My whole life has a hocd filter over it. Its not iust living in the moment anymore, its like i dont live in my world anymore i live in hocd’s world so everything is evolved around hocd. And that i hate because this beautiful life now feels anxious and uncomfortable while i used to love it. And thats purely because the hocd filter is over it and everything becomes hocd themed and its not just life itself anymore. I just want to feel vibes again and feel things with a clear mind so that they can make me love this world again and not make me feel anxious about everything or having to fake the love so i can still feel like myself but deep down i know im Forcing it to myself.

I understand completely. It’s like you miss the magic moments in life because you’re either worried or fighting off the thoughts. I found that trying to focus on the good and look outside of my head has helped a lot. I also recently tried acupuncture which didn’t reduce the intrusive thoughts, but it did reduce my anxiety and my reaction to the thoughts. I hope this helps and you feel better soon :-)

Thankyou! I indeed miss those magic moments sk much my whole life consisted out of it and than all of a sudden its gone and replaced wirh anxiety. Im definitely going to try to follow ur advise!

Everything you’ve just said floods through my mind every. Single. Day. I wish I could just go back to the way things were before all this and my mind was clear. I also look back and think how much I took it for granted and how I could have prevented it from happening. HOCD really does take full control over your mind and you examine every little thing your do or day to make see if you are or not. I just want to be free from all this :(

Ah.2 the prevention part is hige for me,My ocd wasn't gradual or random it was always caused by one moment and one mistake i did so always think what if i didn't do that mistake i never would've been in this situation,if there was a way to block the brain from storing memories for atleast 1 hour i would never had ocd crazy to think about

@annie9 yes your right! I can tell that ur very positive and thats a very good thing. You will make it out of hocd, good luck:)

I feel the same but with pocd. I used to look forward to everything but now I know that ocd will cast a shadow over it and ruin it. Even times when I’m feeling better than other times there is a weight over me

I feel the same way,i got hocd when 15 and i never enjoyed life fully everything was triggering it was really bad i couldn't fully enjoy anything,like even random things like music would trigger me,if i listened to a song by a girl im gay if i listen to rap im not man enough to listen to that etc. Ironically i would love to go back to that because my new theme is 100 times worse

Oh damn i feel so sorry for you. I hate that ocd has to ruin our lives in every single way i can think of. It really holds on to the tiniest things . I know ive been there with music, i still dont experience it the same was as before ocd. And also just things thst are suppose to be exciting i feel nothing for. I hope that all this is fixable

Yes @Ah.2 i 1000% can relate. I litteralt wish j lived my whole life jn the time before hocd. Because then i was alive. Now everything is dull and uncomfortable and anxious. It takes full control and i analyze e v e r y t h i n g. I was going quite good the past days and i felt no anxiety but i do still feel the depression that hocd created for me, i hope the anxiiety feeling stays away because everything is better than feeling anxious 24/7

Gosh I totally get this... this is random but I keep on thinking “oh I can’t wait till Christmas and to sit in a chair w me tea and my dog” and then I think “oh wait but what if my ocd is not gone by then” and then that made me realize that my goal is to be as close as better by then so recently I have been letting my thoughts all in and telling myself that I just need to let them in and I need to let myself be uncertain about whatever it is I’m thinking bc that is how I’m gonan get over this and get back to the “real world” where I can actually fully enjoy hanging out w my friends and stop pretending like everything is ok. Of course I ahve good and bad days but I think that’s just gonan be part of the process.