forestlife00
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- 5y
VinsVins
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- 5y
Recalling and analysing (trying to distinguish what happened and what didn't) is actually a compulsion which will only make the OCD worse ....Practice ERP and ignore the OCD theme - ignore and move on !
Chrissy417Chrissy417
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- 5y
Yes I’ve been going through it for almost a year now. It’s just our OCD giving the event more meaning than it needs to have and because we can’t stop thinking about it, we think that what we did was actually terrible. I’ve learned that me replaying the event over and over in my head and getting anxiety from it has made my brain think that there’s a threat so the thought of the event always pops up randomly because my brain is trying to make sure I’m aware of the “danger” but there’s really no danger. OCD sucks.
forestlife00forestlife00
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- 5y
Have you found any good resources about this theme? I’m trying to better understand it without seeking reassurance— most people though can only talk about the intrusive thoughts which aren’t always real events. My intrusive thoughts are a cause of a real event.. anyways let me know if you’ve found anything helpful for you!
Chrissy417Chrissy417
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- 5y
@forestlife00 Definitely check this webpage out! It made me feel a lot better and helped me realize that my reaction isn’t normal. http://www.ocdspecialists.com/real-event-ocd/ I know it can get discouraging because everyone else seems to deal with thoughts that aren’t about real events like you said, but I think our OCD can absolutely latch onto real events in the past. Most people can just brush off what we’re worried about but our brains can’t let it go and it becomes debilitating (at least for me). I’ve done so much reassurance seeking and everyone has told me that what I’m worrying about is not a big deal, but no matter how much I ask for reassurance and get the answer that I want, my brain still won’t let it go. Not sure if it’s a similar situation for you.
AnonymousAnonymous
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- 5y
@Chrissy417 YES!!!!! OMG IVE NEVER RELATED SO MUCH!!!!!!!!!!
Chrissy417Chrissy417
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- 5y
@thiswillpass I’m glad I could make you feel better and not so alone!! It sucks so much, but there is help out there for this
Chrissy417Chrissy417
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- 5y
@thiswillpass Well I just started seeing an OCD specialist and I’m going to be starting treatment for my real event OCD and ROCD (I’ve been having both) in a few weeks hopefully. I’m having trouble coping at the moment, but when I get the thoughts I just say “oh that’s ocd” and just label the thoughts and try to prevent myself from going through the compulsions. I’m sorry you’ve been suffering, I’m in the same boat :/ have you looked into an ocd specialist? And what is discord?
AnonymousAnonymous
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- 5y
@Chrissy417 Discord it's like a messaging service
AnonymousAnonymous
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- 5y
Yes yes yes!!!!!!!!! The worst case scenario feels so fucking real.
Ella___Ella___
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- 5y
Oh my goodness I literally thought I was the only one with this problem! I hate it I deal with false memories thinking Ive done something then I’ll ask the person i thought I did something terrible too and they’ll literally let me know that that has never occurred but my ocd will literally take no for an answer and hit me with what ifs and hit me with something innocent turning into the most terrible thing on earth
lyriclyric
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- 5y
Yes that’s exactly what I experience! For me it seems after awhile my brain exhausts one traumatic thing and then moves on to another. Sometimes they’re completely made up and other times my brain will tie together several completely unconnected things, but most commonly my brain will take something I have done that isn’t a big deal but then it will what if until it turns it into something really really bad that I can’t handle and it sucks.
lyriclyric
- Date posted
- 5y
Yes I’ve definitely experienced this. I’ve struggled with false memories and I’ve also struggled with real event ocd that I then twist into something horrible through “what if’s”. It’s super debilitating for me because it makes me feel like I’ve done some terrible things that I don’t remember doing or would never knowingly do. Specifically I’ll recall a real event that happened, but if it was a long time ago ofcourse I can’t remember every detail, so then I start to twist the story since I can’t remember everything and I’ll turn it into something really bad.
