUjc4qAF You can search up books on derealisation to help you cope.
- Username
- happiness._.123happiness._.123
- Date posted
- 39w ago
@Anonymous813 Thanks alot buddy, i appreciate it alot I hope you stay healthy and happy always ✨😁
- Username
- Phillip91Phillip91
- User type
- OCD Conqueror
- Date posted
- 39w ago
Totally have these thoughts and feelings from time to time. At first they were constant. I felt like I was going crazy. I did ERP for those existential fears and now the derealization only pops up about once a month. Almost like a monthly cycle. When it happens I do exposures. The feeling is only there because your focus is so turned in on your inner thoughts that you’re not paying attention to the outside world. OCD likes to run with that feeling and concoct all these existential reasons why you’re feeling that way. A mistake I made early in treatment was thinking I had to believe the thoughts in order to do a proper exposure. Instead, when you doubt your existence, try to make an exposure where you say “maybe, maybe not” and go on living as if reality is real. So live with the uncertainty of not knowing if your worst fear is true. Basically dropping the question and living life in spite of not knowing. It gets better and easier with practice. You’ve got this!
- Username
- happiness._.123happiness._.123
- Date posted
- 39w ago
Thankyou so much for the wonderful advice i hope you stay healthy and happy 😁✨ this sounds difficult at first but yeah I'll try my best
- Username
- Stephanie75Stephanie75
- Date posted
- 39w ago
honestly- is anything ACTUALLY real? Scientists are confirming we live in a matrix... simulation, etc. so... maybe you aren't odd for questioning existence... just the sheeple who don't know/believe that think you're "crazy" or whatever if you mention it.
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- Username
- kenzieisfound
- Date posted
- 25w ago
does anyone else deal with this?
i could be fine one day and then all of a sudden go into this long period that lasts a few days, sometimes even weeks where i feel so disconnected from everyone and everything. i will be talking to my boyfriend and think to myself “ is this really my boyfriend do i even like him “ or i’ll look at my family and be like “ is this really my family “, i feel so out of touch with reality and it is so scary. things look distorted, i feel like i am behind myself 24/7, like i am watching myself through a movie or something. it is so scary and i feel like there’s something wrong with me, and what sucks is i cant even explain what i feel, and i feel extremely alone. my birthday is coming up and i feel like i wont even be able to have fun because i will feel so weird and not present at all, i dont know what to do and i will feel this way out of nowhere. some days its worse than others, idk i feel like im genuinely losing my mind or that im gonna lose my mind and go crazy. is this normal?
- Username
- Jubeishow
- Date posted
- 23w ago
The thought is bad tonight...
As the title states, my intrusive thought of "being in a dream" when I'm conscious is horrible tonight. Constant need of reassurance, trying to find any distraction. I can't get this thought out of my head no matter what I do. It's on the top of my thinking list 24/7 no matter what I try. Im feeling bad derealization and it makes me want to wish I didn't exist..I was fine before my panic attack from an ocular migraine (losing my eyesight is my biggest fear)...but now I'm not living...I'm just surviving...I'm very depressed...I haven't eaten today and had to remind myself to take a shower, brush my teeth, and drink water. I have a therapy session on here tomorrow...I'm praying so hard that I get answers and ways to get rid of this stupid thought that appeared out of nowhere....
- Username
- Jubeishow
- Date posted
- 20w ago
Existential crisis
I've been in a constant state of panic since last night. My brain...oh my brain I'm so sick of you. I have intrusive thoughts that tell me "I don't exist" "I'm already dead" The panic and hyper focusing has caused so much DPDR that I feel disconnected to where it truly feels like I ceased to exist. No matter what I tell myself, I can't calm down. Nothing is a distraction, not even video games. I don't feel real. It feels like my own voice in my head is numb. I can't concentrate, my memory is awful, and I'm just all around scared. I can't believe it's gotten to this point. I don't know what to do...I'm terrified.
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