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- Iloverowdy12
- Date posted
- 34w ago
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Yesterday my in laws said I could hold my nephew and my head said what if you throw the baby I hate OCD :( I would never harm a baby
Yesterday my in laws said I could hold my nephew and my head said what if you throw the baby I hate OCD :( I would never harm a baby
Really good comments from everyone on this thread . I had to let out a laugh about juggling babies . Humor and laughter and connection to outlandish things helps put a brake on OCD .
You know what is interesting, I feel 99% of people 99% of the time have weird passing thoughts that barely get noticed or if they do they get shrugged off easily . With that said a person with OCD , GAD gets similar thoughts but they stick around way too long , it is how the wiring in the brain works I guess. Hang in there . Football Sunday baby toss, just joking around to lighten the mood . Truth be told I am a big fan of babies also .
@777Q So true . When I was doing really well with this illness and it was under control? These thoughts would pass through but have zero significance because I easily could say “ yeah that’s not me .”
@777Q I think that’s true. Other people can just naturally let intrusive thoughts float away. We get stuck on them. One strategy I read about was to make the thoughts more outlandish, like your football baby toss. I imagined borrowing a few more babies to juggle them. Don’t let your brain latch onto these thoughts, @iloverowdy12. Find some strategies to help you. It will get better.
Remember OCD thoughts are just thoughts. They’re meaningless. Like you said, you in your heart know you’d never throw the baby. OCD just wants you to think so because it wants you to feel unhappy or uncomfortable (which reaches its goal of making one do a compulsion). Recognize it as just a thought, let the thought pass, and continue what you’re doing. It’s tough but you can do this. Give that baby loving hugs!🥰
Please someone shed some insight I am in pure panic mode and might go check myself in to a mental health facility. Well guys.. the other night I was giving my 1 year old a bath. Everything was going great. I wrapped him up in his towel after the bath, took him to his room and put him on the changing table for a clean diaper and pjs. I recall thinking during this interaction how well I had been doing with my ocd the last few days. I then decided to face a fear of mine and glance at my babies diaper area, something I avoid at all costs. Again just to face a fear, I had zero ill intent. This made me uncomfortable. Next as I went to put his diaper on and this is where my memory gets fuzzy. All I know is that I purposely allowed my hand to touch his diaper area. There was literally zero thought behind it I just did it, I don’t know why. I will say I am certain I DID NOT DO THIS WILL ILL INTENT!! I would NEVER!! But I made a split second choice and let my hand touch. I didn’t even think through the action it all happened so fast. I feel absolutely horrible, disgusting, like I don’t deserve to be a mom.. I swear I didn’t do it for any sexual reason whatsoever but I still feel so awful I can’t live with myself right now.
I have severe various forms of ocd. Now it’s harm related. I love my family and daughter but today all of the sudden when I’m driving I had a horrible thought of: omg i will kill my own child one day because I’m crazy. And this thought is so horrifying because I have no intentions of harming anyone but these thoughts come up and I’m freaking out…anyone else have extreme intrusive thoughts?
The other day I was with my mom and I had these intense urge to do this horrible thought, and a knife was in the table and I grabbed it but I grabbed it knowing that I know I was not capable of doing it and I put in the sink, I had to grab it in order for me to stop the “urge” that I was having. I love this women with all my life she’s been my inspiration to keep going forward, but ocd is telling me that I grabbed the knife because I actually wanted to do it. I don’t know if what I did was ok or not, or if I’m actually dangerous.
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