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I understand completely. It’s like you miss the magic moments in life because you’re either worried or fighting off the thoughts. I found that trying to focus on the good and look outside of my head has helped a lot. I also recently tried acupuncture which didn’t reduce the intrusive thoughts, but it did reduce my anxiety and my reaction to the thoughts. I hope this helps and you feel better soon :-)
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Thankyou! I indeed miss those magic moments sk much my whole life consisted out of it and than all of a sudden its gone and replaced wirh anxiety. Im definitely going to try to follow ur advise!
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Everything you’ve just said floods through my mind every. Single. Day. I wish I could just go back to the way things were before all this and my mind was clear. I also look back and think how much I took it for granted and how I could have prevented it from happening. HOCD really does take full control over your mind and you examine every little thing your do or day to make see if you are or not. I just want to be free from all this :(
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Ah.2 the prevention part is hige for me,My ocd wasn't gradual or random it was always caused by one moment and one mistake i did so always think what if i didn't do that mistake i never would've been in this situation,if there was a way to block the brain from storing memories for atleast 1 hour i would never had ocd crazy to think about
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@annie9 yes your right! I can tell that ur very positive and thats a very good thing. You will make it out of hocd, good luck:)
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I feel the same but with pocd. I used to look forward to everything but now I know that ocd will cast a shadow over it and ruin it. Even times when I’m feeling better than other times there is a weight over me
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I feel the same way,i got hocd when 15 and i never enjoyed life fully everything was triggering it was really bad i couldn't fully enjoy anything,like even random things like music would trigger me,if i listened to a song by a girl im gay if i listen to rap im not man enough to listen to that etc. Ironically i would love to go back to that because my new theme is 100 times worse
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Oh damn i feel so sorry for you. I hate that ocd has to ruin our lives in every single way i can think of. It really holds on to the tiniest things . I know ive been there with music, i still dont experience it the same was as before ocd. And also just things thst are suppose to be exciting i feel nothing for. I hope that all this is fixable
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Yes @Ah.2 i 1000% can relate. I litteralt wish j lived my whole life jn the time before hocd. Because then i was alive. Now everything is dull and uncomfortable and anxious. It takes full control and i analyze e v e r y t h i n g. I was going quite good the past days and i felt no anxiety but i do still feel the depression that hocd created for me, i hope the anxiiety feeling stays away because everything is better than feeling anxious 24/7
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Gosh I totally get this... this is random but I keep on thinking “oh I can’t wait till Christmas and to sit in a chair w me tea and my dog” and then I think “oh wait but what if my ocd is not gone by then” and then that made me realize that my goal is to be as close as better by then so recently I have been letting my thoughts all in and telling myself that I just need to let them in and I need to let myself be uncertain about whatever it is I’m thinking bc that is how I’m gonan get over this and get back to the “real world” where I can actually fully enjoy hanging out w my friends and stop pretending like everything is ok. Of course I ahve good and bad days but I think that’s just gonan be part of the process.
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I feel awful that I keep coming on here whenever I’m down bad but oh my gosh OCD is the most painful shit that I have EVER experienced in my life and I have a physical chronic illness…. I hate to say it but I hate living right now it’s too painful… im crying as I type to the point where my stomach is hurting, I have pretty severe ocd I do have generalized anxiety and idk if that is connected with ocd but because of that I have most of the subtypes REAL EVENT OCD,POCD,ZOCD,ROCD,SOCD HARM OCD, you name it and I got it!!! a lot of also why I have have those theme is trauma growing up and involving those things^ as of right now i’m 25 and a women with the most loving boyfriend in the entire world before my ocd hit me I NEVER questioned my love and care and attraction with the love of my life I always knew I was going to marry and be with this person the rest of my life! Now with ocd it confuses me soooo much and now I think I’m gay and didn’t realize or indenial and listen I get it “don’t look for reassurance!” “It’s not the thing ocd is attacking that is the problem ocd is the actual problem!” Here’s the thing with that if I’m in a relationship and I’m gay that would mean I would have to leave that said relationship and to say that “oh yeah that stuff happens and you’ll move on” is absolutely devastating to me this is THE LOVE OF MY LIFE and your telling me that iv been lying to myself this whole time or that I didn’t realize?!?!? And that sexuality can change (even though some say it can’t google says otherwise and some people have said it can’t idek anymore) and all this other BULLSHIT I can’t take it WHY?!?! why does this have to happen why can’t I just be with my love the rest of my life?!? and yes before anyone says anything I have been attracted to girls more so when I was younger watching lesbian porn liking the body’s and fantazing them sexually it stopped when I got older but I still don’t get disgusted with women who are pretty it just makes me uncomfortable because I’m with the love of my life and before I remember talking to my partner and discussing certain childhood things I experienced and we discussed that we both could be a little bi and for certain I’m (demi sexual so I don’t even really care about looks) and I truly didn’t care!! NOW I do care even with being bi because again I don’t like thinking about anyone else but my partner but I do also know my parents are homophobic and I do think about if I am gay they wouldn’t be okay with that and I also dont want to deal with that so now I sound like in indenial right?!???? I didn’t even care about labels before my ocd it just didn’t matter but now it’s effected my sex life and it’s hard for me to enjoy sex with being so confused I’m so confused I googled everything can you still have sexual fantasies with same gender but still be straight? Can you fantasize about same gender or imagine marrying them all of it !!! And non of that disgusts me it just makes me uncomfortable AGIAN only bc I just love the partner I’m with right now!!! I’m so fucking confused do I have to leave my partner and accept that I’m gay is that going to happen in the future if I get better with ocd and find out it’s been true all along?!???
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As a lesbian with SO-OCD, I feel so helpless. It's truly exhausting because no one I know understands what I'm going through. The first response is always, "You're just confused" or "You don't have to know yet." But that's not the issue, I do know. I just never see any lesbians with SO-OCD so I feel so invalidated. These thoughts flood my brain constantly, forcing me to analyze my reactions to every man I see. I feel trapped in an endless cycle of "testing" myself, trying to prove that I don't like them. But my brain fights back, telling me I do want to love a man, making it feel real even though don't want it. It's terrifying. At this point, it's hard to even hold onto my identity as a lesbian because I'm so overwhelmed. I don't know if this is what real attraction is supposed to feel like, and that fear eats away at me. The truth is, when I think about being with a man, all I feel is disgust and fear-but my brain twists that into doubt. I hate it. I'm at the point where I'm scared I'm going to have to accept something I don't want because I don't know if this will ever go away. I miss who I was before all this.
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I struggle with HOCD or SOOCD. I’m a married young woman to an amazing husband. I’ve had this since I was 16 but it only came in flair ups. However this round started in October, and it’s been really rough and I would just break down all the time. I went up on my medication and I actually noticed a difference! My thoughts were still very present but I wasn’t really paying attention to them or giving them power. HOWEVER right when I thought I was getting better, my brain started feeling and saying to myself that I just know I am bi but you want to make excuses for it like “oh it’s normal to find someone hot since we as a society have an interpretation of what that looks like” or “I see the girl as myself and that’s what ‘turns’ me on” or “well I mean that girl looks kind of like a man” and it’s it’s making me spiral. I won’t ever come out as Bi as deep in my soul I don’t feel I am. I have always wanted to be with men sexually and romantically and that has not changed but my brain is making me believe I am and I just don’t want to admit it. Please help me, what has helped you?
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