DaniloDanilo
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- 5y
OCD brings up a false thought , the imagination turns it into feLlling real. It's all false thinking.
forestlife00forestlife00
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- 5y
Thank you! I’ve actually come across that article before and have found it pretty helpful.
forestlife00forestlife00
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- 5y
I feel the same way. It’s as if everything I do can become a traumatic crime that I can never figure out or piece together... OCD is crap
forestlife00forestlife00
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- 5y
I always feel like my OCD gets worse when I Babysitt— my ocd always makes me feel like I’ve harmed kids after chnanging a diaper, helping the child get dressed or feeding them... I’m always in denial and my mind makes me feel so conivinved that I did something wrong . Anyone else experience this?
@Dee@Dee
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- 5y
Yep, you aren’t alone. YouTube: Mark Freeman “ocd and false memories” Super funny guy, very motivating and insightful offer tools and techniques.
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Northern_Dow...
- Date posted
- 25w
Real Event OCD is a different breed (18+)
Being exposed to taboo p*rn as young as first grade ruined my life and now ocd is making me pay for it. I have so much guilt for being a child/teen and looking at taboo stuff, and it was all fictional or anime or whatever but it was still so so gross. and I didn't realize It because I had been used to it at so young 🫠 I think what haunts me most is when I was a kid/young teen (like 12-14ish) and didn't have access to p*rn I'd imagine stuff similar to what I'd seen in the art. I can't even believe I'd imagine scenarios involving kid characters or whatever because it had been so normalized to me and I assumed it was normal since it was fiction. I'm 23 now so it's been a decade since I've done anything like that and I've never had the urge to since but still. I've NEVER been attracted to kids or had any urges or anything ever, even when I was addicted. The thought makes me want to vomit, I'd rather die than associate anything sexual with kids/minors and I think people who groom or assault kids are vile. But I still feel like the fact that I imagined stuff similar to the things I read sometimes when I was young is proof I'm a p*do. I don't think people would believe me if I said I'm not. I just feel like I don't deserve to live or that if I do, I'm living a lie. I know 'I was a kid too' but even when I was 13/14 I read/imagined stuff with characters younger than me because I thought it was normal. I'm so disgusted. I've had this theme for so long I'm starting to wonder if ocd is right. I feel too ashamed to tell my therapist.
amelia:3
- Date posted
- 23w
how to deal with real event + false memory??
im going to be vague here, but basically i did something in the past that i regret and it became a huge point of my OCD but i have talked to my therapist and i have mostly moved past it. i watched a video by an OCD youtuber that really put it into perspective. anyway, i have been with minimal worry for a few days, but now im having worries related to i think false memory? basically it’s like “oh but what if i said/ did this and just forgot that means i harmed this person im a bad person”. to me it sounds like textbook OCD but im just wondering if anyone else has experienced false memory / real event at the same time. i have a really horrible memory which is making it even more stressful. any responses are appreciated!
Lulu~
- Date posted
- 15w
False memories + real events (TW: POCD)
Hello 😭, so uhm I’m kind of in the point of my POCD where I’m just tired. I just need to get it all out and get some sort of instruction of how to just idk live? So for me my childhood is pretty blurry. I have a few real event blended with false memory events there but other than that I’m a csa victim. And the way I tried to cope? By fetishising nyself, making CP of myself, seeing my life goal as being used, raped and a prostitue. Self destructive behaviour through talking to pedophiles and seeing my only worth as if I was sexually attractive. Which made me kind of numb to CP as a coping mechanism I guess. And heres’s where my main event of REOCD/false memory ocd comes in. I have a few events in my life when I’ve accidentally stumbled across CP ish mangas or just plan abuse and not had a big reaction. Some of them I even liked the story. And my ocd LOVES playing with it, making me truly believe I enjoy and get of from CP. I’ve also had quite a few dreams. A few days ago I had a dream about me getting triggered by something I did in the dream. Which I now can’t figure out if it actually was a dream. But also moments overall where I’ve unintentionally touched my private part while my siblings are in the room or when I found a guy 2 years younger than me pretty in 4th grade. Or a few of my only friends who turned out to be younger than me, and I had talked about sexual things (like fan fictions, my trauma ect) with them. AHSHB I absolutely hate ruminating and I’m tired so so so so so so tried 😭 idk help me? Please TT
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