Are there other cis people experiencing distress from transgender OCD?

@bebecoll30 I'm looking into getting a NOCD therapist to help with all my subtypes including this one. I've been trying to just let it be, but I feel like i'm doing ERP/ACT wrong because it never helps 😔 I know I need better guidance with it

@Anonymous That's how I am too!! If another subtype dies down— this one comes back!! UGH can't we just be ourselves happily?!? And I feel exactly the same about imitating and putting yourself in male characters' places, as I am a fanfic writer and do this frequently in order to write characters properly. And YES that is something my OCD holds against me, too! And I often use the phrase "literally hell" as well 😔🫂 I believe there is hope for you and I'm sure you'll find a way to get therapy/adequate help. Sometimes anxiety meds/good support are all you need! ♥️

@Jersey Jayne It's absolutely normal for everyone to put consciously or subconsciously at someone else's place regardless of gender and that doesn't mean we literally wanna embody them or something, it's very common and natural human behavior. I remember that I've also fantasized myself as a guy who's being physical with a girl when I was around 12-13, I've took reassurances fr everywhere and got to know that it's normal part of human imagination and exploration and it means nothing, we can imagine or fantasize ourselves as anyone but still HOCD and TOCD are holding this thing against me 😔 It's also normal to imagine that "how would my partner/crush perceive me, how would he see me, react etc"..it's common to seeing yourself or even another women by male's perspective or through their eyes but OCD is messing up everything. It misinterpreting every normal thing, other normal people don't go into every detail or even had a second thought that "what if I've imagined and what does that mean etc etc"..I hope we all sufferers would recover by this soon.

@Jersey Jayne I feel this too!! Is so frustrating, as a fanfic writter/ creator, I try to place myself in male character's shoes and my thoughts use that against me, placing stuff like "Wouldn't you né more happy/ thrilled being a man?" Or "that's bc you want to be a dude" and it MAKES ME FEEL AWFUL My biggest fear is waking up one day and starting to loose my love for my body, my breasts, my genitalia... The mere thought of becoming something close to masculine makes me so sad bc I don't want it 😭 I want to go back to the days I wasn't hyper aware of my body/ my actions, that those thoughts didn't even crossed my mind and I was just a happy girl with self-esteem issues... Agh, I'm taking some meds for anxiety but those thoughts makes me feel so guilty with myself for even thinking about changing myself in such way... To change me to an stranger ;-;

@Anonymous Well the solution we all know but don't follow and implement. 1. ACT therapy 2. ERP therapy (mainly accidental exposures for every day and purpose exposures for avoidance) 3. Mindfulness 4. Let the thoughts pass without reacting on it, just ignore them like a bully and that's what accidental exposures are 5. Try hypnotherapy once as it's helpful in this (you can find videos on YouTube too) 6. Remember that our one compulsion can bring us back to the place where we have started so.. hold the anxiety and avoid compulsions and ruminations.

@Anonymous I really need to talk to you

@star1232 Sure.. I'm always there ✌️

@EdenAurelia This is exactly how it feels!! It's so horrible and makes me not care about myself or what happens to me, because I feel like the real me is gone... it was so embarrassing that 4 years ago I confessed to my father and my doctor what I was feeling and how badly I did not want to feel it, and now that I know what it is I just pray to god neither of them remember it!! I've always had body dysmorphia around my breasts and I was a bit of a tomboy in middle school because I was given the impression by my father that feminine stuff was bad/gross/sexualized. Since then I got super comfortable with feminine things and it felt so freeing. It's so hard to talk about this subtype with anyone because not only is it stigmatized even WITHIN the OCD community, the go-to response is for someone to tell you you're just in denial/internalizing transphobia— but that's not what it is AT ALL!!

It's absolutely the worst theme ever, I was was awake until 5 am and I remember that I was just taking reassurances from people online like "is it normal for cis women to imagine themselves as a male ever, what does that mean etc etc" I was super terrified and scared about these thoughts and images and it all started by talking to girl on hocd forum, she has hocd and tocd both and she was sharing about her tocd obsessions to me and I got triggered and developed the same thing so it's very important to not talk to people about obsessions and compulsions who have other themes or subtypes because it would adds up into our theme too.