Anonymous 25#
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- 1y
Help
Suicide OCD people help. Tell me your stories, tell me it gets better and eventually stops, tell me it’s normal. Tell me something !
EvoorheeEvoorhee
- Date posted
- 1y
Put “what if?” In front of the thoughts. Thats all it is is a question, it doesn’t have intention or desire. 😉 dont engage with it or argue. Its only a thought that you put too much weight on. Remember, everyone has intrusive thoughts! Even really, really weird things, but they don’t pay attention to it and it disappears.
venusasanenbyvenusasanenby
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- 1y
i had this when i was 12 yrs old (i’m almost 19 for reference) eventually you learn to separate your true feelings from what ocd is making you think you feel. it does get easy and you realize at the end of the day you have the final say so, ocd can’t make you do anything that you don’t want
EvoorheeEvoorhee
- Date posted
- 1y
I’m serious, though, you really have to accept the fact that it’s not real, but on the other side, you have to accept that you have a mental illness. Our brains are physically different than a normal person. Have you ever noticed when you’re not thinking about anything at all and you’re just being yourself that none of this crap really bothers you? But if you have too much time to think then it bothers you? It’s a small problem that appears big. It’s not a big problem, it just appears big. It’s all an illusion. It’s just a trick your mind place makes it more real. Is the fact that it’s possible that’s it.
EvoorheeEvoorhee
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- 1y
@Evoorhee And let’s face it in this world anything as possible so this is a lose lose situation for us. The key is to not engage.
Anonymous 25#Anonymous 25#
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- 1y
@Evoorhee The mental illness part freaks me out I don’t like thinking like that 😣😣
alicethepalacealicethepalace
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- 1y
this was so me before i even knew i had ocd!! obvi i didn’t rlly know what was going on but i was so so so scared. things i did that helped me move on from it were journalling thoughts which helped me gain objectivity. i also had some accidental exposures(?) when i had a call w my doctor who suggested that j might have a real problem/watching a film w a suicide scene, and both of them gave me a panic attack haha but afterwards i felt a lot calmer bc of how upset id been at the idea of it happening? but honestly it’s been 3 years and i thought id never move on from it but i absolutely have so im so so sure you’ll be okay :)))
Anonymous 25#Anonymous 25#
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- 1y
@alicethepalace It took you 3 years?
alicethepalacealicethepalace
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- 1y
@Anonymous 25# nope!! this was 3 years ago, it took me a few months to get over that theme:))
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