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- InfiniteLoop
- Date posted
- 5y ago
I am not a doctor, so please yake this with a grain of salt, but you might be dealing with what I am dealing with. It's called OCD with psychotic features (or OCD with poor insight). To break it down, people with OCD and high insight can rationalize that what they are experiencing is the brain playing tricks on them. But people like me, with poor insight, can't quite make that rationalization and end up thinking something "beyond" is causing it. Like I feel that either the "universe" or my "higher self" causes weird situations or strange coincidences to specifically cause me severe ditress. But, don't fret, because there are certain things that can help this situation. "Insight therapy" or augmenting an SSRI with an antipsychotic has been very beneficial for these populations. Are you still seeing a psychiatrist and how about a therapist (one who specializes in OCD)? Here is an interesting article: https://www.verywellmind.com/ocd-and-insight-2510632.
Thank you! Yes, I’m currently seeing one. It’s been extremely helpful. When I was really young, I was diagnosed but they never explained anything about it to me. They basically handed me Zoloft and sent me on. So when everything popped up, even though I KNEW the worries weren’t realistic, I couldn’t stop myself from worrying. It wasn’t until I started medication again that I could finally calm down some. Thank you again!
Sorry I don’t have anything helpful to add other than that I can relate to the experience you described happening to you 6 years ago. Especially the convinced you’re going crazy and in the “early stages” part. Sorry to hear it’s come back for you :(
@infiniteloop yea man ur brain goes thru phases and sometimes it produces way more anxiety or intrusive thoughts then u would like but eventually it starts to fizzle out. I have the same issue so don’t worry, I’ll be feeling great for like a week or 2 and then out of nowhere it’s like this uncomfortable anxiety hits me. But I always tell myself “hey you were feeling really great last week”, so ik that it always will go away and eventually I’ll be good again. So don’t stress so much and know that it’s normal, plus people without OCD have good and bad days so your really no different. Keep staying positive!
I personally am about to augment my SSRI (fluvoxamine) with an antipsychotic (aripiprazole).
That’s good that you were able to quickly recognize your trigger or your “type” of OCD. Just remember to stay calm and that if the thoughts flare up just acknowledge them and know “it’s just ocd” another thing is if you start to feel doubt or unsure it’s another sign of OCD, so if you’re thinking about checking if somethings wrong with you don’t. Hope this helps man. Best of luck.
Thank you. I actually needed this right now. I opened this app because everything was totally fine today, and then, just like always, my brain tries to find a problem and attach itself to it. I’m just trying to let the feeling roll away, but it’s hard. Maybe it’ll get easier with time.
Someone liked my comment on this post earlier today which brought me back to re-reading this. How’s it going for you now, 3 weeks on? :)
My current obsession is starting to ease up, which I’m thankful for! I’ve been having to allow the fear to come on without acting on it (checking, googling), and it seems to be working, albeit slowly. The fear is still there, but it’s easier to get distracted by daily life and move on. Thank you for asking!
Hey all! I just joined this app and wanted to ask for your thoughts and encouragement on something I’ve been experiencing lately. (*long post ahead*) I’ve had an OCD diagnosis for about 2 years now, along with generalized anxiety, depersonalization symptoms, and depression diagnoses since my teens (I’m 24). Been lucky to have great family and healthcare that have helped me get out of some very dark places. I’m currently on a very high dose of Prozac, a smaller dose of Wellbutrin, and have been in therapy pretty consistently since my late teens. Life is pretty good....I’m in grad school and am doing well socially and academically. I am moving out to another part of the country to do an internship for 10 weeks, starting this Friday. But with all of this great and wonderful stuff in life, I have definitely noticed my OCD getting worse, despite my meds and self care. I’ve been having more obsessive fears and doing the rituals and compulsions to soothe those fears. It’s taking up much more of my mental space than it had for the past 2 years or so. I think part of it is the big change of moving to a new place temporarily, finishing my first year of grad school, and going from being insanely busy to having a month of downtime that is just now wrapping up. I’m getting scared that things are going to get really bad again — so far I’ve been managing with mindfulness and acceptance, and reading up on tactics for managing intrusive thoughts and accompanying compulsions. But I am so afraid that things will get to be into the dark and horrible place they were in 2 years ago. My OCD has been really mild the past few years, since I started the meds, and to feel it flare up again is really REALLY distressing. It makes me scared that the meds aren’t working, or that all the thoughts and fears are real. I know this isn’t the truth, logically, but my OCD and anxiety are running with it. I’m just wondering if anyone else has experienced this (change-related flare ups and the fears accompanied by them) and has tools to manage relapse or flare ups. Thanks in advance :) :)
Hii, this is my first time posting on here. I’ve been dealing with OCD since I was at least 14, and I didn’t get diagnosed til a few weeks ago, I’m 25 now. I’ve had all types of obsessions. My first big was of getting tapeworms, I became a vegetarian yo avoid em(I’m still one but I don’t fear tapeworms anymore). I thought I had schizophrenia shortly after that, that’s one that comes back here and there. I feared the end of the world, I had a big religious obsession, that lead me to being agnostic And right now I’m dealing with what I think is somatic or existential ocd. This started in early 2021, one night I was in bed watching a movie and I became very aware of myself. I looked up derealization, cause what I thought it was, and I spent the next couple months checking myself and my surroundings to see if that’s what I was experiencing. It was a very miserable time for me, but luckily it ended, I don’t remember exactly when. I was fine for most of last year, but then a toward the end of year I went driving at night with my mom and sister. I saw a tweet online about how some ppl disassociate while driving and I got scared that would happen to me. It was dark and there were lots of cars and lights, I couldn’t shake the thought. Now I’m here, still not to able to. The few times I’m able to I feel fine. But as I realize I haven’t been thinking about it it comes back. I got on lexapro shortly after cause I figured it might help but I can’t tell if it is. My anxiety is reduced but yeah. I’m so scared I won’t feel like I did before. Like I know I’m not losing my mind but it’s hard not to feel like I am sometimes. I hope someone can relate to this.
It’s amazing how powerful OCD is, I went through the worst Mental Health experience of my entire life last year. I thought my life was over, that I was insane, and was convinced 100% I had schizophrenia. My brain was mimicking every symptom. It was terrifying. After starting OCD therapy and ERP. My life changed forever. I was actually mental stable for once. I felt happy and controlled for once. Now Schiz OCD is back , and it seems worse then before. I can’t sleep, eat, work, or even socialize. I constantly feel insane. My two biggest themes are Harm OCD and Schiz OCD. And these themes work together to cause me constant anxiety. It’s hell. I can’t even think straight. I’m currently dealing with DP/DR, command thoughts/voice, internal voices/thoughts that I can make not sound like me or my inner monologue, “What if” delusional thoughts,hyperviligance,checking if I hear or see anything externally(auditory and visual hallucinations) and many more. I question my insight constantly. I even went to the hospital the other day to get evaluated and make sure I don’t have psychosis. Everything I fear the most seems to be coming true. Constantly asking my parents and therapist/professionals if I have schizophrenia. Constantly looking for reassurance. Feels as if I’m thinking my way into psychosis and schizophrenia. OCD knows exactly what you fear and will try to one up you on anything. OCD will CONVINCE you everything that’s happening to you is true , all your biggest fears. OCD is trying to find new things to keep you stuck and hold you in fear. This experience has been horrible and I am convinced I’m going insane. But I’ve been through this once and I’m going to get through this again. STAY STRONG. Reach out to professionals, Resist compulsions, step into the fear, and relax a little bit. You’re not alone.
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