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I understand completely. It’s like you miss the magic moments in life because you’re either worried or fighting off the thoughts. I found that trying to focus on the good and look outside of my head has helped a lot. I also recently tried acupuncture which didn’t reduce the intrusive thoughts, but it did reduce my anxiety and my reaction to the thoughts. I hope this helps and you feel better soon :-)
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Thankyou! I indeed miss those magic moments sk much my whole life consisted out of it and than all of a sudden its gone and replaced wirh anxiety. Im definitely going to try to follow ur advise!
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Everything you’ve just said floods through my mind every. Single. Day. I wish I could just go back to the way things were before all this and my mind was clear. I also look back and think how much I took it for granted and how I could have prevented it from happening. HOCD really does take full control over your mind and you examine every little thing your do or day to make see if you are or not. I just want to be free from all this :(
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Ah.2 the prevention part is hige for me,My ocd wasn't gradual or random it was always caused by one moment and one mistake i did so always think what if i didn't do that mistake i never would've been in this situation,if there was a way to block the brain from storing memories for atleast 1 hour i would never had ocd crazy to think about
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@annie9 yes your right! I can tell that ur very positive and thats a very good thing. You will make it out of hocd, good luck:)
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I feel the same but with pocd. I used to look forward to everything but now I know that ocd will cast a shadow over it and ruin it. Even times when I’m feeling better than other times there is a weight over me
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I feel the same way,i got hocd when 15 and i never enjoyed life fully everything was triggering it was really bad i couldn't fully enjoy anything,like even random things like music would trigger me,if i listened to a song by a girl im gay if i listen to rap im not man enough to listen to that etc. Ironically i would love to go back to that because my new theme is 100 times worse
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Oh damn i feel so sorry for you. I hate that ocd has to ruin our lives in every single way i can think of. It really holds on to the tiniest things . I know ive been there with music, i still dont experience it the same was as before ocd. And also just things thst are suppose to be exciting i feel nothing for. I hope that all this is fixable
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Yes @Ah.2 i 1000% can relate. I litteralt wish j lived my whole life jn the time before hocd. Because then i was alive. Now everything is dull and uncomfortable and anxious. It takes full control and i analyze e v e r y t h i n g. I was going quite good the past days and i felt no anxiety but i do still feel the depression that hocd created for me, i hope the anxiiety feeling stays away because everything is better than feeling anxious 24/7
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Gosh I totally get this... this is random but I keep on thinking “oh I can’t wait till Christmas and to sit in a chair w me tea and my dog” and then I think “oh wait but what if my ocd is not gone by then” and then that made me realize that my goal is to be as close as better by then so recently I have been letting my thoughts all in and telling myself that I just need to let them in and I need to let myself be uncertain about whatever it is I’m thinking bc that is how I’m gonan get over this and get back to the “real world” where I can actually fully enjoy hanging out w my friends and stop pretending like everything is ok. Of course I ahve good and bad days but I think that’s just gonan be part of the process.
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- 23w
I keep having this weird feeling none stop that it’s most likely not HOCD and most my feelings. Like I’ve suffered none stop distress and unwanted thoughts the past few days. But those thoughts after a bit just feel weird not the kind of discomfort but are just their and stale. When I look at a guy I don’t feel anything but my thoughts sometimes compliment his looks or personality which makes me doubt my sexuality. I’ve never felt this weirded out. Because I’ve always been straight and still believe I am but I’ve never even had an emotional connection to someone of the opposite gender in fact. My view of the female body has been ruined with none stop pornography addictions. I don’t believe I’m gay but I feel like it may just be denial instead of HOCD but all my symptoms are literally HOCD. I don’t hate the idea of gay people but I can’t imagine or see my heart going off to like someone of the same sex. I haven’t really had any meaningful real life friends besides online but that also ended a few months ago. My only friend ever online that was my friend for the longest of time was a queer but I never really cared about what he liked. Like yes at some point I did try to challenge him with his own feelings but that didn’t last long I just accepted what he liked and moved on. I’ve never even touched let alone held a long conversation with a female. I’ve always been timid and shy around them but I can just say that towards male as well. The gay feelings feel so real. The thoughts feel a bit natural to me but I don’t want this. But I hate how I can’t just move on and be myself and love women when those thoughts demand attention and an answer. It won’t quit it. If I try to do a compulsion it calms down but it quickly becomes a problem again. I’m lonely I don’t have any friends or past relationships I can even think of helping me with the emotions. I still believe I’m straight and I just can’t see myself with a guy. It just doesn’t feel right for me despite my lack of experiences. I just wanna go back to how I was happy and loving girls and not having to question if it was a real feeling or just my natural timid nature. Everytime I think these distressing thoughts I always just wanna sit down and close my eyes and sleep. Because that’s where I can have peace of self. It sucks but I’m so exhausted of having to deal with emotional distress and I can’t even focus on my job as much. I want to meet new people discover my love for women again but I’m scared in the process I may discover I may be gay. Because deep down I know I wouldn’t ever be happy with myself if my greatest fears where confirmed. My dream of always being a father with a loving women and kids would be torn away by something I never asked for. Yes I’m religious, yes I come from a place that homosexuals are usually seen in a bad light. I just hate feeling this emotion that I may not be what I thought and having my dreams torn apart maybe true. I’ve read MUTIPLE articles about HOCD and seen MUTIPLE videos. I’ve come to the realization that I most likely have it. But it’s still hard when the feelings of maybe being gay maybe true you know? I hope I get better I hope I don’t suffer. I just wanna be happy with myself and loving females and I don’t wanna hate myself for feeling an emotion that never occurred to me more then a few times.
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Like I can’t think straight. This is making me doubt everything I’ve thought about myself and even makes me feel like I like the thoughts when I know I don’t. Like I would be less anxious at a time while I still have the thoughts and my mind would go “oh so you like it you must be gay” or the other one where I’m not anxious and I think of my attraction for girls that I’ve had my whole life and my mind goes “see now you’re not into them you’re gay” like it’s so stupid but so effective. I clearly remember being into girls my whole life but my mind is making me believe that all these attractions and feelings for women were all fake or “a thing of the past”. But I can still get aroused by women but I have this weird anxiety going on which brings these sensations/feelings and it’s so weird. Today I’ve spent my whole day thinking about it like I’ve been doing for 5 months now. I know that this aint normal but my mind just won’t let me live in peace. I never cared about my sexuality cuz I simply liked women my whole life but now my sexuality is a fundamental philosophy. I hate this.
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Need some advice please. I'm trying to fix my social anxiety, self esteem and confidence but ocd infests itself and makes me I had all these issues because I my ocd was true all along. For example, Im extremely uptight/awkward around people and have a fear of being judged, laughed at or seen through, fear of not being liked etc. One cause of this I read is it's because i suppressed my real self/feelings and pretended to put on a fake mask to be liked by others/fit in and now that im older that mask is breaking and causing me disconnect from my real self. My hocd inserts itself and makes me feel because I was gay all along without knowing it is why it happened. It genuinely feels like that's the case but then I feel dreaded and depressed because it feels so real I'm ready to accept that scenario. But back then I didnt think I could have been gay or anything. Im not sure how to handle this difficulty. Please any advice?
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