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- 1y
Thesis
Finishing my thesis this weekend. Im actually for real scared Im not gonna pass, its so much work to do still :(
Finishing my thesis this weekend. Im actually for real scared Im not gonna pass, its so much work to do still :(
Omg! Before my diagnosis - I had to write my senior thesis that was 26 pages. I had to ask for an extension because the passing grade to graduate was a B. Thankfully my professor gave me the extension, but I had a massive panic attack during this. I have a 10 page paper coming up in two weeks and that’s scaring me as well. I totally understand how you feel and I can only say to give yourself grace.
Ahh I get that so much, thank you for the message! I handed it in, had a really stressful time but I feel proud of myself for doing it. Good luck with your paper!
i have a research project now and a thesis in august, take the time to chunk up your work and assure your self you’re capable. we’re scared when we’re afraid we won’t be successful or even when we think we might be! it’s totally normal:)
so true, thanks!! Good luck to you as well :)
(21+ ONLY: TRIGGER WARNING) I have therapy today and I’m nervous. I just started going to therapy and I really like my therapist. She talked to me about doing ERP and I’m really nervous about it. I’m scared to tell her the extent of my OCD, and my themes. I’m scared to tell her about my false memory OCD, because I’m scared that what I did was real and I’m just excusing it as false memory, although I have no memory of it. I’m scared that I am truly a monster and I’m using OCD as an excuse—and that she’ll find out and distance herself. I’m just scared that my whole world is gonna fall apart, all around me.
No I’m not attempting or anything. I am just really in a depressive state as of now. I am so convinced that my fear is real you don’t even know. I don’t know what to do. I just want to go to sleep and wake up in a reality where this is all gone. But honestly I don’t know if that would change anything. I’m scared that this is who I was all along, and I’ve just been delaying what I will eventually become. I don’t want to do ANYTHING that my intrusive thoughts say AT ALL. But honestly that doesn’t mean anything anymore. I’m so convinced of the thought “you’ve been doing it this whole time without realizing it.” I think it’s true now. I feel incredibly stuck. I just want to be hugged :(
I dont want my relapse to stop me to assist, I will go but I am sad because I don't want a beautiful moment to became horrible because the fear and dicomfort I am feelling this days. It will be a good exposure but how can I enjoy it? The depression came back, I wasn't prepared for this, like I knew OCD is chronic but I forgot it hahaha Right now I am trying just to think in short times like, 24 h and it is helping a bit Update: The day was really good !
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