Since my ocd started i feel really weird, like i’m faking my hole life and i’m not the person i know i am, it’s really strange and it’s making me feel like i’m gonna lose control cause i’m not being myself… i don’t know how to explain it but it feels like i’m constantly fighting and every single thing means i’m gonna snap and hurt someone i love
hey, i agree with this a lot and its my current struggle as well. if you are comfortable its okay to tell your feelings to the ones you love, it helps quite a lot and you feel safer. this is a hard journey but i believe you will fight this off. you matter and you will beat this, its a disorder for a reason, we can fight. be strong enough to love life as it is. best of luck ❤️
@anonbeom thanks, u too ❤️ we’ll be alright
Funny that we all feel this way
@Saanch it’s horrible, but i guess we have to keep fighting this..
@malolin_21 Yes acceptance is needed for us to get through this!
Yes...I know exactly what you mean! You aren't faking it...although you feel like you are lying to others and your not the person you use to be. It's a terrible feeling, but that's OCD for you... unfortunately
@Speckles the worst part is that this feels so real, that it really feels like my feelings are fake, that my actions are not real and they’re just a big lie
@malolin_21 once i heard that ocd is a mimic disorder, but i don’t know if that means i can feel things like sensations and feelings that are not real but makes the obsession even harder to quit
@malolin_21 I know it does feel so real and that really stinks. But it isn't it's fake thoughts/ images. You aren't being fake it's your thoughts and images being fake
Everything feels so real. I think learning about non-offending pedophiles has really screwed with me. I feel like I’m not even doing compulsions anymore like I genuinely cannot remember if I do them or not and the groinal responses are messing with me. I keep having intrusive dreams and I’m in that half asleep state and I feel nothing after that or I feel weird like a good weird, I don’t know. It’s a really weird feeling when I get those thoughts but I don’t like them, I don’t think. All I know is, I keep seeking reassurance and I feel like I don’t have OCD because the way I feel, like the way I get worked up isn’t the same as others. Whenever I try to watch a show, like 9-1-1 or daily dose of sunshine, I feel like I’m watching something I shouldn’t be. Or if I’m just on my phone, I feel like something is going to happen. I feel red flags whenever I’m on my phone, like somehow cp will appear. I know that OCD is the doubting disorder but my god, this is just crazy. I feel like I’m going crazy. Everything is just nonstop, it’s so constant and I’m genuinely scared that I’ll do something when I get out of my room. I don’t know anymore, this whole OCD thing is just making me lose my mind.
I feel like im loosing my mind. I feel like i experience derealization or what. I feel confused like very very confused. I cant even think normally. Im just tired. I feel like im loosing myself. Im scared that everyone tells me that i have OCD, but what if this is all true? I dont think and im scared that other so-ocd sufferers dont feel this way as i do. I feel literally, LITERALLY so convinced that this must be true. It feels like i already accepted that this is true. Im done. My brain is broken. I even started to have thoughts like what if i have schizophrenia or dissociative identity disorder. Help me please. Do i have psychosis or what?
im not diagnosed, but these past two days have been terrible. i constantly have this underlying feeling that i might do something that i think is gross and i feel like i can’t do anything on my own because otherwise i might do something wrong. like i feel like i constantly have to be in front of people so that i can make sure of my every action. this is so exhausting and I’m so confused. and like i keep getting terrible images and stuff replaying in my head. i also try to recall what happened but i feel like i have false event too. i used to have religious ocd and that eventually stopped completely, but now it feels like all my work getting over that was pointless. also like i feel like i might have contamination ocd but not the typical germ type. I just get terrible images and I can’t remember if those images are true or not even though they’re impossible and i feel terrible. I don’t know if i could ever get over this because even the thought of it is terrible.
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