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- 1y
Agh
Aghhh I can’t do this I need an escape
Aghhh I can’t do this I need an escape
Ocd can feel like a trap you can’t escape from. As some who has had pure ocd for a long time I would recommend you try hanging out with a friend or do something that makes you happy and push though the ocd and do what ever you would be doing if you were not having ocd thoughts anyway. I know ocd can be scary and stressful but if you stop doing things it will only get worse trust me. The only way to not feel trapped by ocd is to just live you’re life anyway. Ocd is hard and sometimes you will get stuck in it but please try pull yourself out by pushing though it. You can go it , stay strong
I used to drink to escape I'm sober for 8 months now I'm slowly learning to walk through the uncomfortable feelings I started going to church last year there's a saying get comfortable being uncomfortable God works in n mysterious ways
@DennisDB I am glad you are doing better , I don’t drink a lot because I am worry I would end using it as an escape for my anxiety and depression and always what to be drinking. I got drank one time and really like the feeling not have the fear from my ocd , and I liked it way to much like I wanted to drink again right away . I stoped myself. I don’t know if it’s normal for people with OCD to have habits that they want to keep doing things over and over again but I’m the kind of person that once I start using Chapstick I just want to keep using it like 59 times a day or something ridiculous.  I don’t know it’s like you can easily get addicted to stuff.
Oh yes it's normal I obsessed over using beard oil! What scent to wear or how many bottles I have OCD affect all aspects of life even the most insignificant thing
I want to rip out my uterus. Only my hormones can make my OCD and ability to manage it go back to square one. I am spiraling *so* hard. I cannot breathe. My PMDD is going crazy. I’m having a panic attack again. I feel so scared. The POCD is going absolutely insane right now. It feels undeniably real, and my mind keeps drifting to those awful thoughts and what feels like exploring them?? but I can’t for the life of me stop some of these compulsions right now. I was trying to watch something to get my mind off of this but ended up getting triggered twice, so my anxiety is a 10 and I can’t seem to calm down. This panic attack is tuned all the way up.
I just can’t do this shit anymore.im tired of these “arousal” sensations that feel real but when I go check my arousal to the same gender I just get anxiety. I’m tired of feeling like I can’t like girls anymore. I’m tired of my arousal getting blocked every now and then because I’m anxious. I’m tired of not knowing who I am anymore. I’m tired of having my mind putting me into an identity I never asked for. I’m tired of this life
It’s never been this bad before. I feel like I’ll never get better. Every day I remember new things to feel guilty about and new fears pop into my head. What if I get doxxed? What if I said something online that could get me in trouble? What if I was hacked? What if someone is looking through every post, every message, every account I’ve ever made. I feel like I’ve dug myself into a hole and there is no way out. I’m 21, I keep thinking “no one will have grace for you because of your age. You are an adult. You should have know better. You don’t deserve to get better”
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