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Yesterday my in laws said I could hold my nephew and my head said what if you throw the baby I hate OCD :( I would never harm a baby
Yesterday my in laws said I could hold my nephew and my head said what if you throw the baby I hate OCD :( I would never harm a baby
Really good comments from everyone on this thread . I had to let out a laugh about juggling babies . Humor and laughter and connection to outlandish things helps put a brake on OCD .
You know what is interesting, I feel 99% of people 99% of the time have weird passing thoughts that barely get noticed or if they do they get shrugged off easily . With that said a person with OCD , GAD gets similar thoughts but they stick around way too long , it is how the wiring in the brain works I guess. Hang in there . Football Sunday baby toss, just joking around to lighten the mood . Truth be told I am a big fan of babies also .
@777Q So true . When I was doing really well with this illness and it was under control? These thoughts would pass through but have zero significance because I easily could say “ yeah that’s not me .”
@777Q I think that’s true. Other people can just naturally let intrusive thoughts float away. We get stuck on them. One strategy I read about was to make the thoughts more outlandish, like your football baby toss. I imagined borrowing a few more babies to juggle them. Don’t let your brain latch onto these thoughts, @iloverowdy12. Find some strategies to help you. It will get better.
Remember OCD thoughts are just thoughts. They’re meaningless. Like you said, you in your heart know you’d never throw the baby. OCD just wants you to think so because it wants you to feel unhappy or uncomfortable (which reaches its goal of making one do a compulsion). Recognize it as just a thought, let the thought pass, and continue what you’re doing. It’s tough but you can do this. Give that baby loving hugs!🥰
i was in target and saw this kid who looked like my nephew and i didn’t a double take because i thought it was him i was gonna go say hi to him. it wasn’t him, but then my OCD intrusive thoughts popped in and made me want to throw up and run away and hide. it popped in my brain and i was immediately disgusted with myself. i wouldn’t ever do anything to harm a child. WHY IS MY BRAIN LIKE THIS I JUST NEED A BREAK.
Please read and comment kindly. Really looking for support. My child was laying across me and every time I breathed a certain way I was getting a groinal sensation. I kept breathing like that anyways (ugh idk why), and then my mind told me I had hurt them that I might as well do something else because what's more. So idk why or what overcame me other than the thought of doing it and causing another feeling (I literally had to question what to do during this and the only thing I could come up with was to move my elbow towards her groin area) but it came across my mind to elbow my child, and I elbowed their crotch or side area. Which caused another unwanted groinal sensation. Then I began FREAKING smooth out and asked my child to move. Then I've been stressing since. I feel like as a mom I don't deserve to be theirs anymore. Idk what overcame me, and in the moment, it felt like I wanted to move my elbow, but I know that can also be my OCD speaking. Right? I clearly regret it all and hate myself. I would never intentionally hurt my child; I don't know what happened in my head when this happened. I was doing SO well! Is this my POCD that I've been diagnosed with by my OCD specialized therapist? Just a struggling mom who used to be the best of the best. I'm very depressed by this. Idk what to do with myself. I live in regret now, and I just wish it would've never ever happened. I can't stop ruminating and being depressed thinking I don't deserve anything.
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