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- 45w ago
Agh
Aghhh I can’t do this I need an escape
Aghhh I can’t do this I need an escape
Ocd can feel like a trap you can’t escape from. As some who has had pure ocd for a long time I would recommend you try hanging out with a friend or do something that makes you happy and push though the ocd and do what ever you would be doing if you were not having ocd thoughts anyway. I know ocd can be scary and stressful but if you stop doing things it will only get worse trust me. The only way to not feel trapped by ocd is to just live you’re life anyway. Ocd is hard and sometimes you will get stuck in it but please try pull yourself out by pushing though it. You can go it , stay strong
I used to drink to escape I'm sober for 8 months now I'm slowly learning to walk through the uncomfortable feelings I started going to church last year there's a saying get comfortable being uncomfortable God works in n mysterious ways
@DennisDB I am glad you are doing better , I don’t drink a lot because I am worry I would end using it as an escape for my anxiety and depression and always what to be drinking. I got drank one time and really like the feeling not have the fear from my ocd , and I liked it way to much like I wanted to drink again right away . I stoped myself. I don’t know if it’s normal for people with OCD to have habits that they want to keep doing things over and over again but I’m the kind of person that once I start using Chapstick I just want to keep using it like 59 times a day or something ridiculous.  I don’t know it’s like you can easily get addicted to stuff.
Oh yes it's normal I obsessed over using beard oil! What scent to wear or how many bottles I have OCD affect all aspects of life even the most insignificant thing
I can't do this anymore I feel fucking insane my mind keeps telling me I want to k word people and if feels like my mind is making fucking plans. I'm diagnosed with ocd but I don't even know if it's ocd what if I'm just a terrible fucking person that actually wants to do this. My mind is literally telling me to go buy a weapon and hurt people like I get fucking urges. I can't keep food down and have not for the last few days I feel like I need to go to a mental hospital but I don't want to burden anyone in my family. Like my mind tells me specifically I want to do this but I don't want to but recently ive been having the thought of what if I did do it but I don't want to. I just want it to stop I'm a good person I don't want to hurt anyone at all. But what if one day I actually do want to do something. I can't do this anymore.
Trying to ignore my thoughts but it feels like they are only coming at me more now😭 im just at a loss i dont know what to do
It’s 3am and I’m not doing well. I’m having an overwhelming amount of anxiety. I need to feel mentally clean but I’m dirty. I’ve had bad thoughts and I’m ashamed. I feel like I can’t even write it down. I want to say it aloud to someone but my wife is sleeping right next to me so doing a therapy call would be impossible. I’m feeling helpless. And so guilty for my thoughts.
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